Epiphanies.

The "epiphanic" face and me with a tan ;)


   The Eureka was yelled as an epiphany. A sudden realization of the bigger picture of something or other; strange or not. I've had so many epiphanies of all sorts ever since things have been piling together; stacked up like a set of dominoes, only to come tumbling right down. 


      Don't things work in strange ways?? Sometimes, from the other end of the spectrum right to the other side. And everything does not have a permanence, right down to life and EVEN constellations; believe it or not. Theories especially; scientific theories seem to be in constant limbo of debate with so many dis-provings and epiphanies. Planck must be one of the best guys in the field. One of, of course. He's the "go betweener", (I'd call him that) for the theories he sort of linked together through an epiphany in the Astrophysics Science department. Quantum mechanics and quantum theories; and of course, Planck time and constants and the Planck Law; all from his ingenious mind in the year 1899, imagine. Imagine the size of his brain. Without proper technology and proper instruments, like the Hadron collider (you should check that out if you haven't heard of it, super cool machine.)


      So, anyway, the amount of realizations that have dawned upon thy brain hath been amazing. Sometimes, being away works wonders. You could just say, I took a break from life. And from blogging too, although WOW, how I miss you all bloggermunchies. And I miss the feel of a smooth keyboard's keys beneath my fingers. I'm definitely going to start again.


How I love you all :) <3 <3

The cruel portrait.

The moon she hangs, like a cruel portrait. 

She was divinity's creature,

Kissing betweeen cold mirrors.

Her lips of frost had frozen hearts;

her eyes of winter;

they drew like voids.

Those who couldn't have her,

Cut her free from the world.

Of sin and darkness rose; 

A mirth of sinless souls.

She drowned in seas of snow.

She awoke from her slumber.

Hair of ebony, lips of a rose.

She painted the sillhouette of many;

Many a man's dream.

She entwined, ensnared.

They raped, they raped;

They tried.

They couldn't,

This infernal creature could not,

Could not be caught.

The Adam's apple she stole,

She froze with her eyes of gold;

They lusted, they desired.

Lilith be her name;

Entwined in her own mirth.

Dark liquored eyes,

Dawn discovered her there.

Trapped in her own Labyrinth.

Kissing between cold mirrors. 

The petty issues of life.

Another funny webcam picture.


Freedom, it's un-absolute. I was just talking to some of my gay friends who are undergoing a lot of pressure from their families, society etc. Sigh* Things in July do not seem to be looking any good. I'm in desperate need for a roller coaster. Yeah, it gives me the exhilaration no other can satisfy me with ;) Picky picky.


My finals are next week and I cannot seem to find the inspiration or the push to study. Petty as it sounds; bugged down with a lot. I don't know; I seem to be sick of the fanfare and the masks we look at. Anything beyond the light after the tunnel?? What's next?? Do things seem bleaker and bleaker the older we get?? Growing up seems tedious and growing old seems tiring. Routines seem mundane. How would we know who to trust?? Are risks meant to be taken with people?? I frustrate many with my cynicism. Gah, infatuations of so many. Worldly temptations, freedom un-absolute.


I'd love to reach a stage when freedom is the ABSOLUTE-EST being in the vacuum. Yeah, I'm sounding a little abstract here. My brain works in weird ways :/ Nerds are hot. Geeks are hotter. Feeling a little random today. The gloom cloud is overhead. Lil (my baby sister) got us into a little accident today. The whole of the left front tire is scratched. Thank goodness we're fine. LOL. I'm such a numb being. It had little impact on me. 


Oh and the absolute stoops of low the people here can get to amazes. Never ever ceases to make me wowed. Seriously. I need WANT CRAVE my freedom!! If such a thing really existed. 


Oh well, life is just life I guess. Some people call it, the game of life.
Have an awesome day ;)
-Lishia-

Article 10, Bush and contradictions.

A Tomb Raider shot of me :)


There are many things, quite a number actually, that I find very very contradictory about the country I'm in. They would book us for treason at ANY possible reason of even voicing out our distastes about the ruling government and parties. Oh well. 


Article 10 if the Constitution of Malaysia states that Malaysians are guaranteed the right to freedom of speech, freedom of assembly and freedom of association. Yet when the BERSIH members gathered on the 9th of July, they were fired with tear gas and water cannons. "Bersih" is a Malay word that means "clean" and the whole reason for this rallying and campaigning was to  achieve political cleanliness AND to eradicate all forms of corruption. (BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY, I'M ON NO ONE'S SIDE HERE. I do not support BERSIH, neither do I condone what the law enforcers did.) 


So yes, they contradict. I salute the rally goers for their want of a new revolution, a tsunami of change and justice in the nation. Article 10 clearly states that YES, assemblies (like rallies) are allowed UNLESS they are booked under the "Sedition Act" or the "Official Secrets Act"-OSA. Which is also used in countries like UK and other nations. Yet, ministers who felt "threatened" were actually wanting to charge Ambiga-the leader of BERSIH under the ISA-Internal security act. None of us citizens really saw a threat in her reasoning as they were ONLY voting for a good and clean voting system especially in the upcoming elections. By the way, GEORGE BUSH was actually suspected (speculations were made) to be supporting the Unification Church or better known as the Moonies Church, based in the US. I find that REALLY funny because although he was quite unpopular at that time, his campaigns were pretty much strong as he was apparently funded by the Reverend Moon himself who was the founder of the Moonies. I mean, come on. Who actually started the beginning of the Gulf Wars and incited hatred against Iraq?? Who had TWO songs composed by two famous singers against him?? The songs "Fuck You" and "Dear Mr. President"  were sung by Lily Allen and Pink to mock Bush. 


So yeah, on the 9th of July the protests went high and dry. People from all over met up for the rallies in Kuala Lumpur-The Malaysian capital. Police were firing tear gas at the people and shooting them with high powered water cannons. Someone actually died because of the violence incited by the police. This I very much do not condone as Al-Jazeera aired some of the video shots taken at the place of the happenings. Trust me, the people were just marching and holding banners and suddenly, the police came like barricade-animals and started beating them up with batons, and REALLY REALLY abusing them in horrifying manners. A lot of the leaders say that the police had to do that because the people were not allowed to gather under such circumstances. More than 5 people who gather at some kinda rally apparently need some form of police consent (in this case which was not given) but really. I thought the Article number 10 permits this. Aren't they going against the constitution itself?? I've even checked the clauses and the revamped versions of it for loopholes. Didn't find any. Then the contradiction comes in where one of my friends mentioned about the 5 people gathering which needs some kinda police consent. I mean how could they construct such major laws with loopholes and contradictions?? LOL. Even the Articles of Confederation and the Articles of the Constitution of the United States of America were re-written and constantly revamped and proofread by so many people. Dear old Ben Franklin-one of my fave politicians wrote parts of it himself *beaming with delight*. 


The good side of the campaign was that such amazing unity was seen among the Malaysians. For once, there was no race or religion standing in the way. It was only 1Malaysia where the people were united in mind and thought. It was a very beautiful sight in a way although so many got injured because of the atrocities of the law enforcers. Law enforcers should know that they are NOT above the law themselves. Terribly wrong of them.


Anyway, I've got to get back to my studying. Finals are coming up soon!! Yikes. Plus, I can't really blog about these issues much. *You know, I know* ;)


Love you all, LOADS. 
-The political fanatic-

Bluh and bluh.

One of the funny webcam pictures I took.


I can be very evasive at times. Life has its own ups and downs and when mine hits its downs, I turn very evasive. I don't wanna blog in that kinda mood. I find it upsets my readers. Anyway, my stupid college blocked my flag counter so I had to create a new one. Which is pretty much a waste of time since I already had gotten visitors from so many countries. GAH. I'm actually more of a Coffee Bean fan but since there's only a Starbucks near my college, here I am sitting; drinking a blended mocha while waiting for my Mc Flurry to get ready in the McDonald's beside. One of the yummiest AND cheapest ice creams in the world. Okie, I just officially removed my flag counter :) Tee hee* 


I should stop blogging about the trivial. Makes my brain look a little shallow. Anyhow, I should give a running commentary on the 9th of July incident that took place :) Politics, one of my favorite fields :) Okie, Later ;)


-Ice cream Fan-

High school blues and political issues.

Me with my straight hair :)
Yay :) Now I can choose any color I want for my font because my blog background is black :) 


Today's rant is about high school. It should end in high school. I mean, all the petty gossip about who's dating who and who got into what university, does it really matter?? Oh and about who pierced where and who got what tattoo. Such silly little things you know. Yet they want to make such a HUGE deal, surmise about it and yak. What girls do best, YAK YAK. Goodness :/ And oh, don't forget the drama. I don't know what's up with people who have already left high school and dramas!! Like ME-OW. Put your claws back in!! Nobody's gonna wanna check them out :/ Dang you know. Ppfftt. My bestie and I were just talking about excommunicating the entire high school of ours, except for a few close friends who share the same level of thinking as us. A wise man once said, "Friends come and go but it's the gems that stay." 


I just am so appreciative of what I have. The proximity (not physical) I have with my friends, I made so many wonderful friends along the way. I have Alice who I know I can bank on at any time and there's Alyssa who is one of the hottest people in town and there's Calvin who's quite a gem; he's taught me a lot, his maturity amazes me. They all seem to get me, and get what makes me tick. Of course, Lynn's always been the one who was there for me through thick and thin. I've had ex friends (as I'll consider them) who have made me shrink back into my shell. (The one I use quite often.) One of them just started spreading rumors about me saying that I've dropped out of college and I'm wasting my life away. So not true. Seriously, I wonder if some people get the adrenaline rush that junkies get by talking about others. What's the fun in it?? Karma's gonna bite back real hard :/ Ouch*


And again, there's politics in the country. They're having some major campaigning and rallying here. It's to cleanse and rid all sorts of umm, corruption?? I think it's plain stupid. As I've mentioned before (if you've read back long enough), I used to work with the refugees in Malaysia, I taught them English and in return, they taught me Burmese or the Myanmar language. The refugees from Myanmar here in Malaysia fled their country to escape the junta ruling their country. The stories I've heard were atrocious. And now, with the rallies coming up (pretty soon, on the 9th of July) people are going to "clean up" the refugee camps as well. I don't think Malaysians really get or understand the fundamental meaning of REFUGEE. The Burmese refugees come here to learn English in the hope of getting a green card to the US because life there would be so much better for them. Mum knows quite a few of these refugees and just that day, one of them came over to my place to give my mum some of his belongings and cash. He said if they raided his place, they'd take everything he owns. Ya know, no one is really safe here. Even the Internet is constantly monitored. The rally would cause an uproar and the refugees would be affected. Mum gave some of them permission to come over to my place to hide if necessary. Idiots. Sorry to say but sometimes, a revelation or a revolution is needed for eye-opening. We Malaysians would have thought the May 13th incident would have given us something to ponder on. Looks like history is repeating itself with the current situation already looking like a Gaddafi-overthrow. The margins are getting worse here, with the rich getting richer and the poor getting poorer and the mediocre, stagnant.


You know, I asked some of the children I worked with. You know who the police are?? I cried when they told me," YES. They're the bad people. They took my mummy and daddy away." HELLO?? REFUGEES ARE NOT THE SAME AS ILLEGAL IMMIGRANTS. FOOLS!! I'm absolutely incensed and utterly nauseated with all the stupidity of the people here. Brains are very much needed. Really. People are so scared of everything, even worried if a change happens. Change is needed. It's the only permanence, the only constant in life. With all this happening, I really only hope it's for the better. That the good will take over after they outwit the bad and that a revolution will take place. A whole new turnover.
With this, I rest my case.


-Lishia-

Reasons why I don't want children.

- I do not want them to end up like me.
- I never ever want to suffer the hurt of a mother. I am not capable.
- I do not want to waste my precious time bringing up something I know might not turn out the way I brought it up to be.
- I have to focus on my career and be selfish for once. In my entire life. The biggest decision I'm making.
- I never ever want to feel failure. Or to feel like I have failed my child. Because of my doing.
-I never ever want to bring a life into this world, only to find it suffer the consequences of my selfishness. 
- I never ever want to worry constantly about something so tedious as a child and his/her college fees.
-I never ever want to see the life I bring into this world hurt by anything else be it an external factor or an internal one.
- I will never be ready for parenthood. Many people have said I would change my mindset but I never have.
- I will always be selfish because I never really know how to express emotion. A child would suffer under me.
- I just do not see the point of bringing another life into this world when it is already so filled with the dying. Why not, just be nice and adopt a child?? After all, it is already here. And it needs so much more help than anything.


I just do not agree with certain people who want children for the wrong reasons. I am very VERY against it. If you can't handle being a parent, DON'T BE ONE. Your children would only suffer under your reign. If you are a monarchist or a sexist or something, DON'T HAVE CHILDREN. If you come from a patriarchal society, chances are you hate daughters and you have a HIGH PROBABILITY of getting one. If you want to play favoritism, do not think of having kids. And if you blame yourself and your children constantly and have UBER HIGH expectations, just WEAR A CONDOM. Please. You'd do better off without any.


-The thinker-

Marvel versus DC.

It's finally, the great old showdown. Marvel (dramatic music) versus the great DC. With the crazy increase of comic book heroes on the big screen now, it does actually look like a huge showdown between Marvel and DC though I must say that DC has already been producing a superb amount of gigantic blockbusters even before I was born :/ Batman, Superman, Spider Girl were the superheroes we admired. Together with the oh so sexy villains, Poison Ivy (yum), The Joker (played by our very own deceased Heath Ledger) and more.


How can you deny the brilliance of the masterminds of these two mega comic industries?? The money they generate from it, the legends that never seem to die. C'mon, they're back!! :) Haha. Mm, look it this. It's Poison Ivy (my favorite villain-I love how guys fall for her charm. She's irresistible) and she's looking GORGEOUS; played by Uma Thurman. 

 Her hair, her eyes, her charms=enticing. *Salivating* Haha I shall stop. 
So, who wins?? Who takes the winning trump card?? Marvel OR DC?? Both have wowed us with their absolute brilliance. Marvel and their crazy legendary amount of superheroes- Spiderman, Thor (just released), Iron Man, Captain America (coming soon), the awesome X-men and more OR, DC and their amazing round of action figures- Flash, Justice League, Superman (the only underwear-outerwear superhero), Aquaman, Batman, Green Lantern (just released) and the drool worthy list goes on. (Hope you're not bored to death at this point. Comic fans would get my enthusiasm.) HAHA It is delightful to watch the very heroes you used to fantasize about on big screen. Ooh yeah. I could go on and on about these fictional characters, they never seem to stop boggling my mind. So then again, who'd take the winning place?? 


If all of them were to get into a deadly duel for the top spot, who do you think would win?? :) LOL. I'd really love your feedback. And also, which mega comic company takes the cake?? Marvel versus DC. Both equally intelligent in their authentically genius role-playing characters. Would the humans win?? Or would the mutants take the cup?? You tell me.


Pictures for your viewing pleasure. 
From DC:


Flash.

Green Lantern

Super Man (Jack, wink* wink*)

Justice League (Drooling)

From Marvel:


X men.

 Iron Man.

Moon Knight. (He's hot and he needs a comeback!!)

Juggernaut.

Just swoon* Alright, it's back to assignments after this excitement.


-Comic fan-

Permanence??

The ruts I'm in never seem to want to let me go. They hold on, grip onto my flesh so tightly I feel bound. Bound by everything. Now the rut's become a whirlpool and it starts to suck mass in. Inward, into a never-ending feud of eternal gravity. I wonder why things happen this way. For a reason?? Yeah. That's a permanent saying. Oh well. Life as we know it. Been walking around with a numb heart for the past I don't know how long. Anger seems to be the only other emotion I feel.


Oh well. Life. As we know it. 
Just make me a permanent fixture in your lyrical mixture. For I'm at a juncture, about to puncture. 


-Numb hearted-

Dollops of thought and animal news.

The madness just had to stop. I had not even a little dollop of scrumptious time for myself. On a brighter note, I found another friend. Ah, true friends are indeed hard to come by. Alice. She's amazing. Yup, she's real; not the created version from Lewis Caroll. Whoever knew we'd strike each other's paths just like that. Minds crossed.


I seem to have forgotten the amazing adrenaline rush I get when I type out word after word that pours out of my mind. It's beautiful you know, the sensation. I miss my phone. Oh yeah, it got stolen. One of the reasons why I was too down and dumbfounded to blog. Yeah, hiatus has been my first and last name. Middle too. I'm back though, it's not like as if I died and rose again :) I'm no Jesus. Oh well. It's been quite a stressful while. Being little Miss perfectionist does not seem to do me any good at all. The world irks me. So sometimes, I build my own one, create it out of imaginary power and live in it. I'm serious, oh how I've missed this. My fingers running all over the keyboard, it's sheer utter magic as they bounce lightly on note after note. I had forgotten, alas. Forgive my dramatics but scenes sometimes, I form. For too much have I seen and watched. Too much has happened. Recently, a lot changed in my life. I mean a lot. I guess I've grown to see that yes although every human has some good in them, they do also have a substantial amount of evil manifested in them. Oh well. The things humans would do just to sadistically rid the other. This is random but sometimes I do want to believe that there is an unborn genius in me. A better one than the genius I have in me now. Haha. Not manifested in all its splendor yet. Just yet.


On another hand (one must wonder how many hands I have now), kudos to you ;) If you ever read this, I just wanna tell you, thank you for opening up my eyes. It's a good thing you rid me before I rid you for if I were to be the one ridding you, it'd be not a pretty sight and don't we all love pretty ;) I'd take you back in if you'd just admit what you did. You see, denial is one of the greatest crimes. Especially if you were to divulge the secrets of a fellow friend to others (especially to former enemies), tsk. Not a very nice thing innit. If you need self annihilation, don't drag me in your small petty world. I still love what I have and my astounding sense of mindful liberalism, please and thank you. And I'd love to give you a standing ovation for being the best actress in the world, you got us all fooled. Even little naive gullible me :)


Oh well, Malaysia as usual, is under the microscope of many. Animal activists all around the globe have been scrutinizing the beautiful island of Langkawi in Malaysia. Dolphins there have been dying from multiple illnesses especially mental illnesses, believe it or not. The article just nearly ripped a hole in my heart. Dolphins. They're gorgeous. "The world's saddest dolphins." What an utter shame the saddest dolphins are in Malaysia. Here, the article. 


http://www.spca.org.sg/captivedolphins.html

But really. Imagine living in a room full of mirrors. Every angle, every little degree and every step you take has a mirror. 2 out of 7 of the dolphins died. Boycott the Resorts World Sentosa in Langkawi please. Dolphins are not creatures of captivity, same as humans. How would you like to be enslaved and kept in a room full of mirrors?? And then, you'd have to do tricks, beg and be at the mercy of another. Gosh. Just read the article. It'd break your hearts. Unless you have steel hearts or something.


Another crazy thing is the man from Egypt who wants to kill a lion. He challenged a lion into a duel. All because he wants to represent Egypt; with the lion representing Israel. It's foolish nature. I miss being the animal CNN anchorman ;) Or, anchorwoman. Oh how sexist, language is. Where it's HIS tory and never HER story. HAHA!! 


And the article.


http://www.bellaonline.com/articles/art13309.asp

Seriously, fighting a lion barehanded. Not a very fair duel I'd say. I bet he'd drug or sedate the lion beforehand. Idiots like these should be sent back to school. This ain't madness. More like the degree of insanity already.


Anyway, I'll end here ;) Love you meows and sorry for the long hiatus. 
-Madness is genius-