Humans, untrustworthiness.

Turtle and I.

Call me soft, call me stupid.

But I choose to believe that no matter how hurt I am about human betrayals, that there still at least is a tad bit of good in them. I don't know, no matter how much I know the person can't be trusted, I still try to find a little ray inside him or her. To justify myself, that everyone has good in them.

And I end up getting hurt so badly myself. Haha silly me right?? I'm just so dumb in that sense. Animals are still my number one confidantes. They'd never say a word about you. If they don't like you, they'd say it in your face. I love animals. They're the most beautiful living things on earth. They are pure.

I really want there to be an animal heaven. Crossing my fingers and toes and hoping that I'll meet my dog and pets that passed away in heaven one day. I'm emo. Bawling my eyes out.

Because tonight, I realized there are more stripes on a human than on a tiger and the worst thing is, they can change to spots.

Night, lovelies.

Rascal Flatts, Dad, me being a bore.

Jack and I.

What hurts the most. Is having so much to say, and watching you walk away. I hate bp's. SIGH* I miss Kampar. I miss Priya. I miss Vie. I had a long chat with him on the way to college yesterday on the train. I've just realized how many people I didn't really know at all.

I shared everything with them, they with me. But yet, I knew very little of them. They apparently could change their stripes according to the weather. It is kind of painful to know of such people no doubt. Still, I guess some people are how they are for reasons only known to themselves. If only I had a telepathic mind. I could just read thoughts, auras and brain vibes of others. How cool would that be?? :)

I've gotten into a funny mood of appearing offline on both Facebook and Msn. A trick I learnt from Suria :) Sometimes, we just don't have the mood to do anything, or talk to anyone. Gosh I'm ranting. LOL.

I went to see the doctor and I got more medicine to take :( And I've to go and see an ear specialist tomorrow :( Boo hoo* For my ear that has been hurting for quite some time now. I was high on Caramel coffee when I posted the previous post just now :P And DADDY CAME BACK!! WHEE!! He went to China for work. He's back!!

SIGH* Cant' wait for my debate practice on Friday again this week. I don't know why but it just excites me. Haha I have to learn to control my temper and not be so aggressive towards the opponents. But oh boy, the topic for this week is just a killer!! It's Quality workforce education is a constitutional right of all students. It's debatable but it would be hard to find points to support that motion. Easy but facts and stats on the other hand.. OOh!! Let's just say OOH GAH!! Haha.

I just hope I never bore any of you to death :) SERIOUSLY!! I was just teaching my sister Chemistry last night. Pretty rewarding when she told me it helped her. It was isomerism and nomenclature of the alcohol, carboxylic, and ester groups :) I love science!! Tee hee, I'm a nerd wannabe. Okie, I won't further bore you, I'll post another post up instead :) Something not so dreary and lifeless :P

Bye for a teensy weensy while, folks ;)

Love you Jan Jan ;)

Test woes.

Shucks the stupid IT test wasn't today.
It's tomorrow!! UGH!!

Lol.

Later peeps!!

Manson- The reincarnated devil. With 3 angels.

The last post before I sleep.

This is Manson. With Rachel Evan Wood, if I'm right. I mentioned him in the post: The dark status. As I said, he gets the most beautiful women. Perhaps because he's beautiful on the inside. Tee hee. Intriguing.





And the above: Manson and Dita Von Teese as I blogged about earlier. Correct me if I'm wrong. They're like devil and angel alike. LOL.

And below: Two pictures of Marilyn Manson and angel-like Rose McGowan. Intriguing innit?? And then again, maybe not :)





Nighty!! <3 <3

I belong to the night. For now.

Yeah, just to say: I include pictures because it'd be boring without them!!

Oh boy. Mum made me a tom yum?? Extra spicy and also, bought cake, apple strudels, and scones. Oh boy!! And I'm not feeling well. Haha I honestly wish I was beautiful :( And stick skinny. Oh this is not good. I'm emo-ing at night. LOL.

Hmm, to wait or not to wait?? To take or not to take?? So many questions buzzing in my head. And guess I'd have to say good night for now. It's 3.57 am here and I'm supposed to be asleep as I'm ill as well :S

IT test tomorrow!! Hope I ace it :) Phew*

Good night, knight in the shining armor.

P.s# I wonder whether you think of me sometimes. I wonder if you play back what we used to have. I look back and see that it wasn't just you I fell for. I fell for your astounding intellect and your brains were what made my heart skip a beat. I belong to the night for now.

The dark status.

A dark status : Take me, I'm alive. But everything looks better when the sun goes down. I had everything, opportunities for eternity; but I'd belong to the night. Your eyes, I can see it in your eyes, you make me wanna die.

That's what I put on my facebook status. Tee hee. Was feeling dark. I actually woke up ill. What a bummer. To wake up with a backache, fever and a massive sore throat.

My friends, some of them are into Manson. He gets some of the most beautiful girls. This Manson. His ex was Rose mcGowan, I find her BEE-YOO-TEE-FULL. And of course, his current, I think; is Dita Von Teese. WOW right?? Sometimes under the iron masks or weird frames, people are totally different. It's called Impression Management in Psychology. Where the world is our stage :)

SIGH* I think my English is currently deteriorating. At least, I think so. So I think I shall use proper English. LOL.

No offence to anyone, or any race or culture but schools in Malaysia are getting worse than in ghetto areas. It was just reported that schoolboys actually rape their classmates in school!! And the teachers don't do anything about it simply because they themselves are scared to take action. I'm just tired of seeing what society has turned into. Sick of gender stereotyping, sick of prejudice, sick of racism, sick of bias perceptions, sick of self righteousness, basically, am sick. Literally speaking, I am sick :(

But let's not pull down anyone's day alright?? :)



Me.

Yawn* I might take an afternoon nap :) It's 1.15 pm here.

Noon, peeps :)

Lots of love <3

Happy Sunday.

Me, Jack and Geets.

I currently am brushing my teeth in bed :P I'll post up a few later alright?? Haha.

I'll go get dressed and go downstairs and then I'll be right back up here (in a few hours' time). Haha!!

Have a good day. It's a Sunday morning here by the way :)

HAPPY SUNDAY!!

Oh :)

Oh, now I remember :)

I started and ended my assignment with an Adolf Hitler quote. He's got values too,although he was an evil man. Lol.

Things I've done before:

1. Walked out to the mall with only a tank and a pair of boxers on. Man, it was fun!! Me and Chrissy, we got stares. Haha but it was so comfy!!

2. Blogged about my pooping habits. Tee hee.

3. Drank 5 tequila shots, 7 Bailley's and 5 vodka limes in less than two hours and still, I didn't get drunk. ( I WANT TO GET DRUNK!!) :(

4. Given my number to absolute strangers. And not pick up their calls later. Haha!! I'm evil :)

5. Danced on the bar top. Boy was it fun. And I forgot, I was wearing a short skirt, oops* And a leopard print underwear. Haha.

6. Corrected someone's grammar during a debate competition. It's unacceptable. :)

7. Flashed my underwear just because I like the print. (Leopard) haha, my fave.

8. Eaten ice cream alone for one whole day. It was my 17th birthday and mum, dad and Lil took me all over to get ice cream :) We drove around the whole day, IT WAS FUN!!

9. I went without sleep for one whole week during a camp and it was where I met MARJUN!! I miss you :(

10. Made out with girls :P It's fun, it's wrong but nice. LOL. Sshh.




With this and a clapbangboom, I'm out :)

Bye bye :)

Me, me, me, me.

Me in Chrissy's apartment, we were dolled up for a night out. :)

I haven't been checking my flag counters and I realized that my Malaysian visitors reached 600!! WOO!! Lol.

And I'm getting more views from the country "Down Under". YAY again :) Hello there mateys :) I hope I get to know you all one day. And hey, if you all have any blogs, please do tell me. I'm quite a blog stalker too. Tee hee, I'd love to follow your blogs.

P.S# Tell me okay?? :) Just email me or leave your blog address in my CBOX or in the comments section.

OMG OMG OMG OMG!! Sorry *Patting my hair down*, haha!!

Lee Dewyze won American Idol

. YEAH I FOLLOW AMERICAN IDOL!! Haha I love Paula actually. Wish she was still on the show. Hey, Josh Wright. Who did you vote for?? Haha don't worry, I'll keep it a secret :) Cross my heart. <3

It's a public holiday today in Malaysia. We have tonnes of holidays because we have three main races. Thus, many many holidays come about. It's awesome actually :) Except that I want seasons in this country :( Boo hoo. No seasons :( I want autumn. And winter :)

Sorry for the vast amount of smileys. This girl has lost her mind and will be back in a minute. Haha.

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I'm back!! :) Lynn and Josh, look. FOUR dots :) Not three or five, but four!! Haha.
Holler from the border autistic :p

I managed to finish my psychology assignment in the nick of time yesterday. WHOA!! I finished it in less than 2 hours. I managed to write a total of 2300 words!! Haha it went over the limit but who cares?? I love words :) Oh no!! I have an IT test on Monday. I don't like studying for IT. Wish I could study for Biology, I need a BIO-GASM!! Hmm.

I also realized, I lose my temper when I'm up on the debate rostrum. They put me as the Whip that day. I was the third speaker and the Government team kept POI-ing me. We were on the opposition team and I was raving because the government left too many loopholes for me. Oh, this is parliamentary style debate. Asian style I think?? I so want to try the British style parliamentary debates. They sound awesome, as Rafie was telling me. Aiden :)

The topics we get are really weird ones :S I think I mentioned the theme earlier, it's "Equity, access and quality." I think my Psychology lecturer who also happens to be my debate lecturer likes me. Haha she always gives me more time for work, more attention, bluh bluh :) She likes wit I think. Haha. Such conceit from me. I shall stop :)



A silly me picture.

Oh yeah. Wait, I forgot what I wanted to type :(

Shucks. Nevermind then.

P.s.s# In desperate dire need of an ice cream. ANYONE FOR AN ICE CREAM?? :) Let's go :P

Signing off, me. LOVE!!

Breaking point.

I've reached breaking point. Been here a few times. Debate is the only thing keeping my sanity. My heart's pounding like never before, there's a whirlwind in my stomach. I've been here before and this is not the worst. But breaking point is a bad place to be in.

It hurts and is painful, the emotions are jumbled. Feels like being in a backhole or a vacuum where it's dark and awful.

No words to describe how I feel now.

Easiest thing to do is to feel numb. I'm numb.

Good!! I can't feel a thing.

Signing off,
The hurt alien.



My Guatemalan worry dolls.

Life. Nuts.

Blogger is being ANNOYING!! Shucks, I have my Psychology assignment waiting and I haven't started a thing :S The exam yesterday was pretty okie :) LOL. And I'm on the debate group again!!

Oh boy, I hate the debate theme for this year. "Equity, access and quality."

Guess that revolves around education, healthcare, taxing, bluh bluh. ALL the boring topics. Wish they had done rights though. Human rights, animal rights, freedom of speech, choice and all. Would have so much more fun :) SIGH* Life is currently a downturn. Can't explain but yeah, it is.

ASSignments piling up and me, being a procrastinator. I'm so lazy to rush them. So, I do last minute work. And oh, you should read about this.

My friend; her boyfriend hits her, beats her up and even bites her when he loses his temper. I think, only guys who are cowards would do such things. And guess what!! He texted me last night to threaten me. It's bad enough that he's doing that to her, playing the emotional blackmail game. He wants to try it on other girls now??

All because I sent my friend a text asking her why she got back together with that useless piece of crap. He even hit her in class in front of the lecturers, dragged her out, and started slapping her. Is that supposed to be tolerated?? And he actually told me he wouldn't hesitate to harm me. I don't doubt that. But neither do I take that kind of thing. I'm going to the management to report him with Sam. And Sam says that if they don't do anything in three days, he'll go directly to the police. SHEESH!! Haha he doesn't know he's messing with the wromg girl. My poor mummy :( I told her about what happened and she told me to be careful because my dad's not around :( He's always travelling. Dad's an engineer and it's awesome, how many places he gest to visit :) I miss him :'(

My life is seriously drama filled. No matter how much I try avoiding drama, it still comes along :( sigh*

Let's put on a smile for life!! Haha.



This is me with a turtle :) Animals never fail to make me happy!! Haha.

Quote of the day: Animals are such agreeable friends; they ask no questions, pass no criticisms.

- George Eliot -

Love you all!! Hugs and kisses* :)

Things I'm grateful for.

A funny green eyed vixen to laugh at in the picture.

Finally!! Have been having a really really bad Internet connection. SIGH*

Life is bad with a bad connection innit. :) I've an exam tomorrow again!! Oh gosh. It's so annoying to have exams all the time. I get panic attacks and anxieties before exams.

Haha I just wanted to do something random to get me out of "emo-dom".

Things I'm grateful for:

1.Eyeliner: Else when I cry at night, I'd have nothing to hide the puffiness of my eyes in the morning :)

2. Toilet paper: If not, I wouldn't have anything to use after my poop bombing. Tee hee.

3.Chocolate: I'd have nothing to get hyper on.

4. Ice cream, coffee and candy: Same rationalizing as the above one.

5. Bras: Yay, saggy boobs be gone!! Haha.

6. Leopard panties: They help me feel sexy on a bad BAD morning.

7. Debate: It helps me work my rusty brains. Keeps me in check too. I become more witty and faster with my head and tongue.

8. CSI: It helps me keep my sanity. Drives my passion for forensic science.

9. Heels: Helps me look taller. So sad that I'm only 155 cm :( Only a sad 1.55 metres tall :(

10. Fingers: I can play my piano and keyboard with them, WHOOP DE DOO!!

11. Speed: I'm a speed demon and death races are TOTALLY my thing :)

12. Dancing: The person who invented it must have been a hyper genius!!

13. Even numbers: I dislike with utter disdain, odd numbers.

14. Water: I love drinking it, swimming in it, and everything to do with it!!

15. Peanut butter: I don't fancy peanuts but peanut butter is MY FAVOURITE!! Even my favourite ice cream flavor :)

16. Books: I love books to bits, can't imagine a world without books :)'

17. Facebook: Although it gets boring, we still can look for long lost friends.

18. Snakes: They're SO GORGEOUS!!

19. Boxers: The most comfortable piece of clothing that EVER existed.

20. Beds: I'd die without mine :)

My connection is still bad so I can't say much :(

I'm so sorry, it's not that I'm neglecting you. Haha I'll write more tomorrow after my paper, it's a promise. IF the connection in college is good. Okie?? :)

Love.

A bio-gasm.

A silly laughable picture.

I NEED A BIO-GASM!! SO badly.
Bio-gasm.

Bio-gasm.

Bio-gasm!!

I need one.

Bio gasmm!!

Bio-gasm!! :)

Sorry, ranting. Will post more later. Haha!!

Love me :)

Impression management.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing.
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in.

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you.
What am I gonna say when I'm all choked up and you're okay.

I'm falling to pieces.
I really am.

So, I use world impression management.
Where the world is my stage and I'm the actor.

I put on my happy mask when I'm sad.
To hide what I truly feel.

So it doesn't go around hurting others around me.
I did what I did, I have a breakage point too.

They say bad things happen for a reason.
No wise words gonna stop the bleedin'.

I'll take the blame.
Let me do it so no one else gets hurt.

I'll be your sacrificial lamb.
Come here, slice me apart.

Take my heart out.
Eat it in any style that suits you.

I got a degree offer in my field of choice.
What good is it if I can't do it??

2 and a half years does seem long after all.
Sigh me.

Back to the drawing board.
Pain after pain.

Tear after tear.
I'm such a good actress though.

And really, no wise words gonna stop the bleedin'.
I'm falling to pieces.

Oops, time for the happy mask to come back on.
Night world, three....two....one.

I'm dead.

A little something.

Better to have loved an lost than never to have loved at all.
I quote Juzer, Thanks so much hun, for helping me cope :)

Nice picture for laughs :)

Love to all. :) <3

Bluh.

A silly Jack and I picture for laughs.

Shucks, I've so many assignments due. And I'm so sleepy :P It's 6:28 am here. SO TIRED!! Pitbull came to Malaysia!! I missed him, sigh* Couldn't get the tickets. I'll post more later :P Bye bye ;)

Winkie ;)

P.s# I WANT A TWINKIE!! Yum.

Man and nurse. :)

Me, the retard :)

It's a Sunday. And I have to blog. My blogging libido has kicked in.

I feel the adrenaline rush, and I don't want to get hyper because I've just bathed and I don't want to bathe again :) I'm lazy and yeah, a water conservationist. Haha!!

Let's write on something random shall we now?? I'm feeling so hmm, evil :)

OMG!! I was talking to my friend yesterday and I purposely called him a Weedhole on his facebook profile. I was so in trouble!! He has police friends on his facebook and UMM, for your information, weed aka Marijuana is banned in this country :P Haha nearly got someone into trouble. Shucks :S

I have a toe ring :) Haha. I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing :( How true these words are.

Let's do something funny. I'll take 3 words I find on the Internet and write a short paragraph on them :)

I chose, sleeping, choked and falling. From my bestie Lynn's blog, also from a song by The Script.

Bad English from a China man :)

Scene: A Chinese man from China goes to an Amsterdam hospital.

Man: Harrow. Just now, I ees sleeping. I ees choked on some seeds, I ees eating too fast. Sorree, my Engrand bad. I no speak him good, I ees China made. You know China?? The rand of copy dogs.

Nurse: Sir, I'm sorry. I don't really understand what you're trying to say. May I refer you to my elder??

Man: Aiyo, of cush I ees elder than you. You ees looking so young. I ees very rich, you ees want to come back China wiff me?? I pay you two hundred thousand yen to be my wife.

Nurse: I'm sorry sire, I still don't get you. Do you want me to call an elder to help you??

Man: No!! I ees not falling down, ees need no help. So you ees take my offering??

Nurse: Sir, you're becoming redder and redder. Perhaps you should take a seat??

Man: Take a sit?? For what??

Nurse: You look tired, sir.

Man: Ohh, I ees no tired one. Ees taken China made Viagra. Ees called Viagwa :)

Nurse: I think I have to sedate you. You're starting to spasm.

Man: WHOA. You ees date me?? I sooo happy now.

AAHH WHY YOU EES POKE ME??

:) End of story. Haha, toodles :)

My mind. (Not in order)

Mmmm, the goodness of a Mc Flurry and a best friend to celebrate the goodness of ice cream. Haha.


So many things running through my mind. I have to re-organize my mental schemas.

Hmm, they seem not to be working in order anymore. Haha, MENTAL ANNIHILATION!! Arrgghh, the stress of it. SIGH* I go against the norms, cultures and yeah, normalcy of societies. ALL the time. YET, I complain and whine when things don't turn out and when people start talking. Haha my mum says she wishes she didn't teach Lil and I to have minds of our own. We're so strong-headed that sometimes a mental bulldozer is required to shake us.

Anyway, shucks, the holocaust. I've been reading up on the holocaust on the Internet. They have pretty decent archives to thumb through. It's amazing how evil a person can get. Well, like they all say, world impression management. The world is my stage. Applies to politicians as well. Even the good ones. Come on, sometimes, masks are required to camouflage what one's true feelings really are. You have to put on a mask in order to protect yourself.

Sigh* I was just talking to Wind about stuff. And he says the only reason why us girls get so many friends is because we're hot and people want to befriend us. I personally think that you, Wind, Pengu Wind are one of the nicest humans I've ever met :) And yeah, I love your blog!! ANIMALS :) I think that values still exist. I for one, don't judge a person based on his or her looks. God doesn't, why should we?? He's the alpha omega isn't he??

SO MANY THINGS RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND ALL AT ONCE. Ugghh!! I just told my mum, I've found an excerpt to describe what is going on in my home church right now :) I hate church politics. I love politics but when it involves churches, then it gets sucky.

Shakespeare, Life's brief candle:

It is a tale told by an idiot.
Full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.

How true right?? To describe certain scenes and situations. Boulders are a big pestilence. Oh boy, I'm just typing out randomly, my fingers are practically flying across the page. I miss my high school teacher, Miss V.

I used to write essays to submit for competitions and she checked them for me. But sadly, she says what I write is always to controversial for small-minded people to handle. They would create a scene out of what I write, perhaps that's why I've learnt to hide what I feel in metaphors.

AAHH, the creator of metaphors was pure genius!! Phew* I miss Diana!! WHY OH WHY do the people I love have to be half way across the equator?? Hmm.

Okie, I'd better stop my random ranting before I get worse :P Omg!! I had Indian food for lunch, YUM!! And dad was so sweet to treat us to Baskin Robbins ice cream!! Haha and I met my bestie Lynn and my other besties, Diane and Allie Wallie for dinner on Thursday :)

I'll post more :) I owe it to you.
Smacks and smackeroons,
hugs and kisses :)

Song of the day: F*ck you, Lilly Allen :)

Dry season, lazy sunday and nothing on :)

It's that season again. The dry spell, the season where things get sapped dry. Like my brain matter for instance. Sigh*

I seriously hope ,my blogging streak and mojo hits me right in my face again. That's also because I'm going through something. Something really hard to do, but us girls know we have to do it when we do it because its the only right thing left to do :(

Hmm, I'm kind of hooked onto this youtube programme, it's called HotforWords. The girl is just yummy!! Seriously, she is. And yeah I'm so upset. SIGH* Sorry if I keep repeating myself. I got an offer to do my bio medical science degree in UTAR, Kampar, Perak campus again. Oh gosh, WHY DO THEY KEEP DOING THIS TO ME?? I just told my parents. Just when I moved on and got over the initial shock of leaving the science field, they just have to rub it in my face again :(

I have some nice pictures!! Courtesy of Jack, she's an awesome photog I tell you.




There :) Ever since she got her new laptop, we've been camwhoring!! And also, special thanks to someone for helping me download my movie for Psychology class. Haha it's due this week and I haven't even started :( I'm the group leader, sigh* Hope I don't let my mates down. Anyway, that freak of a friend who helped me download the movie (The Abyss) haha, he's in LOVE with Marilyn Manson. How creepy huh?? But that guy does have good songs :P

Anyway, I'll sign off here and come up with another post :)

P.S# There is something nice about lazing around on a Sunday afternoon with nothing but a bra and a pair of surf shorts on. Haha!!

Love,
Me :)

Tee hee

I'm so sorry for the lack of posts :( Am going through a hard time and like Wind says, I'm a cave woman. SHUCKS. Haha because my house doesn't have Internet connection currently. SO SAD right?? I made mum drive me to Mc Donald's for wifi :) And ice cream of course, YUM!!

I promise, as soon as I get back my Internet, I'll blog :) LOVE YOU ALL!!

Java chip.

Shucks I've a Malaysian studies test later.And I'm having fun in starbucks. GOSH coffee gets me poop bombing :S Haha!! I'll post more later. Been some time since I actually had a decent post up. Sorry, viewers :P

YUMMY!! Java chip!! WE SHOULD ALL GO OUT AND CHIT CHAT AND HAVE SOME JAVA CHIP SOMEDAY!! Oops* Caffeine rush :P Am hyper, tee hee.

A silly picture of Jack and me :P



Have a great day, yo!!
<3 Shia.

A bit of publicity for Wind.

SIGH* I'm officially addicted to Creep by Radiohead. It's so beautiful. And hello folks!! I've something to share with you :P My friend Wind, has a new blog, he's AMAZING!! You should check out his work. Haha yes, I'm giving him some publicity.

penguwind.blogspot.com

Yup, this is his blog name :P Have fun reading his hilarious posts, they're beautiful too. I'll post more later, I promise ;)

Love you all!!



Silly picture of Sam "icing" our faces :P

4 things.

Another happy shot of Jack and I. And a silly shot of me.
Sorry I'm spamming my own blog with inadequate rants. I actually love my cyber space. I'm glad I have a space I can call my own.

-4 things I crave for:

1. More pets. Like snakes and reptiles :)

2. Ice cream. Yum.

3. More knowledge, wisdom, my brain is constantly hungry.

4. More books. I need them.

-4 things I would kill for:

1. Gorgeous long legs.

2. Height. (I'm vertically challenged)

3. Skinny-ness.

4. A good Einstein brain.

-4 things I want to do before I die:

1. Complete my PHD in Bio medical science.

2. Be a successful biologist/journalist.

3. Learn to love myself again.

4. Do the craziest, zaniest things no one would dream of. (Like eating ice cream from a public toilet bowl seat, jumping off a cliff para-gliding in only a string bikini so I can feel the wind, go to Hawaii and be able to dance naked on the Honolulu beach, etc)

-4 people I really want to meet: VERY CLICHE.

1. Barack Obama.

2. Albert Einstein. (He's dead. So sad.)

3. Rupert Murdoch.

4. Adam Levine. (Maroon 5 lead singer)

-4 things I can't get enough of:

1. Books. Peanut butter.

2. Friends.

3. Ice cream, junk food, chocolate!!

4. Animals.

I'd better stop here. Could go on the whole night!! I did my hair just now by the way. Gosh I have natural light brown hair and I wanted a brown. They dyed my hair brown but it turned out golden brown, almost blonde. Shucks!! Haha, I'll put up pictures of my new hair. In awhile. Tomorrow :)

I feel better already, thanks VERY much for actually bearing with my nonsensical craziness.

Love, hugs and kisses,
*Shia*

Choices, do we actually have them??

Jack and I.

Let's try be happy shall we?? The previous post just a minute back was just too depressing!! Life, what is life?? Very silly question right??

But did we ever get to make choices?? I don't actually think so. We are who we are. SO we think. But hey!! We are bound by culture, traditions, religions, like it or not. We are shaped, moulded, sculpted the way we are. Although we say, HEY NO!! I'm an individual. OF COURSE YOU ARE ONE. It's just that, subtly, even if you don't realize it, our society forms who we are. Look at Megan Fox for instance. She is a sex kitten, bombshell. But who determines it?? Society of course. It's that way.

We have the Eastern and the Western culture. Or sometimes, they intertwine. Like many other things that go on. So yeah, we never got to choose which mum we wanted, if we wanted a sibling, you know. Trivial matters or so they seem.

What if I never wanted to be born?? What if I wanted another family?? Another birth name?? What if I just wanted to be me?? Not bound by rules, culture, normalcy, traditions, country or anything?? After all, I'm kipepeo girl. I'm a free spirit.
I'M MOON WILLOW!!

So yeah. I wonder how it feels like to be able to love myself again. Is it really worth the effort?? Hmm.

Signing off,
The very traumatized sceptic.

Sorrowfully speaking.

My ear hurts, it's infected.

I feel awful.

Sometimes, I'm just human although I pretty much suck at being a good one.

I don't know, I'm not actually ranting, just having a nervous breakdown. Will I ever be good enough to face myself?? My demons?? What's possessing me??

Things go way past the acting stage. I just am so bogged down. Why am I continuing what I don't like?? Just because it's my forte?? So what?? I've faced this question before. It hulked in front of me like a huge minotaur.

Passion over talent?? Or talent over passion?? I was silly enough to choose talent over passion or maybe it was just because I didn't have the balls to prove my self-worth.

I guess it's something worth regretting. It's something I have to deal with, to clean up. I'm no superhuman although I wish I were.

I wish I were better in everything I do, the way I look, etc.

Things turn out to be different all the time. Human perceptions and all.

I shall not further possess you with this unhappy post.

Ta, my fellow lovelies.



Me in a candid shot.

P.s# I'll never be understood.

Shopaholic therapy.

I'm blog crazy today!! Post after post. It's a kind of therapy. Very therapeutic.

Mum was so sweet, she bought me two bags and a new wallet!! WHEE!! And they're SO PRETTY!!

Okie, I've no idea why I'm blogging on my new items. But yeah, they're awesome. My old bag and wallet were falling apart so guess it's cool :)

Wait. Let me go and snap some pictures of them :P

I'm back :P They're loading....

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Here :)



My wallet.




I just realized they are upside down :(

The two bags. Haha whee!!

Love, shopaholic.

Things Mama never told you. Guest author: Miss Moon.

Things your mama never told you: (For girls only)

-Always wear your panties although it's much cooler without them :)

-She had a tonne of boyfriends before papa.

-She used to peep into the neighbour's son's room to stare at his apparent "cute-ness" and she got caught for it.

-She used to stuff tissues into her bra to make her boobs look bigger. (That's probably how she got dad.) ;)

-Candy makes you fat.

-Boys are weird.

-Boys come from Mars.

-Boys are the most obnoxious creatures on Earth.

-Boys are cheap-skates, but they also will lavish their pockets on you if they love you :)

Things your Mama never told you: (For boys only)

-Girls are weird.

-Girls are complicated.

-Girls are not easily pleased.

-It's fun to look up a girl's skirt.

-Girls are from Venus.

-Girls love candy, chocolates and they can be as rough as you.

-Playing too many computer games gets you cock-eyed.

-Girls hate loud obnoxious braggers.

-Dad was a rake ;)

-Girls have really nice, colourful panties that are nice to look at ;)

-Some girls like snakes :)

-Girls hate getting redundant gifts like plush toys, we love LV, Gucci and Prada bags, ANYTIME!! :P

Haha!! This is nuts!! So, I shall say, bye and enjoy ;)

Cheers, Miss Moon.

The art of being christian. (To my haters.)

You know, I'm as human as you are. How can you call yourself Christians when you judge others and make them think you are such holy, pious people??

Most Christians only act holy. They judge, are bias and look down on other denominations.They just know how to cover up their misdoings. I know of a pastor who banned guitars and drums from the church because he says they're of the devil. What sick minds we have, ruling the church in the form of leaders. They're no better than us. Yet, church people, they talk, slander, gossip, try to bring you down in any way possible!! I know all this for sure because I'm from a church myself. And it sucks, it hurts as well.

When they turn on you and your family, there's no turning back. They're the more of two evils.

How can you haters judge me when God hasn't?? When I've done nothing wrong to harm you or to anger you. You just find reason to blasphemize. Especially on me and my family. So what if I'm different?? You stereotypes, I pity you. You think you are happy but you're only a little less than contented. You know that deep deep inside, you'll only be happy when you stop judging innocent people.

(Sorry about ranting again. Sometimes blogspot is a good ear.)

Well, at night, is the time when I have to face my demons. Internally, externally.
I have a breakage point too, mind you. Like Hooke's Law states that no matter how elastic that spring is, it will have a breakage point where it loses its elasticity.

I've my limits. Sometimes, the world just wants to get you. To bring you down. But by showing them we're the stronger ones, we will triumph at the end. The wicked will fall, the truth will prevail.

I'm a Christian. I say that proudly. There's no one to judge me on that but Him. He will judge me when He has the need to. But for now, He's not and you do not have to play god and impose on others. Just stop it, it's so childish of you all. Especially you, church people. Youth and adults alike. I'm only talking about my home church, mind you. Right now, I love Him, He loves me. Anyone in the way of that will fall. That's a fact.

Love you all :)

Pets I want.

There are many animals I want as pets. Some conventional, most-out of this world :)

1. A guinea pig. (GOSH they are THE cutest rodents in my book)



2. A pit bull pup. They grow into really strong, loyal, adorable dogs :P



3. The Mexican Gila monster. Now, this may not be so conventional, may come across as a little weird too. But, guess I'd better not keep it. They're meant to run free and wild. Like me :) The kipepeo girl.



4. I used to have a giant millipede called Lovebug. She died, sadly because it was too hot here :( Next time, I'll get my second Lovebug a vivarium with a thermostat. This is another weird pet I want :) My baby :(



5. White pythons. I don't know why, but pythons are my favourite breed of snaked. They're gorgeous and loyal and fun as pets. I adore holding them :)



6. A chameleon. I'd name it, Sir/ Lady Lancelot. Don't ask :) My weird side comes out when I'm with animals. They're ADORABLE!!



7. A bull terrier. They look Asian, somehow :)



8. A slow loris. They are SO CUTE and I'd love lemurs as well, but lemurs are meant to be out in the wild. Slow lorises become easy prey to predators so I'd like to have a few, I can save them :)



9. A chicken. (I used to have a black Japanese chicken. She died of old age. I loved her to bits, cried like a possessed child when she died :( Had her since she was a chick.) Sorry, don't have a picture for that.

10. A panther. They are by far the MOST gorgeous cats in the feline family to me. Sleek, black, sexy, wow!! I could substitute it with a black cat though :P Perhaps, that explains my fetish for black cats. Phew. LOL.



Omg, I'm in love :P



There are more, I'll post on them in the next few posts :P

Animals make my world go round.

Love, Shia. (The animal-lover)

The evil alter-ego persona comes up again.

Miss Moon case# 6.

Dear Miss Moon,
I'm an ex army corporal. I was supposed to be promoted in my ranking in the army. But now, I'm out because when I served, an enemy soldier threw a grenade at me. I didn't know it was thrown and I ran back to my tank. It was a plasma grenade and it stuck to my pants, right at the crotch area. It blew up my crotch and now I'm dickless :( Please help me. Many people have suggested that I go for a transplant because now I'm empty down there :(

My voice has also become more feminine and I feel myself bending towards the fairer sex. Bending as in, I love cleaning up, doing housework and even knitting and baking. I also love women's perfume and lingerie. This has become a serious issue because my son is beginning to despise me for my weird behaviour. Please help me, Miss Moon.

Mr he-she.

My reply:

Dear Mr he-she, I think you should undergo a sex change operation first of all. You can't be a hermaphrodite and now, you're in the middle. Fence-sitters don't really do well in life. Seriously. Become a woman, and I'll teach you all the basics to becoming a real woman :)

WHOA I'm actually speechless for the first time. A plasma grenade blew up your crotch!! Haha, forgive my laughter, that's news to me. You know, you should start with hormone injections. Inject more female progesterone into your blood and you'll feel more womanly almost instantly ;)

Hmm, you like lingerie?? Audrey, Triumph, Bee Dees and La Senza have some pretty nice bras and panties for you to check out :) They come in any colour. Victoria's Secret has some pretty yummy chocolate smelling perfume as well. Oh your son is beginning to hate you?? Tell him it's alright to have two mummies in the house ;)

Also, shave ALL your hair off or use weed killer to remove any hair in any area. Hair on a woman on any part except her head is unsightly :) Do just that and you'll be fine.



Here, a picture for you to show the plastic surgeons.

Love, Miss Moon.

A week later's headlines: Woman sues Miss Moon, the famous newspaper columnist for her apparent divorce, claiming to be happier as a man.

Oops, credits to Rich for telling me about the plasma grenade in computer games :P

<3 Shia aka Miss Moon.

Debate, trouble and 10 things I'd give my eyetooth for.

I just came back from Japanese food!! Whee, this pescatarian had her fair share of seafood. Yum!!

I had fun with the folks today. LOL Lil and I were being cheeky in the car. Dad was in a surprisingly good mood. Haha. We had to rush to Ipoh early in the morning. Dad woke me up. Shucks, I was dead tired :S Had to attend my gramps' elder brother's wake service, he passed away but I ended up sleeping the afternoon away. Haha mum and dad didn't bother waking Lil or me up. We were dead tired.

Yeah, coming back to dad. He was in an awesome mood :P He bought Lil and I Mountain Dew and Kit Kats :P We are such junk food addicts. Tsk tsk. Yeah, Lil asked dad: Did you go for mum because of her boobs and butt?? HAHA!! What a question!! And I asked dad: Did you ever get drunk before?? Dad said he did, when he was 12!! WHOA right?? That's young for a drunkard. LOL he was being a show-off in a wedding and the adults were egging him on.

TYPICAL ADULTS :)

Okie. So yeah. SIGH* I am kinda empty. I'm pining for some people and certain things in a way. And I'm sick of trouble and dramas. I avoid them at ALL costs, I really do. But trouble is my first name, middle name and last name as well. I don't know why and it sucks :(

Yay I finally found my way into debate again. It's my forte, I can use it as an escapism as well :) I can forget life's pain with another distraction. LOL. I can't wait to get started. Just can't wait!!

I used to get scoldings from my ex debate teacher, Miss V, because I used to be really sarcastic and funny on the debate rostrum. I actually corrected a guy's grammar because and just because it annoyed me. He said, "Member of the floors" like a MILLION TIMES?? At first, I kept my calm resolve. Then he repeated the line one time too many and I blew. Haha I really blew my top!! I've a really hot temper, trust me on that :P I stood up, asked for a POI and poof* I said, "How many floors are there, and how many members?? Only one member and so many floors??"The poor guy just stuttered and stammered after that. I actually managed to blow him off-course. Shucks, I can be very evil when I want to :)

Ten things I'd give my eyetooth for:

1. A never ending supply of ice cream, any type, any flavour. Preferably Baskin Robbins, peanut butter choc flavour.

2. Another chance to spend my time with Priya Mama, Vie, Suria and the gang in the basketball court, just sharing stories and looking at the moon.

3. To be able to run free and wild with my hair blowing in the wind.

4. To be able to run and run and never stop. (I get a very very good adrenaline push when running, it's awesome!!)

5. To be able to achieve ALL my goals, aims and dreams in life and not just be a dreamer.

6. To be happy, inside out.

7. To know what heaven feels like.

8. To be able to do Add Math without a problem.

9. To be the smartest, most intelligent life form on earth.

10. To have an amazing super hot body, and be able to eat ANYTHING at ANY TIME without putting on a single ounce :)

Enough for now. Haha,
Love, Shia.