Miss Possible.

Peek-a-b00 :)


Can someone hurt you with their words without realizing?? I guess so, right. Words act like double edged swords jagged at the tip, they spear through your heart, they cause such an unsinkable measure of pain that no one can even decipher. Sometimes, because of simple little words, things aren't ever the same again. So, in conclusion, watch what you say to the ones you love. They might be the most sensitive people on earth although they don't show it.


Although they don't say sorry for hurting you, let it be. I'm trying to. Oh sigh* Things are back to normal now, after lunch :) Sorries were etched out and it's good ;)
Anyway, mum's kids are just getting worse. I mean, the severity of their conditions. (My mum is a child psychologist by the way.) This new girl, her characteristics are nearly schizotypal and she screams like she's possessed. Mum says she's autistic but on the slow side. The funny thing about autistic kids is that they look pretty normal. UNTIL you observe them up close. This girl, (Stephanie) she only wants to be called Miss Possible. She throws a HUGE tantrum if you don't call her that. 


Goodness, she was kicking a fit when I woke up this morning. I think she woke me up with her near demonic screaming and yelling. I really admire my mum. She's hitting 50 soon?? Next year or something (although she hates to be reminded of her age), but she has the strength and the energy to handle these children. Trust me, you need a lot of energy to deal with them. Miss Possible is one of the oldest that's with my mum and she just came in. She's 13 this year. With absolutely no self control over herself yet. I'll show you a video recording I took of Miss Possible's screams from my room.  My room is upstairs mind you and little Miss Possible was throwing fits downstairs. Boy is she loud!! Even mum said she's scared. Miss Possible acts like she's possessed, what with her eyes rolling around and stuff. LOL Lil (my sister) and I aren't allowed into the room when mum has her patients. They're wild. Mum got bitten by Wesley the last time. Haha. 


So once again, I've to stop blogging here and go and start revising. I have a very short attention span and that's why I need longer to study :/ Haha but my "brian" works very well with retaining information. Yay me*


Bye peeps and all my love.
Lots of cookies to you ;)

Boot camp and drugs.

Yeah I know :) That's an old picture, back then when I still had my straight hair. Guess I was playing boot camp instructor ;) I kinda miss straight hair :( I really do want a mohawk but mum would go ballistic if I get one. LOL she doesn't really approve of it :/

A silly picture of me with straight hair. I should really shave one side of my head just for the fun of it. HAHA. Can't imagine mum's face then. Contorted with horror :O 
I don't know why, maybe it's because I've been reading up on my Biology work, I'm into drugs today :) Seems like an interesting topic. Oh well, I have friends who smoke pot, and do LSD and stuff like that. Seems like fun especially when the serotonin starts to hit the brain :) Haha and then, they start doing funny things like performing "orgies" and stuff. (With clothes on, don't ask; weird people.) LOL. Right, so LSDs it is then. LSD had one of the most tremendous drug potency; it is also one of the most talked about drug in the Science world amongst the brainiacs (scientists). The LSD molecule: Lysergic acid diethylamide. The similarities between LSD and serotonin may explain the "power" of  LSDs. I'm taking the information from an old encyclopedia but it's AWESOME. You know how schizophrenia is a "naturally-occurring mental disorder"?? LSD can induce that disorder and even give a person psychic abilities. Scientists say that it might be because of it's ability to take the user into a trance-like state thus, he/she is able to "see the future". Scary?? AND, LSD effects vary among users. Some get "grisly visions", some see bright colors, some writhe on the floor in pain. It kinda shows us that all our brains have DIFFERENT capacities thus  DISproving the anthropologist' theories that we are born equal. HUH!! LOL I just learnt that in anthropology class :/

Anyway, LSD is one of the most potent drugs in the Science world, fascinates scientists and it's weird :) One of the ONLY drugs that "is smart enough to imitate serotonin". I'm sure you know what serotonin does ;) It is one of the happy hormones released in the brain. LSD's are also weird. Lysergic acid Diethlyamide. As you can see, breaking it down, you can configure a type of acid, combined with alcohol?? But it TRICKS THE BRAIN!! HOW COOL IS THAT?? Schizophrenic abilities!! And the fact that it can actually act like a molecule of serotonin.

The history of anaesthesia: In 1842, an American physician, Crawford Long made history. When he created the first "surgical anaesthesia". He covered a patient's face with an ether-soaked cloth and the patient felt "painless" after that. It was for a tumor removal surgery. How awesome :) Back in that century, they had anaesthetics. Alright, I have to go and mug a little again for my upcoming tests :)


I will come back and blog again, maybe later in the wee hours of the morning?? Haha!!
Ta my sweet little meows :)
Xx, Lishia. 


P.s# Let's try LSD ;) *I'm kidding alright, stay safe* 

Food, Aaron Howl and music.

I have a habit of cropping my head off in pictures if the face "doesn't work". LOL.

Oh my goodness, I didn't notice the number of grammatical and spelling errors in the previous post. I was typing it too fast because I had to go out :P UGH utter humiliation :) I hate bad English. LOL. I so want to lose weight!! But I can't solely because I live in the land of food. I swear, Malaysia is like a crazy HUGE food hub. I just had Indian food for lunch and then more of the Indian cuisine for dinner :/ Some sort of beany rice. I just had a HUGE helping of sushi for lunch AND dinner yesterday. Dinner with the family, and lunch with the wombat. I would really love to shed a few pounds but I'm telling you, the cuisines here are TOO threatening. Too seductive, too tempting. Sigh*

There's this cartoon I used to love watching and it loved said: I had beans for lunch. (Followed by an extra long and loud fart.) HAHA!!

Okie, don't mind me. I'm feeling extra silly today :) Woots* Have to mug on ze books later anyway so being a little silly might help me keep awake :) Listening to a Nina Simone song. Not sure if she's known :) She's just a deep musician, my friend introduced me to her :) A little tribal and stuff.

What I wrote above was actually from last night. (If you're wondering how I can have two lunches if you scroll further down, haha.)

Boy, I'm so stuffed!! LOL Just came back from a huge lunch!! And YAY* I'm FINALLY talking to Aaron Howell after so long. He's telling me theories his little "cunning brain" came up with :) So, I'll be going to sit and listen :) Like a good ole follower. HAHA!! I'll blog later, probably on issues of the planet and the universe ;) But only after I finish reading up on three chapters of my Biology :)


Ta me lovelies.

Bimbos, bugs and Christina.

Little Miss Naughty Prof ;)


It's a not-so-lazy Saturday afternoon :) Haha. I have a week of holidays. YAY!! But 4 tests right after :( Oh man, such a bummer. But oh well, everything's well and good :)
Nothing's as orgasmic as mind sex ;) Seriously, nothing beats that. Haha. It's insanity, the way time is beginning to fly by. Anyway, Paranormal Activity was alright :) Pretty good storyline. LOL. Another thing bugging my brain is bimbos :) I have a whole group of them in a few of my college classes. Yeah, you guessed it. Freshies. Especially in Biology class. While doing an experiment on protein with Millon's (very basic), they actually equate test tubes to dicks, and test tube mouths to vaginal holes?? :/ Such sex depraved, sex addled maniacs, I think. And the Bio lecturer goes: Any questions??
Bimbo 1 answers: YES, ME!! Sir, do you have a girlfriend?? Oh boy!! Seriously, Jun's and my eyes are SO ROLLED up, the only things we see are skies and ceilings. Haha!!


By the way, there was a very serious case of dog abuse in here. The stupid newspapers say that there isn't enough evidence to catch the perpetrator. It isn't that I'm putting "animals above humans" or equating them together. It's just that animals don't have a say. They can't speak for themselves and this poodle that was abused eventually died. Why buy such expensive dogs when you want to kill it in the end?? :/ Such funny people. Some of my friends are hunting for the guy who did it. Apparently some of them recognize him and they even have his address. So many things to do, so little time. 


Let's talk about fashion (Something I rarely talk about although it interests me.) 
:) Christina's Aguilera's Golden Globe Awards' dress was simply beautiful. Such a tasteful piece and the designs on it were intricate. The piece was by Zuhair Murad and wow, the blonde bombshell totally pulled it off although there were a LOT OF nasty remarks about her few extra pounds. Such snide passes at her. I personally think she looked great in it. Her shoes however are covered but underneath the beautiful dress was a pair of Christian Louboutin's. She looks so radiant :)

She's my idol; her songs, her voice, her spunk, her attitude and her optimism is just refreshing. People should get past that "few extra pounds stage". LOL It's not like she's a beastie or a Godzilla or anything close to that. 


I really can't wait for something more challenging in Biology class. 'Easy' makes me slack. Seriously, the stuff taught seems to be mundane, redundant and boring. Ultimately. Can't wait for microbiology or something more "refreshing". LOL. Dad has been meticulously informing me about the new lengths Science has brought us to. One of the latest I've researched on is the conversion of Biodiesel waste into new fuel through bugs. It is still being researched on and the University isn't sure yet of the reality of the theory. The University of Alabama in Huntsville is the one that produced the student who further produced the claim on bugs relating them to biodiesel waste conversion. Nature and Science work pretty well hand in hand so I'm pretty sure the theory will be proven soon :)


Alrighty, while the theory on bugs and fuel is being proven, I've got to bathe and get ready :) I'll come online and blog later at night :) For now, Adios and all my love.
Xx, Shia.

Movies and popcorn.

My blog seems to have VERY LITTLE activity :( Oh sigh* 

I have a Biology quiz tomorrow, have to ACE it :) And, after that, YES!! It's Paranormal Activity for me!! :) The movie. Can't wait for it, with a hot box of caramel popcorn. Yum* 

Oh well, got to run ;)

LOVE you all. Xx.

Utter disdain, cultural opposition.

Came to a grim realization when I was talking to an old friend. Don't you ever wonder why the human race is the ONLY species that wears clothes?? To cover up ourselves. It's because we bear a lot of shame, guilt and a lot of suppressed cruelty. No other animal actually feels the need to cover up the way we do. It's like as if we're being physical and mental hypocrites, so my friend said. The song: Colors of the wind came to mind.


You think you own whatever land you land on.
The Earth is just a dead thing you can claim.


In a way, the words paint a few million scenarios. True at that. Also, we don't see animals laughing at the grim fate of another. An ape would not laugh at an injured counterpart. Humans are the ONLY genus that can actually laugh at the physical/emotional/mental torment of another of the same kind. In a way, humans thrive on cruelty, it urges us forward. To see our enemies suffer, we feel above them. We feel superior. Where does this all lead us??


I'm ranting so much because of the fate of many. 
Animals and humans alike. Which species other than the human species would actually kill their own children in "honor"?? Honor?? I don't think there is any honor in stoning another. Especially killing their own daughter because she's been defiled by a man forcefully. Genital mutilation for women. For the sake of marriage in years to come. Where's the respect in having nearly 3 quarters of your private part removed?? There seems to be lesser and lesser honor in the human race.
There was an article which my friend October posted. Just recently, in India, this young girl was given an "honor killing" because she had fallen in love with a man she was not supposed to be with. How can they justify a life taken because of love?? 
Dolphins in Japan are being mercilessly killed, the Swedish wolves are being hunted solely because they are game animals, dogs in China are put to fight in rinks because it's a "good form of entertainment"; when will this bloodshed ever stop?? The innocent don't get a chance to say anything. Goodness. Horrific news, one after another. How much more disheartening news can we take in?? Sigh* There is really no justification to taking an innocent life, be it animal or human. 


Reasons why I think I'm born in the wrong race/culture:


-I hate rice.
-I don't really like Chinese food.
-I do NOT speak any form of Chinese; dialects or what so ever.
-I hate Chinese dramas on tv, I don't listen to any Asian songs.
-I don't associate well with some Chinese people due to really bad communication skills. Most of them have bad English anyway :/
- I love Indian food, Indian sweets and Indian colors; they're so vivid :) 
-I really can't stand the endless chatter of some Chinese girls in the mother tongue. Most love to gossip endlessly :/ Very banal.
-I love spicy food.
-I don't really think like an Asian I guess, most think I'm "too open for the Asian society" :/
-Am not really an 'extended family' person like most Chinese are. I hate Chinese New Year, fire crackers and reunion dinners :(
-I don't think eating pork knuckles, pork trotters or chicken legs/feet is delicious :/ It's gross. I'm more pescatarian :) (I get a lot of teasing for that.)


Haha many more reasons that might come across as offensive :) Oh well. Can't please the crowd can we ;)
Alright, I'll stop here. Try to calm my heart. A little upset at the blatant injustice of everything.


Night, humans.
Love you all.

Family politics and nosy Asians.

Another shot of the ever so AMAZING Ralph Lauren WILD and I ;)


I hesitate a lot :) And yes, I contemplate a lot too :/ Especially when it comes to eating :) To scoff and gobble or NOT to scoff and gobble :D
Okie, so I was wrong :) I said we'd be learning about the baroque period today. Instead, my music lecturer tried to be an opera singer. I think we were deafened by the sound of her voice AND by the annoyingly loud volumes of her speaker. 


A bird should NOT swim like a swan when it is merely a turkey :) (Being sarcastic here.) She bores the wits out of everyone, trust me on that. "GOSH!!" is all I could say after my class. I think my eyes too, are so ROLLED UP I can only see sky and ceilings :) Goodness me. I wonder where my college picked her up from. Ppfftt. So many people I would HATE to be associated with. Especially touchy uncles and nosy aunts during reunion dinners. Reunion dinners are supposed to be "the best day" of the year. Maybe it only works for the Westerners. Asians are SO NOSY AND annoying that reunions become a dread. Even mum who "loved" her reunions is beginning to hate them now :) She spoke to me in the car, she kind of revealed to me a lot of things which have been taking place?? Goodness. The family politics never end :/ HAHA You know what's funny?? I might have a nosy aunt OR two reading this post at THIS very moment :) If only I could capture a picture of shock on their faces at my bold insolence. Oh well, MY blog, my views, my world, my thoughts, my freedom. I really hate it when nosy relatives try to stalk me in the cyber world as well. Goodness, sometimes, it's a never ending cycle. Typical Asian mentalities. I swear I was born in the wrong culture, country and race. Maybe :) I do NOT get along with my own mother tongue. Neither do my parents actually :/ Sheesh. HAHA Disgraces we are. Hmm, let the petty juries judge us I guess :)


I just love ranting on a Monday morning. LOL. What saddens me this semester is the clashing timetables :( I can't meet up with the old bunch. Not even a proper breakfast or lunch together :/ Oh well. Can't complain can we :) 
Mum spoke about YOU yesterday. I told her that I want NOTHING to do with you anymore. You shall remain dormant in the vessels at the back of my "brian". I guess although I wonder and qualm and question, "what if", I shall let you remain dormant. I don't need any more problems or anxieties than I already have :)


Enough about that!! Coming to the serious bit :) The petition I posted that day about saving the wolves was very much necessary and yes, every single bit of help would be greatly appreciated. I got into a LOT OF trouble mind you, for the "racy pictures" I posted on the Net :) Seriously. What did I say, nosy relatives :) And judgemental Asians. Typical. They should learn and start reciting by heart that I DO NOT SUCCUMB TO NORM.I am a very weird, very different species of ASIAN. Seriously. I guess in a way, I don't fit in anywhere. They can't perform a "taxonomy" on me JUST to justify what they think I am, what stereotype they think I fit into. Oh well, the wolves in Sweden need saving. People are hunting them NOT because they are a nuisance/a threat but solely because they are game animals. What they deem as animals to be hunted. Especially to feed the "greed-hungry" fur trade. 


Lishia. (Wolf-lover) Kipepeo.

Being a proper girl.

I need just the right amount of stimulation now :/ Going for college in half an hour and gosh, music is a bore. Music classes are oh so boring :/ The lecturer is the LEAST stimulating person I've met. It's like Grade One work ALL OVER again :/ Oh me oh my.


Well, forgive me for whining :) I'm only a girl. HAHA Or trying to be a proper one. 
I'm SO HAPPY!! I got this perfume I was looking for. Finally. It's not that I'm a cheapskate but bargains are better aren't they ;) This one came at half the original price and it's Ralph Lauren. One of my obsessions since it smells like watermelons. Yup, I love smelling like a walking fruitcake :P (A special thanks to a special someone for getting it for me.) Xx.

And I'm dying to skip music class :/ I think we're learning about the baroque period today. Sigh* Another thing that made my week is my dad coming back!! He came back and bought all of us watches. Mine is called Skin, it's green and from some weird brand-Breo. Had no idea the brand existed but it's awesome!! Mum got a Baby-G, we all collect watches :) So yes!! Woo hoo* The sales are here and everything seems so cheap and worth it. 


Alright, I have to go and bathe so I'll smell like a walking fruitcake ;) Just the way I like to smell. I'll come back and blog more. 
Xx, Shia.


P.s# Having a woozy tummy, I ate too much chicken yesterday :)

Al gore and propaganda.

I'm back, BOLDER AND wilder :) I come with a MEOWWWWWWWWWW in my swagger and a RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR in my spunk :) HAHA!! 


Why hello again there :) I'm brutally sorry for my going away like that. You know the times you get up just to find tears running down your face?? Just know that it'd be a better tomorrow :) Promise. Sometimes you just need external messes to fix internal messes :)
Everything doesn't seem as bleak right now. I have a LOT to talk about, now that I've been away for goodness knows how long. First things first, I'm a little disappointed in my college classes. I don't mean to brag or put on a fuss drama or anything but yeah, Biology class has been TOO basic. In UTAR (my ex university), we already were starting gene transcription experiments and microbiology. Now it's back to basic taxonomy, very very basic stuff like elements and atoms and ecology. YUCK I'll say :( Beggars can't be choosers :) Still have to fulfill my aims of shooting high and achieving what I set out to achieve. Have been paying too much attention to these hefty judges and pathetic juries who think they know me all too well to say anything about me :) I won't anymore. My life, my rules.


Many things have become subjects of debate in Biology classes. Some of it regarding Darwin and his theories of evolution. *Oh gosh, a fat mosquito just bit me on my jaw line* :( Anyway, I think the whole Darwinian theory of evolution and that we evolve from primates is a whole huge misconception. He probably didn't say monkeys/apes were out forefathers. He just said "primates" are part of our species/genus/families. So yeah, very WIDE RANGE don't you think, of misconceptions that can be perceived from those few words :)
I really regret letting some things take a toll on me. I should stop bothering about society be it, blood relatives or people close to me who like to stab others in the back :)


So what do you think causes global warming?? Which one of it is the "real greenhouse gas"?? Is it water or carbon dioxide?? CO2 OR H20?? Any comments or facts on these?? There are theories to disprove Al Gore's theories on global warming. Some call it a propaganda to disrupt particles of unity and to "make people trust the governments more". What do you say it is?? :)
Another thing that is causing a slight bit of alarm is the decrease of value in the US dollar because certain economists have pronounced the US as officially bankrupt. The news is getting more and more distracting. Phew* 


Alright, I've got to go read up on my American History. Bluh :) Toodles to all you pumpkins and I love you very much :D
Xx,
Shia.

Recovery.

Guess I might just be fully recovered :) Will be blogging soon enough. LOTS OF LOVE <3 <3
Lishia.

Color me blue.

Who am I to say you need me, I don't know anything at all. 


Color me blue, I'm lost in you.


Don't know why I'm still searching, many moons have come and gone.


Who am I to say, you love me. I don't know anything at all.

Trust issues.

I find it hard to trust again. Until I gain a little trust, I shan't blog much. Not too much. Don't wish to bare my soul for the judges :) For the rostrum that's too petty. Things come my way, I take it with a dash and a pinch.


I'll rise :)
Soon.
Xx, Lishia.

Betrayal, secrets, a petition.

I want to try a different colored font today :) Gosh I'm still actually shaking like an earthquake :/ Still on my medicine and, it's strong. Well, today, I found out that there is more than meets the eye in most cases :) 

Betrayal sometimes is like a huge slap in the face. Like a disarmament. A dislocation of the jaw. Can't really fit words into the part where it should fit like a second skin since we're human. And only human. Should betrayal be a normalcy?? Most would say it is. But then again, it is a little hard to cope with it isn't it. My family's pretty much heartbroken about a betrayal. 

I have class at 8 am later :) It's already 6.16 and I guess I should be getting ready :)  I just want to post this picture up, it's for a cause and if I believe in something, I'll go all out for it. I'll post on it later ;)

Can you keep a secret?? ;)

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/12/help-us-save-the-swedish-wolves/

Please click on the petition site to help the wolves!! I'll post more about it later, like I said ;)

Love you honey pies.

Xx, Shia.

Sacrifice and progression.

The words in white say it all :)

I

I'm staring at you ;)

Hello there, my sassy little sweets :) The post yesterday was pretty much uncalled for. But well, that's how having asthma feels like. I don't usually get it full force but yesterday was pretty bad. Feeling slightly better today. I can't explain, it's so frustrating. You don't know how it feels like when life becomes a little distant. And you can't breathe. Even breathing becomes a difficulty and all you want to do is surrender. 


Enough about that anyway :) I asked my mum. What would you do if the child in your womb was diagnosed at an early stage with Progeria or XP. These are genetic defects that are basically incurable. Or asthma. If you found out early, would you abort?? My mum answered, NO. Very firmly. I asked her why. And she said, some things, would be worth the ultimate sacrifice. Some courses of nature just cannot be changed or erased. I guess sacrifice doesn't come easy. Some genetic traits could be passed on to offspring. That was what Hitler was trying to eradicate. Humans with deformities, humans with lazy traits, humans whose lineage was proven to be mundane and humans with absolutely no sense of future. But then again, he took things out of hand and tried to play God when he committed the act of genocide. Maybe the people he killed would have deserved second chances. The only thing wrong with what he did was that, God would have given a second chance. No matter how much you read into History, the horrifying ordeals could never be more "lived in". 


Another thing to discuss. I think the only piece of American History really worth reading about is the congress, the way the place was discovered and taken over AND the tribes. The Native American tribes that were there LONG before any other. The Sioux, the Apalache, the Abenaki. I would love to speak Alnobak. The mother tongue of the Abenaki people. Language, it's just so beautiful. The way it rolls off one's tongue. The way it causes stirs and emotions to run free and wild :)
The book I finished, "Second glance" was so powerful; it really shook me page by page :) How the gypsies lived, how they didn't know what was about to wash them over, they had "voluntary sterilization" done on them. It was supposed to be humane. But the very thought that remains is, they did not know it was performed on them. A sponge bath would become a neuter. The poor unknowing people trusted the words of the uppers.
Many people debate over whether the Vermont Eugenics project in the 20th century was a progressive movement. I just think it's pure racist. To be calling another race or tribe feeble-minded just because of cultural differences. I just learnt in my Anthropology class that constitutions are part of a society's culture. It reflects their very nature and it also lets others have a glance into what they are really like. Scary isn't it.


Another thing that I find a little disconcerting and funny at the same time is that this country's media head is asking our Prime Minister to ban Facebook. How that is possible, I don't know. All I know is that we are basically governed and ruled by neanderthals. Literally. Sheesh. Maybe they want us to go back into stone age :) The reason being, Facebook is a way of "slandering Islam". My goodness, I wonder when they'll grow up and stop thinking and acting like little immature bastards. The bastards they were born to be.
Oh well. This place is un-progressive. And the Eugenics project, deemed as a progressive movement?? HAHA I don't think so. No one can be called progressive if they pick on flaws of another and call themselves perfect. :)


Alright, with this, I shall sign off.
Sugar bombs to all you lovely hearts.
Xx, Lishia.

Broken hearts in January.

In the picture: Funny times.

You have no idea how it feels. Running in the rain is bad.

Ice cream is like poison to the body. Laughter is like a drug to me. The more I laugh, the worse the consequences.

I have to avoid Indian food, seafood, milk, butter, butter cookies, nuts, chocolates, sweets, spicy food, and anything to do with dairy.

I can't touch my dogs so often because they'd be the death of me. 

My aspire to be a biologist. But I cannot work with animals too often because their fur would trigger erratic reactions in my body.

I can't dance and sing too much. It would destroy my lungs.

It hurts to see others being normal and having so much fun.

I wish I were less active. But no, I was born with a hyperactive streak.

I wish I were normal. I just want to play in the rain and not get any after effects. Like any other normal individual.

I just want to be able to own a cat. An owl. And to touch my spider without having its hair cause HUGE allergic reactions to my body.

I want to play and run and run, free like the wind. I want to laugh and laugh till it becomes a melody, unchained.

I want to sing and sing and not feel constricted.

I want to swim the oceans.

I just want to be able to breathe and know that it won't be my last breath, that my lungs would not cave in.

I want to be normal.

Free of asthma.

Love the broken hearted Shia.

Bugs.

Yes, it's me smiling at you ;)

Haven't been blogging much this week :) Had such a busy week and I'm up to my eyeballs in sickness. Literally :) Ive got the colds and what nots. Flu and cough bug bit me too :(


But hey, I've been enjoying a few classes. Classes and college with Jun is fun. I will definitely try and come on here and post something. Later :)

Have a great day my lovely sweets :)

Share with me.

As usual, it's an unearthly hour again and I'm supposed to be sleeping :/ Suffering from a few bouts of insomnia. Literally. American History's boggling the mind :) Also replaying some moments spent with a dear friend today. Thank you Jun for listening to me while I had my "mask" off. I really care for you and yeah, thanks for being a good friend ;)

Oh sigh* I always can't seem to sleep at night. It must be the sleeping pattern that I have, all jumbled up. I am craving for something cheesy. Lasagna perhaps?? Yum* Or some cheese wedges?? Or, I don't know :( A cheeseburger/pasta?? Yummy* My "brian" won't stop thinking about food now. HAHA. A food enthusiast I am. Food will be the death of me, literally.
I realized, loss is like an everlasting scar. A pain that would NEVER ever go away. Not in a million years.
I am very fortunate to still have both my parents who love and care for me. I'm seriously showing them my potential this year. I'm just glad 2011 started well, and although I have to walk through certain periods of time with a mask, I'm just thankful that I have people still believing in me. In everything I do. This past few days taught me that my younger sister Lil, loves me, she adores me!! I admit, I have screwed up a few times in certain areas. Yet, she follows what I tell her and yes, she's brilliant!! Just painfully shy :) I have a good family and I'm thankful. Loss, like I said, generates a lot of irrational behavior including insanity be it permanent or temporary.


I just want you fellow bloggers/readers to know that I want to use my blog as a hotline. If any of you have problems, suicidal tendencies, or you've just lost someone close to you, I really just want you all to know that I care. Really. With all my heart, I do. You can email me if you want, my email address is in my profile information. I will be here for you, it's a promise I won't break. I have gone through a lot as well. I know what pain is :) So yes, nothing too small/big for me to listen to, I guess. Girls dealing with low self esteem/bulimia/anorexia can talk to me through emails. I will reply them, slowly but surely. I mean it. 


Sometimes, I guess I'd just like to erase some pain (little as it may be) from people's memories/lives. No one deserves to constantly be in pain :( It hurts me to see and watch others suffer. If any one of you have family members/someone close having cancer, talk to me about it. My own mum survived :) She was a cancer patient. Womb cancer, and till this very day, I am so grateful she's here with me. I have experiences :) Many of my friends and people close to me have broken families. Or they're adopted. I know how it's like. It's alright, and everything said and told to me, will be kept a secret. CROSS MY HEART. 


:) Alright, with this, I'll sign off.


Someone really cares. Just so you know :)
Love, Shia.

Abominations and inflations.

The words in white, say it all ;) Another funny Woffle shot.

Kisses to all you lovelies ;) Another shot of me being goth. :)

So, maybe I over exaggerated the first day of my new semester ;) The first day of college actually really is today. Haha I had a lab yesterday and they don't have lab classes on the first day :) I think it's the proper time in the USA today, to wish a HAPPY BIRTHDAY to JOSHUA WRIGHT!! Haha. 
I came in after college today and mum cleaned my room :/ Like literally, everything was SO NEAT. Not that I'm that much of a messy person ;) It's just that I like a little mess. My own mess. So oh well. Gah. So many things weighing the brain down again and it's 3.57 am here. Lil had her very first day of college today. She looked like a little lost sheep. She had lunch with the wombat and I, and she met some of my friends :) Made her own friends too :)
Ugh, it's Math later for me :'( And then, Anthropology, looking forward to that though, because Jun's in my class :) Loving it. I shouldn't be rambling on and on, especially when I have precious time now in my hands ;)


As you know, people around the world were flabbergasted by the Josef Fritzl case, the one where the father locked his daughter up against her will and had a few children with her which he kept down in his basement like an evil secret ready to spring up. Haha Malaysia has one of its own now. Congrats, citizens of this country for such a downturn. I'm sure it'll be a totally popular story now in many other parts of the world. Too bad its horrifying. Which grandfather is sick enough to rape his own granddaughters?? It's so sickening, the stories appearing in the newspaper. Malaysia is in debt of 408 billion currently, as I have highlighted before. They still want to go ahead with the whole building of another island which is going to cost more. A few billions at most?? Sickening, how their brains work. They say this country is poverty-free. I've seen and heard stories. Stories of how corruption spoiled lives. Don't they ever want to change before its too late?? The police force is equally corrupt. They think that they can just issue summons to whom ever they like, and when they please. They intimidate women and I know of some girls who have gotten raped in police stations yet, they can't make a report. Which other police stations would take the reports in?? Sigh* Stupid-esqe. Sorry again for the rants.


The siblings I was talking about, were made into sex slaves by their uncle and grandpa. What an abomination. Goodness, the mother only found out about it when the 16 year old (the eldest) became pregnant. Isn't it just sickening, mind boggling, horrifying?? Another sickening story is the one in Saudi, where a girl who was raped by 5 men made a report and she landed in jail for committing adultery. How does being the victim of rape make you an adulterer?? How does the innocent rape victim who cries out for help become the perpetrator?? Some parts of this world are still too pro-men, I believe. No justice in that. Lust and uncontrollable libido of some men often times land a lot of people into trouble. If I were to open my mouth about the current Prime Minister of this country and his "deeds", I think I'd really land in jail. The policy here is to be "hush hush", thus creating "good robotic citizens" that are too mindless and scared to rise up against the evil that is taking over the place. Sigh*


Like I said, I really shouldn't be ranting. Oh well, on a lighter note, let's hope college will be a better place and a ground for us to move up and rise higher above the odds and above the corruption and bribery and just plain evil. Other places around the world too are becoming worse. India had an inflation recently and food prices rose by an alarming 18 %. 
My brain just won't stop talking about sordid facts :/ 
I just hope that I achieve my goals this semester :( It's already 4.25 am here and it's unbelievable that I have to catch a 6.30 am train for my 8 am class. Amazing isn't it. Such "beautiful splendid" timings. Haha and I have to face the "bauble head". We renamed my Math lecturer, such a jerk :) Seriously. Haha insanity at its level best I guess. 
Sometimes, a little ignorance is perfect bliss.


And to you, my lovely blog readers, I'd love more comeback from you guys :) Tell me what you want me to blog about if you like, it's easy :) Just put it in the CBOX on the right. Other than that, have a good day, all of you ;)


P.s# A shout out to Passerby in Kursk, Marjun from Faroe Islands, Diana in Lebanon, Juzer from Kenya and anonymous from Manchester ;)


All my love, 
Lishia.

Claws and heterophobia.

So yes, I'm back. I forgot to explain the picture, so I'll post it again :) 

Not that it needs much explanation I guess. But yeah, I was bored the other night and wanted to paint my face. Haha so my friend Juzer, he told me to try being gothic, which I ABSOLUTELY love. I love the whole genre, it's just so sad that dad doesn't like me piling up on the eyeliner; he says I ain't Adam Lambert. HAHA dad's a fan of his. 


Okie, so my sister just came screaming, asking me to bathe. I'm sitting on my bed half wet, semi dressed because I just bathed Woffle. Haha she sure is a bundle :/ Sigh* Stuff that have been taking place for the past few days/weeks have been making me so sarcastic. Haha I'm currently talking to a guy who says he'd do anything to meet me, even if it means losing his eyes. I said I'd literally gouge them out, NOT that I'd do it, of course ;) Heterophobia sets in, ya know :)


College starts tomorrow, oh help me, peeps :( I'm SO NOT READY FOR IT!! I hate college. I miss University life. Although the lecturers were pretty useless there. LOL. Okie, Lilian's (my sister) nagging. I'd better jump straight into the bathroom for a good hot shower. And once again, don't be scared of me when my claws come out once in awhile ;) I'm pretty much harmless unless provoked a little too much ;) I have a HUGE AMOUNT of patience, seriously. I really love you, darling readers :)


But even Lilith has to play, innit?? ;) 
Lots of love, hugs and kisses* SHIA

When lust gets out of hand.

Woffle and then, me :)


Oh well, at times, I'm tempted to put up sexist rants and complains about the opposite sex and then again, I'm NOT sexist. Just incensed about how things work with the male population. Do they just look at women as objects of pleasure?? Sometimes, I want a good conversation with brains. You know?? Brains and not with dicks. These days, males love thinking with their dicks; it's like as if God didn't give them brains equipped with neurons and cortexes and stuff. Sorry if this might come across as offensive to some but sometimes, it's just tiring blowing boys off. When some of the boys that fancy me get rejected, they spread malicious rumors. Or do stuff worse than that. I would love to tell you all my encounters but to sum it up, males could come across as slightly moronic, highly egoistic people. Who only allow their RAGING hormones to get the better of them. And again, I'd like to say, NOT ALL. There are a few decent ones but only a handful. I've had some of my male friends going around spreading rumors about me saying that they have bedded me when in fact, hand holding was not even done in the first place!!


It's not that I'm being petty about all this; it's just that sometimes, it hurts when a girl gets treated like she's nothing more than a pussy cat to toy with. You know?? (Pardon my very colorful french.)What am I supposed to do, if you're a male and you come up to me and tell me you're horny?? You expect me to drop to dick level and give you a suck?? Think twice. Have some respect. That's all I'm saying.


Cheating on your partner/wife, does NOT make you a man. Neither does it make you a legend. It is not in any bit honorable. Call me old school if you like. But that's the way I roll. Not all girls want to be treated that way. There are some who like to play and well, some are just pretty decent. So, you should know your arsenals. Play in your own arenas and don't for one millisecond step out of it or else you'll be shot down. This applies to both the sexes. 


I shall not type any further, I do not like typing in this manner.


I love you buddies, A LOT. Don't get me wrong, like I said; just a little miffed.


Lots of love.

Dummies and perfect lies.

Me and my sweeties and a turtle :) I miss the good ole times :'(

And it's hello folks, I'm back on track :) Have been watching Nip / Tuck the whole day. I think my butt is beginning to look like a bucket of lard :/ Oh me oh my. Seriously the whole series is bloody addictive :/ 
Lunch was a Mc Donald's event :) And about the man who cut off his son's genitalia. I was literally gobsmacked when I finished reading the article. He just cut off the poor thing's genitals and then sent him over to an aunt's house. His aunt discovered the severed part after she found out why he was whimpering and holding his crotch. Apparent circumcision. They should translate "a Dummie's guide to parenting" into Malaysian BM. People here could use some tips to proper parenting. Baby dumping, illegal abortions, flushing babies down public toilets, all becoming a norm in this sick society.


Sometimes, perfect lies are all that abounds huh. Don't you think :) About the course of Eugenics that I seem to stress on a lot. It's only because it's debatable and it's inhumane as well as not the right thing to do. I do NOT agree with it. Who are the upper class citizens think they are, God?? They certainly play Him to a certain extent. Forgive my angsty self, I've just been hearing/reading too much of the gory stuff that it just gets to me. Eugenics in layman's terms- Controlling the hereditary qualities of offspring by controlling breeding. That means, if you want smart children/offspring, only marry/have sex with (preferably a non-Jew, non Native American) an upper class. They only did it to cattle but NOW it's done in a lot of places; in fact it's still practiced today. They also "neuter the human beings who are an apparent threat" or in other words, perform vasectomies and ligations on them to prevent them from having children. It used to be done to control the qualities of cattle bred but humans are the ones who undergo Eugenics more today. Sometimes, Malaysian politicians care about nothing except things that would further flaunt their flamboyance. Their vanity is nauseating. I keep changing the subject :D


Anyway, there's so much to talk about with all this clutter in my neurons :/ Oh well.
I'll blog again tomorrow :/ Have to wake up early for a driving lesson :( OH SHUCKS. I hate the instructor, he's a bore and a retard ;) HAHA. Time to sleep sweethearts, it's already 3.10 am here :/


Love you all, goodnight :) My eyes, they're barely open. LOL. Kisses, 
Shia.

Perverse nature, chromosomes.

Peek a boo :)

It's gonna be a long hard one :) LOL. I mean, my post. I have a lot on my mind which I need to release again. Oh sigh* Not happy counting down the days till college starts. Aaron and I start on the 10th of this month which also happens to be JOSHUA WRIGHT'S BIRTHDAY!! Haha I'm just doing this to catch his attention since I can't access my comment box, *blush* Haha oh me oh my. 


So, on my mind today are (not in order) :


Trans gender people.
Ecstasy as a cure for autism.
Lunch. HAHA.
Pedophilia and child abuse/rape.
Eugenics and the controlled breeding of humans.
Floods that have wreaked havoc in Queensland, Aussie.


Since mum's a psychologist, I've seen a number of her patients up close. Her latest is a beautiful girl named Belle who has chromosomes XY like a normal girl BUT the chromosome X has a circle around it. One of the rarest cases ever. From what I see as well, pedophiles are born and not made. With the proper upbringing, maybe the perverse nature in which they have in their minds could be erased. 


I have been watching a few movies and show on trans gender individuals and the treatment they get isn't very nice. I mean, people ostracize them, treat them like "dirt of society" and I know of many who have to end up doing "prostituting" because apparently, no one hires a tranny. They go through extremely traumatizing ways of being "themselves" when they go under the scalpel and slice of their penises, turning them into vaginas instead. The procedures are very risky, sometimes they may even die in the operation and then, when they come out healed, people laugh at them, toss them about, take advantage of them and even rape some of them. Sometimes, homo sapiens should just learn to be more loving, more accepting. The world won't go any further forward if superficiality prevails. (Enough about that, I sound like I'm lecturing, lol.)


I don't believe in having children unless I'm 100 % capable of keeping them and raising them in a good way. Recently, in Malaysia, there was a man who chopped off his little son's genitalia. I'll tell you about that later. Lunch now ;)


Lots of love, honey buns.