So here we go again.

Me camwhoring.

So my parents being like other parents (so I've been told), have been hurling insults at me again. I have no idea what's the deal with them.

It just hurts when they say stuff like, "If only you were better." Or, "If only you were as good as her", "Look at him/her, can't you be as good??" And trust me, it's all downward comparisons. it's really painful when they go like, "I wish you didn't exist" or "You're useless/worthless" or, "I sacrificed so much for you; wish I hadn't."

Also hurts when they go, "You're the reason why I'm depressed" or "You know why I take two jobs?? It's because I want to get away from you." They think I don't respect them. How can I connect to them when all they do is brush me aside?? They don't see me for who I am but for what I can or cannot do. Amazing!!

Sigh* This is solely a post for ranting. I'm going to sit and cry right now. No wonder I feel not good enough all the time. They want a perfect child and I have all the imperfections this world has to offer. Sorry for ranting.

Ta.

Corni-ness and depression.

Have been camming for fun :)

Look who's back with a brand new swag :P Haha!! Sorry. Just felt like being corny for a second. *On a more serious note* I'm happy :)

*Glomp* = New word taught to me by Aaron Howell!! Haha. Nutter you're a genius!! Don't let this get to your head now :P Hmm, he also taught me *huggles* and lots of IT stuff. Sheesh :S

Okie. Phew, what shall we talk about?? Hmm, well my subjects for the new semester which starts next Monday are- Chemistry, Calculus, Anthropology and American/Canadian history :) Woots* Doesn't that sound awesome fun?? Other than the crap I learnt in mass communications. Okie, maybe I'm too harsh. But then, what they lecture on is what I read up on the Internet. Sometimes. I miss being analytical and logical. I'm so ecstatic about changing courses. Yes, I'm a hardcore nerd/geek/dork as you can see :) Gosh, science!! Come to momma, yo!!

There are a lot of issues running in my head but I have to be very selective on what I air here. Very very radical issues that can be sensitive to certain groups. *Thinking*

Let's talk about something. I'll blog more later. Currently have issues to handle.

Love you all.

Everything.

A silly picture of me before an event at home :)

Sorry all :) Lost my blogging mojo for awhile again. Then again, have been uber tired. Had so much to settle, what with results out and all. Am very very thankful for a few things.

1. I'm back in action!! In the Science field. YES I'M BACK IN BIO MEDICAL SCIENCE AND I'M VERY VERY ECSTATIC ABOUT IT.

2. I have very special people who care for me and love me. They never gave up on my dream.

3. I'm a step closer to where I want to head.

4. Planets are aligning properly and I feel a better future ahead.

5. Lecturers like Miss G and Miss R and Miss M who saw my potential and pointed it out to me and even helped me.

6. A change of air, a fresh taste in everything I'm encountering.

Things I'm scared about.

1. Calculus, additional Mathematics and a whole lot of blood, sweat and hard work.

2. Not being able to live it up.

3. Being a disappointment again.

4. Not meeting expectations in various areas, and for various people.

5. The future. It's unplanned.

6. About everything??

Well, all I can say is thank the Good God that all is well right now. After such a long period of grief and depression, everything seems brighter for a moment I guess?? Hope it won't just be momentary.

I just found something out. I love being bitten.
Oops.

Love,
Miss Naughty.

Battlefields.

The best battles are held and won or lost in the mind. I often wrestle with myself. My subconscious levels and my own self defense mechanisms.

Don't ask me how I built them, I don't know myself.
I often enter my own world which could be a fun place to be yet dangerous at the same time. I'm wrestling right now with my esteem levels. Sigh* Maybe I should upload a video. For the first time!!

It's me singing "The only exception" and Whitney Houston's classic, "You light up my life". I composed the medley, my best songs come about when I'm depressed :P



Tell me how you like it :P

P.s# It's my first video on the blog.

It's 4.20 am now, will blog more later :P

Ta,peeps.

Smells like trouble.

Here's a funny picture of me before the event on Wednesday. Was being vain :P

It's a Saturday afternoon and here I am in bed, blogging. Haha with a tummy ache :(

Had a tom yum in the morning with a lot of chillies. Bad move, I think. Sigh* Haha. Suffering the consequences of eating spicy food.

Just had an event in INTI Nilai just last Wednesday. Boy was it fun. Culture is always awesome. And last night, I watched Inception with mum, dad and Lil. Best movie ever. To me that is :) I love brain stimulation. Inception somehow managed to game with the mind. Especially when we're watching a movie, our subconscious levels fool around with us. The movie was extremely tantalizing, even mum enjoyed it. Lil didn't fall asleep as well. She always does during movies :)

So, moving on. I'm definitely filing a lawsuit against the university I was previously in. UTAR. No wonder I couldn't do well. They were tampering with our marks. How dare they fiddle with students' grades?? They crushed a lot of our dreams. Seriously, if you guys read my blog last year, into the beginning or this year, it was filled with really emotionally down posts. I kept moping about how hopeless situations in UTAR seemed. My lecturer rang me yesterday!!

She told me a very good solution. Get the reporter's email address and present my case to him. Reporters and journalists are the best extractors of secrets swept under the rug. It's also no use going to the main newspapers as we all know, main newspapers are almost always owned by government bodies and they only publish what they think WE should hear. They promise us candy-coated sugary promises which are NEVER carried out.

Malaysian politicians have just gotten overboard. Do you know ho much they undermine other races?? I really don't care about getting into trouble with the pathetic law of this country anymore. In Malaysia, they take what you reap and sow and pocket it. My friend who owns a sugar cane plantation got an order from the government to hand over his land. Gosh, how can they do that?? Want to know why?? Just because the sugar prices in this country have gone up, they are requesting (in a forceful manner) that the land he owns right now be given to them. They claim they will compensate him. He is the soleful owner of the land; he should be the one who enjoys the profits of it. Just because of the sugar cane plants on the land, FELDA wants it back.

Another issue in this country- the Internal Security Act,(ISA). It just acts on its own accounts. If they think the person is fit for that jail, they will just detain him/her without valid reasons. Or the reasons that they give may seem pathetic to others. Gosh, law enforcers should really act on substantial evidence and proof instead of the petty impulses that rush their adrenaline.

My anger and outrage is righteous and I shall not rest till I bid my time.

P.S# Can't wait to get out of this bloody country. Hope it's all a freaking nightmare I'm in.

Sigh* Injustice. Petty, pathetic.

Love, forlorn.

Disgusting injustice.

Okay. Guess what. I'm so peeved right now I could punch someone and break his jawbone. Gosh!! I'll show you why and eloborate more later. Am too angry for words.

http://freemalaysiatoday.com/fmt-english/news/general/8041-seniors-Utar-academics-quit-over-tamper-directive

Now we know. Malaysian politics is a neverending squad of nonsense. No other country is silly enough to bring politics into the education field. No wonder, however hard I studied, however hard WE knew we could score, we didn't get the results as predicted. Just no wonder. UTAR, wait for me. I'm going to be bringing you to court once I gather up enough evidence. Your racism, prejudice and bias perceptions towards us students had gone way too overboard now. Why not base it on merits??

WHY do you have to base it on skin colour and discriminate?? Please. You know why 1Malaysia will never work?? It's the politicians themselves who are not showing us good examples. How can politics be mixed with education?? How can you discriminate students based on skin colour?? And you go around bragging racial harmony. Look behind the walls you have built around your CONTENTED selves.

MCA, we know you are a Chinese-based political alignment. But you do not have to discriminate the Indian students by not giving them the scholarships they deserve. You know, you are all just plain cowards who are so backward that you can't move forward.

I still can't believe you tampered with our results. No wonder although I knew I was scoring well for my science subjects, results proved otherwise. Gosh, no wonder Mr. Mok quit and went to lecture in Penang instead. STOP COVERING UP. UTAR, you just are such a terrible place to study in; don't blame the students. Look at the systems first. You do things without telling us. Changing the whole marking system, changing the boards without mentioning a thing!! You will pay for the damage done to us.

With this, I take a final bow. Meet you in court. We'll see who mind-games better.

Toodles.

That was my post on Facebook. Will tell you more. Ta for now.

Fact, fiction and myth.

Jack and I again.

Prince Charming: Fiction.

Jerks: Fact.

Ouch huh?? :)

Let's talk about everything on my brain today. It's overworked and about to start hyperventilating. I'm so restless and it's 4.32 am!! I'm supposed to be snug as a bug in the rug in my bed. LOL.

Was just talking to Lynn yesterday. Remember her?? My bestie.



For those who forgot how she looks like. A face for the name :) Shucks. We were just talking about intellect. And why it's so hard to find people on the same intellectual power as us. Seriously, it's quite difficult for us to strike proper tennis conversations with people because they'd either be dumbfounded, tongue-tied or blatantly ignorant or in other words, plain dumb. Pretty sad an issue.

How a conversation of a girl sounds like: TGI's, food, money money, Starbucks, boyfriend. You heard?? OMG Nail polish, manicure, Gucci Prada. And yeah sales sales, Coco Chanel, Giossardi Versace. (Haha I'm evil but it's true.) It's not just a stigma, that's how air-headed some people can get. Sigh* Feel like mocking :) Hey the book- To kill a Mocking Bird is good. It should be read over and over again :P Like a Sidney Sheldon.

Illuminati: Fact and fiction.

Bankruptcy in Greece: Fact.

'Ndrangheta Mafia: Fact.

Fairy tales: Fiction.

Oh no, I've an event later. Bus is only leaving at 5 from my college. Oh boy, have to get dad to pick me up way later. He's not going to like it :S

Coffee as a "keep awake drug": Myth. (Studies show that coffee makes ones eyelids heavier) :)

Most guys are jerks: Fact :) HAHA!! Forgive my blatant sexism. Just feeling like it today. But, note the most!!

Guess what by the way!! Spiders only eat once a week. But my little Midnight eats twice a day!! Haha I've been over feeding but I think I can justify that by saying, it's just a spiderling. Yeah but it's always hungry. I should probably cut down its food intake to once a day and then once in 3 days after it molts for the second time.

P.S# Spiders are SO enjoyable: FACT.

Snakes are cute and harmless: FACT. But you have to know how to handle them of course :)

Night, peeps. Will try to sleep and not dream of the Illuminati I'm going to do further reading on :P

Xoxo xx, Shia.

Post to you.

A Jem picture specially for October.

But YOU!! I know you don't read my blog. I honestly did try blocking you out.

Yet right now, I'm awake in the infinite cold. You paint the colours of my mind. You colour my mind with splashes of colour I thought I'd never see again. You sneaked past my barriers. I'm still in question. You swooped down unexpectedly.

I fear you. I really fear you. I can't figure. Can't get shut eye. I hope I'm able to protect your dreams tonight. Two of you out there, your dreams have gotten overboard and I feel it. Let me be your dream guardian. I may block you out but I want you in.

I'm scared of what you're able to do to me. I'm yet to be submissive, no I'm not even slightly submissive, I'm just scared of the YET about to pop in.

Alright, no more here. But before that, sing to me the song of the stars in your galaxy; dancing and laughing again.

Love, Miss Confused.

Extraction, gynophagia and brainiacs.

Me and Jack.

Sometimes, I sit back and think. I think of you. I wonder, is this what love's all about?? Then again, what is love?? Haha. Agape, eros.

Hmm, so many things crossing my mind. Don't know where to start. It's hard you know. Trying to extract something out of my mind that just won't budge. You know it's there. The imagery, meaning, thought and verse; it's all there. But it's SO difficult to put into words. So yeah, again. It's back to square one :) I crave the forbidden, desire the untouchable and am passionate for the taboo.

Gosh sometimes I wish I came with a manual. Haha. I'm the most contradictory being I've ever met. Did I mention complex?? Or complicated?? Sigh* At times, it's fun. But other times just requires a slapdash of normalcy :)

Oh gosh, just now, when I went out for lunch, I checked on Midnight. Guess what. The meal worms that Midnight eats were infested with another kind of larvae so I had to throw them away. It's a good thing it was raining. Just poured them into the drain. I wouldn't want anything diseased hitting my family or pets. I'd be so remorseful if that were to happen and it would be my fault because I'm the one breeding worms. Lol. Was quite sad to have to drown them. Poor things. Mum asked me, "How do you feel, keeping the worms, feeding them and then killing them?? It's like chicken." YUCKS!!

How can worms and the breeding of worms be equated to chicken and eating and killing them?? Yucks. Haha.

So yeah, I'm very much into this I'm not sure what it's called. It's related to Biology and also stimulated and grown from the human mind. It's very umm, abnormal though and it's a fetish. A little bit psychological as well. It's a fetish called gynophagia. Yup. I've been mindlessly reading up on it and apparently, this fantasy or psychological disorder if you may want to put it that way; has a very large following. Actually, even Japanese people have comics on it.

Gynophagia. Definition: Gynophagia is also, Vorarephilia.(Fantasy fetish involving devouring) where the victim is a female woman or humanoid.

The fantasy can be consensual, or be related and mixed with violence and rape fantasies. Often the fantasy involves the ritual beheading, to keep the head as-is, as a trophy and tribute, but the body is butchered and cooked for eating. For others the fantasy involves spit-roasting or general cooking of women, alive or dead, with or without their heads.

The terms "spit muffins" or "long pigs" have been coined for women who are thus treated in such fantasies. Several stories include elaborate descriptions of women being fattened up to be eaten, but most images depict women of average body physique.

A similar fetish, androphagia ("man eating"), fantasies of cooking and eating human males, also exists but is far less common, possibly due to the lesser propensity of women to fantasize of themselves as sexual predators.

It is hard to gauge the actual distribution or commonality of the fetish, since, as with many of the more extreme fetishes, many participants never engage in it beyond fantasies (as opposed to fetishists who act out their fantasies in sexual roleplay) and internet encounters. A substantial minority of the visitors of related websites claim to be female, another claim that is hard to verify, though sexual research has shown that a substantial percentage of females fantasize about being victimzed.

A widely-published form of gynophagia is that of Dolcett, whose fictional stories and comic pictures often feature a woman being spit roasted alive (and often evidently enjoying it) or being cut up for food. The fiction usually portrays it all as consensual with no pain or torture involved.

So yup. There we go. Pretty interesting stuff innit. There's more like that. Macrophilia, microphilia and all. I'm not saying it's bad. I'm just hitting on the aspect that the human brain is such a wonderful playground. Imagine the perspectives we could hit. The continents we could reach and the planets we could conquer. Just by utilizing the tiny thing up there simply called, The Brain :)

*Credits to Kit*

P.S# Will blog more on gynophagia.

Love, the Brainiac.

Midnight, meal worms and everything in between.

Candid me shot.

I was in fear, phobic. I was paranoid and struggling with the demented. Sick and twisted, I lay there; death awaiting me laughing me in the eye. I put on my rose-coloured glasses and I saw you. Thought you were a mocking dream. But I took them off and you were still there. Spirits soaring, I smiled. For the first time. (Don't know why I thought of this imagery) :P

Guess what!! My finals are finally over!! YAY!! And phew, I've another wedding to attend :( Boo hoo right?? Am so lazy to go for the wedding. Sigh*

I'm really sorry about not blogging that much. Have been up to my eyeballs in work and stuff. Finals were a killer. Gosh. I hate exams. And, as promised, I have some pictures of Midnight (my pet tarantula) now. It's grown a little bigger and it's also a very very voracious eater!! Seriously. Eats so many meal worms. I'll post the pictures after this. Trying to get my blue tooth to work properly. Think I overwork my phone. Lol too many things stored inside. Hoo boy. Just found out that the wedding is in Pahang. So it's travel time with daddy today in the car. I'm going alone with my dad. Lol.






So, as promised. Pictures of my baby tarantula. I'm still trying to figure out the sex. I named him/her Midnight :) It's gorgeous!! Eats a lot and in those pictures, if you observe carefully, you'll see a worm in its mouth. Yup, Midnight's having dinner. Voracious eater for something so small. Really sexy. Sigh* Am in love with my pet :P Oh sigh again. I've to get ready because we're leaving for Pahang at 3 pm. It's already 2. Oh by the way, for my non-Malaysian audience, Pahang is another state. I'm in Selangor; a different state altogether :P

Hmm, since I haven't been blogging for quite some time, I've so many pent up thoughts that I just don't know where to start. Well, I just discovered that although I've the language skills, my brain just isn't cut out for the arts. I'm too analytical. Too sceptical and mass communication just doesn't cater to my wants and whims. So, I'm currently crossing my fingers, arms, toes and whatever else that can be crossed on me and hoping that I'm able to conduct a credit transfer directly back into the Bio Medical science field again. Sigh*

Remember talent over passion or passion over talent?? The forum-debate thing I was going through internally. I've discovered the answer. It's passion over talent because no matter what, passion overrides talent.

Also realized another thing, I seriously crave the forbidden. The more you say NO, I'll say YES and it will eventually happen. That's not very good for me :( Wish I was more normal but then again, quoting Michelle: Normalcy will be boring :) Okie, It's hitting 2.20 and I really better get going in case I hear nagging or screaming. I'll come back and post more :) Okie?? Oh, mum LOVES Midnight now by the way. From afar :P

P.S# Don't be grossed out.
P.P.S# For the curious people. This is what Midnight eats. Meal worms. I breed them separately. They eat bread :)



Ta, all my love :)

Torrents.

Torrents of anxiety. As I sit here waiting for 11 am. It's currently 10.40 am. SO FREAKING OUT. IT exam. I don't know a thing. Lower than a centipede's belly. I miss Newton. And science. And Biology. I miss labcoats. And chemicals in the lab. I miss chemistry. I miss my old course. I do :( I'll blog more later.

Love, disappointed.

That was what I wrote on the morning. Will type more later ;)

Ramblings.

That's me in a dress after my relative's wedding last night. Feeling really really cut off from normalcy and esteem levels were dropping rapidly, thus the chopped off face. Feeling yucky.

On my bed now. Ouch, just stretched my leg and my thigh hurts. YOU got me feeling insecure. And now with arms wide open. Sorry, lyrics from a song. Sigh* Finals are next week. Or rather, starting from tomorrow onwards. And I feel major round. Don't know what's up with me these days. Feeling like an overfed hamster constantly.

Hmm, I love Raja Petra Kamaruddin. He's a Malaysian Malay who thinks so intellectually that it's unbelievable. He's super rational and the way he rationalizes actions affirmative or not and politics is super amazing. Sorry for the horrible misspellings in the previous post. Will look into them.

I also changed my blogger template :) Mmmm, lips are orgasmic don't you think??

I'll write more later after I've studied for Psychology alright?? Hmm, this new friend of mine. Makes me so curious. Love ya, A babe. LOL.

P.s# For you peeps who LOVE snakes, check out Wind's blog. He has awesome new pictures of his babies, snake hatchlings. MAJOR ADORABLE. They make me want to say: Snuffle Upagus. Don't ask me why :P http://penguwind.blogspot.com/ Lovely!!

Ta peeps!! xoxo

Erotic asphyxiation. Bio-gasming :)

Me, Jack and Jiah :)
Hmm. I wanted to talk about a few issues today. Kind of forgot. Music helps me release everything so I forget all my issues and worries :P

Oh one of them was death by asphyxiation. Most times, this death is seen as an accidental death. Especially if it is autoerotic asphyxiation. Or erotic asphyxiation. Often times, when I read the papers or articles online informing us of sudden deaths of very healthy well-known people, it is a bit suspicious because as we all know, everyone has their own personal fetish and what they fantasize about. For example, the sordid fantasy of death by masturbation. At least, it's painful pleasure :) But then again, parents of overtly raging hormonal teen guys feel realy embarrassed and always cover up for accidental suicides when this happens. Sometimes, people especially men hang themselves or strangulate themselves in order to achieve out of the world orgasms. Mostly teenage boys and men who engage in autoerotic masturbation.

When we restrict a certain amount of oxygen to the brain, it actually brings forth arousal and stimulation especially when having carrying out sexual activity. It is very sensational yet it could be quite a dangerous thing to do if it's overdone. Even a bit of a lack of oxygen to the brain could kill brain cells.

Gosh, I've so much to talk about and I haven't been blogging. My bad, forgive me :)I really don't like putting up emo stuff. LOL.

Ughh. I hate weddings :( Forced to attend one. Will write more later. Ta :)

The awesome mad post and gasms.

Me and Elaine :)

Mmmm, Oreo Mc Flurrys are SO ORGASMIC!! I know, I use odd words for food and all. But this word just says it all :P Orgasmic.

Here I am on a Monday morning with a little of the Monday blues in Mc Donald's at 10 am. Slurp* Just finished a Mc Flurry. Awesome stuff I tell you :P

Mmmm. Munching on my second ice cream :) Oh gosh. I give them so much of business. Seriously Mc Flurrys are my staple food daily. Haha!!

Okay. Let's make a list of gasms I have :)

1. Car-gasm. (You know, hot cars like Lamboes and GTR's and Fair Ladies plus Audi Tt's. Wow right?? Drool-worthy :P

2. Turtle-gasm. Yeah turtles are orgasmic too :P

3. Snake-gasm. Mm, Yum!! They're so sexy!! The way they move, they wrap around our bodies :p

4. Hmm, let me think. Thought I had more than this :P yeah!! Affro-gasm. This gasm was created for my friend-Amelia, she loves affro guys; she thinks they're really sexy so I made her an affro-gasm together with moves :)

Guess that's all I can think of :P

Oh maybe I'll create another one.

5. Icecream-gasm since they deserve the orgasmic title :P

6. My beloved Bio-gasm tops it all. Thanks Josh for the reminder :)

AAHH I'M HIGH!! I'm hyper and high :P WHEE!!

Better sign out before I anything I say anything I don't want to reveal :)

Love!!

If only.

Me with long curly hair. If only.

If only, airplanes in the night sky were shooting stars.

If only, I could rewrite the past.

If only, you could be part of my life right now.

If only, I could do what I like, without having to care about what other people think of me.

If only, the past would not come back to haunt me now.

If only, you would be less balless.

If only, you could have come into my life earlier.

If only, I knew you better.

If only, humans could be a little less petty and talk things out instead of creating war.

If only, you were the only one.

If only, I could be less tormented, more stone-hearted.

If only, things could be reversible.

If only, I worked harder, played smarter.

If only, she loved me for who I am, not judged me; things would be better now.

If only.

If only.

The First Cut.

Jack and I.

The first cut is the deepest.
And deja vu of it is painful. Perhaps even more numbing than the first.

I'm a little strange in a normal kind of way. I happen to fall for people with strange pasts. Be it, bad pasts or just a past. It's really strange. These days, I'm finding it harder to decipher myself. My own thoughts, words and deeds. Very very strange. Certain thoughts engulf me more than the rest. Which yet again, is strange.

Oh, spare me some normalcy on my part please. Please, I implore the goddess of wisdom, The great Athena herself :P To give me more!! More knowledge, MORE WISDOM!! Haha.

Sigh* Please dreary phase, please. Leave right now :(
Everything just seems dull, looks grim and bleak. Don't ask me. I torment myself with my own thoughts. Seriously.

My mum was just telling me, she currently believes in euthanasia. I didn't actually support her but when she reasoned with me, it was kind of heartbreaking. There are many many dog catchers around my area. And they're evil I tell you. Evil in my books is related to dog catchers in every sense. It's the epitome!! The dog catchers send the helpless dogs to the pounds and it's inhumane. Sickening people. My dog Jem was right in front of my house; she ran out and accidentally got locked out because we didn't know she was outside. Not till we heard the horrible roaring of the dog catchers' truck, did we run out. Only to discover that Jem was being taken away by one of the rough handlers. She was pulled off by a wire around her neck, the poor thing :( We tried negotiating with them but they said her license had expired. And that she would be killed the next day. How sickening!!

We tracked them down the next day and when we appealed, they said we would have to wait till Monday because the dog pound wasn't open till Monday. It was a Saturday. Guess what!! We found Jem in the truck. Still on the truck!! Without food or water, stuck with a good 20 odd dogs?? Poor things :( We negotiated again and got her back for a hundred quid. Horrid nincompoops. Poor Jem was quite traumatized, shivering and howling. She's quite scared when she sees the dog catchers now. but seriously, this country is a totally sick place for animals to be in. SICK!!

There was a dog at the train station and the poor thing was caught and tied up with a broomstick shoved down his throat.I saw the pictures :'( Their reasoning??-Because there was an important minister going to inspect the train station and they wanted to impress him. I cried when I saw the poor dog's pictures. I would have at least intervened or loosened him and brought him home. But, NO ONE STOPPED TO HELP HIM AND HE WAS TIED UP BY HIS PAWS!! How sick!! I told my dad I'd like to be an animal court lawyer since I have passion for them. He said it would be a waste of talent thus I'd stick to my Bio, thank you very much.

Sigh* Stupid country with stupid goals that are nearly impossible to reach and stupid agendas. To treat something or someone lesser than us is to create a stigma thus enhancing the slowing of advancement and growth in every aspect including political aspects, economic aspects and also social aspects. Sheesh!!

So again, my mum currently supports euthanasia. She and I both have soft spots, extremely soft spots for anything suffering. She actually told me that she did think of giving the poor dogs lingering around the neighbouring neighborhoods their last meal mixed with poison. To kill them swift and painlessly. Seriously, we've tried helping the dogs. Jem was a stray dog. Now staying with us. Woffle was adopted from SPCA since she was a baby. And Pinky; the other stray dog we took in was given away to my mum's student. Another mother dog with about 6 pups was given to our neighbour. But my mum says there's too many now to be helped and we're the ONLY ones making an effort. Mum feels so burdened when she sees dogs with practically incurable skin diseases that limp. They look like they're about to fall dead or collapse any moment. That's why she believes in euthanasia, to help ease them, to put them out of their pain in a merciful way. Sigh*





Woffle as a baby and Woffle wrapped up :)

All this is very depressing. Animals. They deserve way better.
And men= the most complex complicated beings at the bottom of the evolution theory :)
Chastise me for that.

Love, hugs and kisses.
<3

Me oh me.

Me, Prezzie and Geetz.

Should I or should I not?? Hmm. So many questions popping in and out of my head. It's funny. I posted on my friend's wall. I said: I don't see why guys brag about having snakes. When all I see are worms. Haha!! It's funny, no??

Gosh, I should start lightening up again :P Lest I become completely turned over to the dark side. Haha!! I'm in Taylor's Lakeside campus right now. It's so awesome!! The campus and all, major large. Reminds me of a upscale UTAR. I miss Kampar :( And uni life. But seriously, this triggered it off. It's amazingly beautiful. With lots and lots of eye candy. Phew* :P I love huge spaces to move around in. My own college right now is quite small. With uneven ground. LOL.

Phew. I just enjoy ranting these days don't I?? Hold on, it's just a phase. I hope. Haha.

I wrote the above in the morning. It's 10:38 right now. Brasil versus Netherlands. GO BRASIL!! They're my A team :)

Will post more later. Sorry if it's getting boring. Do tell me!!
ALL my love.

Senseless. Robbed of emotion, void.

If only I had shining ebony black skin. Or porcelain white skin. I would have a cello in my arms and wings on my back. I would fly and be ethereal in a surreal world. Mm, fantasy. My form of escapism.

The seductress' entry.

The most beautiful way to die is to drown. Seriously. Water, underneath the pure moonlight. Eclipses of beautiful crystal clear water, engulfing our sordid beings, wow. The thought of it sends pleasure tingling down my spine.

As I said, I'm a little dark :P A little.

Ta for now.