Something.

HAHA Look at short old me :3


I promise to post something on here later :) So many things to say; just never found the time. Or perhaps the laziness has caught up with me :) Lots and lots. Seriously. From Hadron Colliders to I don't know, life?? LOL.


Anyway, this is just a short post to tell ye peeps that I'm still alive :) Although yes, I did go missing for quite a long while again.
Xx. 
-Queen of hearts-

Words don't suffice.

      You can't play on broken strings, you can't fly on broken wings. Sometimes words spewed out be it unintentionally or intentionally, can cause a certain amount of damage that is irreparable. Sometimes, people want a last chance to feel again, the last moments to savor something delectable; chances come and go. Excuses crop up and are lost in oblivion.
     
     Sometimes, the very people who walk around with a smile on their face are the ones that need the most help. The ones who go around with carved skin under their skirts and with burn marks on their legs beneath their jeans; extend a hand. Breathing can barely even be done sometimes; with pain comes healing?? What if we happen to be at the end of the domino?? Expect the worst?? What is the worst?? What if the worst we expect is not enough?? So much is lingering in my brain. My little neurons are just working at optimum speed. Broken glass can never be fixed again unless melted down. I think human souls are very like that too.


      Broken hearts that are barely beating, they can rarely be put on life support. Sometimes, funny questions pop up. Like are we real?? Or are we puppets of an epiphany?? Think about it deeply, are we truly held by strings?? Is everything we do measured by some kind of constant or scale?? How much is a human soul worth?? 


You can't play on broken strings, you can't fly on broken strings.
Sorry is the hardest word to be said. Ego is the hardest thing to be killed.


-Lishia-

Epiphanies.

The "epiphanic" face and me with a tan ;)


   The Eureka was yelled as an epiphany. A sudden realization of the bigger picture of something or other; strange or not. I've had so many epiphanies of all sorts ever since things have been piling together; stacked up like a set of dominoes, only to come tumbling right down. 


      Don't things work in strange ways?? Sometimes, from the other end of the spectrum right to the other side. And everything does not have a permanence, right down to life and EVEN constellations; believe it or not. Theories especially; scientific theories seem to be in constant limbo of debate with so many dis-provings and epiphanies. Planck must be one of the best guys in the field. One of, of course. He's the "go betweener", (I'd call him that) for the theories he sort of linked together through an epiphany in the Astrophysics Science department. Quantum mechanics and quantum theories; and of course, Planck time and constants and the Planck Law; all from his ingenious mind in the year 1899, imagine. Imagine the size of his brain. Without proper technology and proper instruments, like the Hadron collider (you should check that out if you haven't heard of it, super cool machine.)


      So, anyway, the amount of realizations that have dawned upon thy brain hath been amazing. Sometimes, being away works wonders. You could just say, I took a break from life. And from blogging too, although WOW, how I miss you all bloggermunchies. And I miss the feel of a smooth keyboard's keys beneath my fingers. I'm definitely going to start again.


How I love you all :) <3 <3

The cruel portrait.

The moon she hangs, like a cruel portrait. 

She was divinity's creature,

Kissing betweeen cold mirrors.

Her lips of frost had frozen hearts;

her eyes of winter;

they drew like voids.

Those who couldn't have her,

Cut her free from the world.

Of sin and darkness rose; 

A mirth of sinless souls.

She drowned in seas of snow.

She awoke from her slumber.

Hair of ebony, lips of a rose.

She painted the sillhouette of many;

Many a man's dream.

She entwined, ensnared.

They raped, they raped;

They tried.

They couldn't,

This infernal creature could not,

Could not be caught.

The Adam's apple she stole,

She froze with her eyes of gold;

They lusted, they desired.

Lilith be her name;

Entwined in her own mirth.

Dark liquored eyes,

Dawn discovered her there.

Trapped in her own Labyrinth.

Kissing between cold mirrors. 

The petty issues of life.

Another funny webcam picture.


Freedom, it's un-absolute. I was just talking to some of my gay friends who are undergoing a lot of pressure from their families, society etc. Sigh* Things in July do not seem to be looking any good. I'm in desperate need for a roller coaster. Yeah, it gives me the exhilaration no other can satisfy me with ;) Picky picky.


My finals are next week and I cannot seem to find the inspiration or the push to study. Petty as it sounds; bugged down with a lot. I don't know; I seem to be sick of the fanfare and the masks we look at. Anything beyond the light after the tunnel?? What's next?? Do things seem bleaker and bleaker the older we get?? Growing up seems tedious and growing old seems tiring. Routines seem mundane. How would we know who to trust?? Are risks meant to be taken with people?? I frustrate many with my cynicism. Gah, infatuations of so many. Worldly temptations, freedom un-absolute.


I'd love to reach a stage when freedom is the ABSOLUTE-EST being in the vacuum. Yeah, I'm sounding a little abstract here. My brain works in weird ways :/ Nerds are hot. Geeks are hotter. Feeling a little random today. The gloom cloud is overhead. Lil (my baby sister) got us into a little accident today. The whole of the left front tire is scratched. Thank goodness we're fine. LOL. I'm such a numb being. It had little impact on me. 


Oh and the absolute stoops of low the people here can get to amazes. Never ever ceases to make me wowed. Seriously. I need WANT CRAVE my freedom!! If such a thing really existed. 


Oh well, life is just life I guess. Some people call it, the game of life.
Have an awesome day ;)
-Lishia-

Article 10, Bush and contradictions.

A Tomb Raider shot of me :)


There are many things, quite a number actually, that I find very very contradictory about the country I'm in. They would book us for treason at ANY possible reason of even voicing out our distastes about the ruling government and parties. Oh well. 


Article 10 if the Constitution of Malaysia states that Malaysians are guaranteed the right to freedom of speech, freedom of assembly and freedom of association. Yet when the BERSIH members gathered on the 9th of July, they were fired with tear gas and water cannons. "Bersih" is a Malay word that means "clean" and the whole reason for this rallying and campaigning was to  achieve political cleanliness AND to eradicate all forms of corruption. (BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY, I'M ON NO ONE'S SIDE HERE. I do not support BERSIH, neither do I condone what the law enforcers did.) 


So yes, they contradict. I salute the rally goers for their want of a new revolution, a tsunami of change and justice in the nation. Article 10 clearly states that YES, assemblies (like rallies) are allowed UNLESS they are booked under the "Sedition Act" or the "Official Secrets Act"-OSA. Which is also used in countries like UK and other nations. Yet, ministers who felt "threatened" were actually wanting to charge Ambiga-the leader of BERSIH under the ISA-Internal security act. None of us citizens really saw a threat in her reasoning as they were ONLY voting for a good and clean voting system especially in the upcoming elections. By the way, GEORGE BUSH was actually suspected (speculations were made) to be supporting the Unification Church or better known as the Moonies Church, based in the US. I find that REALLY funny because although he was quite unpopular at that time, his campaigns were pretty much strong as he was apparently funded by the Reverend Moon himself who was the founder of the Moonies. I mean, come on. Who actually started the beginning of the Gulf Wars and incited hatred against Iraq?? Who had TWO songs composed by two famous singers against him?? The songs "Fuck You" and "Dear Mr. President"  were sung by Lily Allen and Pink to mock Bush. 


So yeah, on the 9th of July the protests went high and dry. People from all over met up for the rallies in Kuala Lumpur-The Malaysian capital. Police were firing tear gas at the people and shooting them with high powered water cannons. Someone actually died because of the violence incited by the police. This I very much do not condone as Al-Jazeera aired some of the video shots taken at the place of the happenings. Trust me, the people were just marching and holding banners and suddenly, the police came like barricade-animals and started beating them up with batons, and REALLY REALLY abusing them in horrifying manners. A lot of the leaders say that the police had to do that because the people were not allowed to gather under such circumstances. More than 5 people who gather at some kinda rally apparently need some form of police consent (in this case which was not given) but really. I thought the Article number 10 permits this. Aren't they going against the constitution itself?? I've even checked the clauses and the revamped versions of it for loopholes. Didn't find any. Then the contradiction comes in where one of my friends mentioned about the 5 people gathering which needs some kinda police consent. I mean how could they construct such major laws with loopholes and contradictions?? LOL. Even the Articles of Confederation and the Articles of the Constitution of the United States of America were re-written and constantly revamped and proofread by so many people. Dear old Ben Franklin-one of my fave politicians wrote parts of it himself *beaming with delight*. 


The good side of the campaign was that such amazing unity was seen among the Malaysians. For once, there was no race or religion standing in the way. It was only 1Malaysia where the people were united in mind and thought. It was a very beautiful sight in a way although so many got injured because of the atrocities of the law enforcers. Law enforcers should know that they are NOT above the law themselves. Terribly wrong of them.


Anyway, I've got to get back to my studying. Finals are coming up soon!! Yikes. Plus, I can't really blog about these issues much. *You know, I know* ;)


Love you all, LOADS. 
-The political fanatic-

Bluh and bluh.

One of the funny webcam pictures I took.


I can be very evasive at times. Life has its own ups and downs and when mine hits its downs, I turn very evasive. I don't wanna blog in that kinda mood. I find it upsets my readers. Anyway, my stupid college blocked my flag counter so I had to create a new one. Which is pretty much a waste of time since I already had gotten visitors from so many countries. GAH. I'm actually more of a Coffee Bean fan but since there's only a Starbucks near my college, here I am sitting; drinking a blended mocha while waiting for my Mc Flurry to get ready in the McDonald's beside. One of the yummiest AND cheapest ice creams in the world. Okie, I just officially removed my flag counter :) Tee hee* 


I should stop blogging about the trivial. Makes my brain look a little shallow. Anyhow, I should give a running commentary on the 9th of July incident that took place :) Politics, one of my favorite fields :) Okie, Later ;)


-Ice cream Fan-

High school blues and political issues.

Me with my straight hair :)
Yay :) Now I can choose any color I want for my font because my blog background is black :) 


Today's rant is about high school. It should end in high school. I mean, all the petty gossip about who's dating who and who got into what university, does it really matter?? Oh and about who pierced where and who got what tattoo. Such silly little things you know. Yet they want to make such a HUGE deal, surmise about it and yak. What girls do best, YAK YAK. Goodness :/ And oh, don't forget the drama. I don't know what's up with people who have already left high school and dramas!! Like ME-OW. Put your claws back in!! Nobody's gonna wanna check them out :/ Dang you know. Ppfftt. My bestie and I were just talking about excommunicating the entire high school of ours, except for a few close friends who share the same level of thinking as us. A wise man once said, "Friends come and go but it's the gems that stay." 


I just am so appreciative of what I have. The proximity (not physical) I have with my friends, I made so many wonderful friends along the way. I have Alice who I know I can bank on at any time and there's Alyssa who is one of the hottest people in town and there's Calvin who's quite a gem; he's taught me a lot, his maturity amazes me. They all seem to get me, and get what makes me tick. Of course, Lynn's always been the one who was there for me through thick and thin. I've had ex friends (as I'll consider them) who have made me shrink back into my shell. (The one I use quite often.) One of them just started spreading rumors about me saying that I've dropped out of college and I'm wasting my life away. So not true. Seriously, I wonder if some people get the adrenaline rush that junkies get by talking about others. What's the fun in it?? Karma's gonna bite back real hard :/ Ouch*


And again, there's politics in the country. They're having some major campaigning and rallying here. It's to cleanse and rid all sorts of umm, corruption?? I think it's plain stupid. As I've mentioned before (if you've read back long enough), I used to work with the refugees in Malaysia, I taught them English and in return, they taught me Burmese or the Myanmar language. The refugees from Myanmar here in Malaysia fled their country to escape the junta ruling their country. The stories I've heard were atrocious. And now, with the rallies coming up (pretty soon, on the 9th of July) people are going to "clean up" the refugee camps as well. I don't think Malaysians really get or understand the fundamental meaning of REFUGEE. The Burmese refugees come here to learn English in the hope of getting a green card to the US because life there would be so much better for them. Mum knows quite a few of these refugees and just that day, one of them came over to my place to give my mum some of his belongings and cash. He said if they raided his place, they'd take everything he owns. Ya know, no one is really safe here. Even the Internet is constantly monitored. The rally would cause an uproar and the refugees would be affected. Mum gave some of them permission to come over to my place to hide if necessary. Idiots. Sorry to say but sometimes, a revelation or a revolution is needed for eye-opening. We Malaysians would have thought the May 13th incident would have given us something to ponder on. Looks like history is repeating itself with the current situation already looking like a Gaddafi-overthrow. The margins are getting worse here, with the rich getting richer and the poor getting poorer and the mediocre, stagnant.


You know, I asked some of the children I worked with. You know who the police are?? I cried when they told me," YES. They're the bad people. They took my mummy and daddy away." HELLO?? REFUGEES ARE NOT THE SAME AS ILLEGAL IMMIGRANTS. FOOLS!! I'm absolutely incensed and utterly nauseated with all the stupidity of the people here. Brains are very much needed. Really. People are so scared of everything, even worried if a change happens. Change is needed. It's the only permanence, the only constant in life. With all this happening, I really only hope it's for the better. That the good will take over after they outwit the bad and that a revolution will take place. A whole new turnover.
With this, I rest my case.


-Lishia-

Reasons why I don't want children.

- I do not want them to end up like me.
- I never ever want to suffer the hurt of a mother. I am not capable.
- I do not want to waste my precious time bringing up something I know might not turn out the way I brought it up to be.
- I have to focus on my career and be selfish for once. In my entire life. The biggest decision I'm making.
- I never ever want to feel failure. Or to feel like I have failed my child. Because of my doing.
-I never ever want to bring a life into this world, only to find it suffer the consequences of my selfishness. 
- I never ever want to worry constantly about something so tedious as a child and his/her college fees.
-I never ever want to see the life I bring into this world hurt by anything else be it an external factor or an internal one.
- I will never be ready for parenthood. Many people have said I would change my mindset but I never have.
- I will always be selfish because I never really know how to express emotion. A child would suffer under me.
- I just do not see the point of bringing another life into this world when it is already so filled with the dying. Why not, just be nice and adopt a child?? After all, it is already here. And it needs so much more help than anything.


I just do not agree with certain people who want children for the wrong reasons. I am very VERY against it. If you can't handle being a parent, DON'T BE ONE. Your children would only suffer under your reign. If you are a monarchist or a sexist or something, DON'T HAVE CHILDREN. If you come from a patriarchal society, chances are you hate daughters and you have a HIGH PROBABILITY of getting one. If you want to play favoritism, do not think of having kids. And if you blame yourself and your children constantly and have UBER HIGH expectations, just WEAR A CONDOM. Please. You'd do better off without any.


-The thinker-

Marvel versus DC.

It's finally, the great old showdown. Marvel (dramatic music) versus the great DC. With the crazy increase of comic book heroes on the big screen now, it does actually look like a huge showdown between Marvel and DC though I must say that DC has already been producing a superb amount of gigantic blockbusters even before I was born :/ Batman, Superman, Spider Girl were the superheroes we admired. Together with the oh so sexy villains, Poison Ivy (yum), The Joker (played by our very own deceased Heath Ledger) and more.


How can you deny the brilliance of the masterminds of these two mega comic industries?? The money they generate from it, the legends that never seem to die. C'mon, they're back!! :) Haha. Mm, look it this. It's Poison Ivy (my favorite villain-I love how guys fall for her charm. She's irresistible) and she's looking GORGEOUS; played by Uma Thurman. 

 Her hair, her eyes, her charms=enticing. *Salivating* Haha I shall stop. 
So, who wins?? Who takes the winning trump card?? Marvel OR DC?? Both have wowed us with their absolute brilliance. Marvel and their crazy legendary amount of superheroes- Spiderman, Thor (just released), Iron Man, Captain America (coming soon), the awesome X-men and more OR, DC and their amazing round of action figures- Flash, Justice League, Superman (the only underwear-outerwear superhero), Aquaman, Batman, Green Lantern (just released) and the drool worthy list goes on. (Hope you're not bored to death at this point. Comic fans would get my enthusiasm.) HAHA It is delightful to watch the very heroes you used to fantasize about on big screen. Ooh yeah. I could go on and on about these fictional characters, they never seem to stop boggling my mind. So then again, who'd take the winning place?? 


If all of them were to get into a deadly duel for the top spot, who do you think would win?? :) LOL. I'd really love your feedback. And also, which mega comic company takes the cake?? Marvel versus DC. Both equally intelligent in their authentically genius role-playing characters. Would the humans win?? Or would the mutants take the cup?? You tell me.


Pictures for your viewing pleasure. 
From DC:


Flash.

Green Lantern

Super Man (Jack, wink* wink*)

Justice League (Drooling)

From Marvel:


X men.

 Iron Man.

Moon Knight. (He's hot and he needs a comeback!!)

Juggernaut.

Just swoon* Alright, it's back to assignments after this excitement.


-Comic fan-