Books, wants, misses.

Okie, so forgive me :) I'm in that blogger roll again. But what the heck, blogging is addictive :) And so are you, my little meows ;) HAHA!! I'm feeling a little hyped up for the New year. Let's hope everything goes well for everyone ;)


2010 was terrible. I lost my gramps, had fall outs with my family, ran away from home multiple times (oh well, I'm a rebel), had interfering relatives namely an aunt, trying to pry her nose in my affairs. Oh well, some people just think they can play God and control situations and manipulate things according to their likings. Guess what, no one moulds me but me. LOL too bad some have to find out the hard way. Let's just say that I'm more mature now :) The trips with my family were good. We patched up (although mum is currently in her spring cleaning mood, turning the whole house upside down), and yeah. Lil is still Lil :) She's such an adorable thing although she HATES to be called that. As you all know, I spent the New Year doing funny things :) I got an awesome load of Christmas presents from my beloved pals. Even on my birthday, bestie gave me a book on Aung San Suu Kyi. Here, I'll show you a picture.

Sorry, I can't rotate it :) But there, you have it. Perfect hostage, the full biography of Aung San Suu Kyi. Just pure pleasure. A good book is like umm, stimulating sex?? LOL. They give me the BEST orgasms, I swear. A good book :) I figured. It's easy to get my heart. LOL Just give me a good book and I'll be loyal to you for life ;)

And a Stephen King in HARD COVER!! For my Christmas present :) From T S.M. Thank you SO MUCH!!


My room is in a mess!! Mum calls it a pig sty. I've too many things in here. Sheesh, I came back from the many road trips and still haven't fully unpacked. Haha mum is so going to throw a tantrum when she comes in here :/ I bought too many things, quite a lot of books as well although many were given too. Books here are pretty expensive unless bought online. It's annoying really, to save up for so long for a book in the market and when I have enough, it goes out of stock :/ Sheesh. Well, it is a worth it mess :) LOL. I really can't imagine having to go back to college :( It's hard to adjust, like transitions. And I don't really fancy the people in my college (not that they fancy me either I guess) haha!! Seriously, they stare, some admire me from a distance but no one really tries to befriend me although I did try talking to them in class. Girls are the worst!! They act all quiet and when you're out of sight, they start bitch-ing. Haha. 


2011 and my wants for the year:


To obtain a 3.5 CGPA (cumulative grade point average) without fail.
Well, dad warned me I have to obtain that or else :9


To be a better person. To hold on and not give up so easily.


To not be taken down so easily by others or what others think or say.


To be a better daughter.


To be a better friend.


To succeed in my field of choice in education.


To stop eating so much and to stop putting on so much of weight especially during festive seasons. HAHA!! Mmph.


Anyway, again, Happy New Year to you all, my munchies and I hope that 2011 will be a better year for us all ;) Lots of love.


P.s# I miss my Kampar friends :( Buck loads.

A New Year rambling.

In my uncle's house :) Shirt reads: I love Jesus and French Fries. HAHA.

Hello, my little fantastics :) It's the New Year here on the equator. I just had my lunch :) Haha. Anyway, it was an awesome holiday season, it was an awesome Christmas and a wonderful New Year's eve and New Year :)
I went to Bangkok, and then to Ipoh to visit my maternal relatives. Then headed to Johor to visit my dad's relatives with my grandma :) Off to Singapore after that, and back to Johor. It was extremely nice :) My poor parents came back not feeling well. I mean, can't blame them, dad was driving all over and mum had to take over the wheel once in awhile. LOL. Enough about that.


New Year's eve was awesome!! Went out with the bestie for ice cream (a pint of Cookies n' Creme and Chocolate chip cookie dough) and then a beer followed by a bottle of strong white wine my dad spared us. LOL yeah my dad gave me some wine to take over. And I did something REALLY BAD. Haha I met up with the gang, (sneaked out), took along with me, a bottle of vintage Cognac. I just pray and hope my dad doesn't find out :/ LOL It was sitting in the cupboard and well, let's just say we all needed some booze :) 


LOL everything was pretty wonderful. Blissful sigh* It's back to college soon :( Lil's coming a long with me now. Yeah, she's a big girl :) Haha. She's doing her A-levels, she's an aspiring engineer.


So anyway, I shall stop rambling and try to write better :)
2010, has not been a good year. MANY downs, too few ups. Oh well :/ Life's a bitch :)


Ta, lovelies.

Consequences.

A smile to you lovelies before the horror begins ;)

Warning: Do NOT read this if you find politics boring ;)

The scary yet increasing debts of the country:

2007 - 267 billion.

2008 - 285 billion.

2009 - 362 billion.

2010 - 408 billion.

Who do they think we are?? Daft little kids they can steal candy from?? :) They give us subsidies, even petty cash like a 1000 here and a 100 there. Then, when crises come, they revoke it, increase taxes, costs of living rises as well but, BUT allowances decrease. Seriously why is it all happening?? Oh of course. Oh ho, we all know alright, we all do. Why is it that crimes committed by the officials/authorities of the country go about unspoken off?? Swept under the rug JUST LIKE THAT?? Bribery. Duhh. That's what this country is known for. Corruption, vanity and bribery. Seriously. All they care about is looking good. They do NOT actually bother about the welfare of the people. 

They spend the money from taxes on STUPID things. Like humiliating its citizens?? The "country's astronaut" was actually called a "cosmonaut/space traveller" by the Russian space people. Sheikh Muszaphar, haha!! Blatant humiliation. Cosmonaut. I'm not saying this to purposely bring down the country's reputation. Sometimes, they go overboard. They say the youth in this country do not vote because we're too lazy or because we don't care. The laidback attitude. I think it's because we youth are tired. We KNOW what is happening. We're not as DAFT as they think we are. We're certainly NOT lazy. I think they have to revamp. They NEED a whole tsunami of change.

"Flying as a guest of the Russian government, Sheikh Muszaphar's role aboard Soyuz and the ISS is referred to as a spaceflight participant in English-language Russian Federal Space Agency and NASA documents and press briefings."

Above=Proof that he is NOT an astronaut. Look there. And the whole nation in all its glorious stupidity exalts him as an astronaut. When he was only a "participant" or passenger. The blatant hilarity of it all. Sometimes, moronic people like the "followers of the country's government" follow blindly.

What we need is a "Wilson Woodrow" here. A political tsunami. To stop all these blistering idiots from forming all their blinders and further building bondages. Seriously. We need a change like 1912, in the US. We need a Wilson. Wilson Woodrow is admirable. Read up about him if you don't know ;) He is the ONLY US President to hold a Ph.D degree. Not that it matters, but its admirable. To be so accomplished.

Sometimes, we really have to re think. When all fails, then what??

I'd say a migration tsunami ;) Get out of here. To live is to live in the truth. And not to be caught up by all this pretence.

P.s# Sorry for this woeful "speech". Just woke up thinking too much. Decided to research on statistics on how much more Neanderthal the country can get ;)

I love you all. Rock on!!

God complexes.

                                  
                              Guess who's here to play ballerina.


Dear you,
You were never good for my "brian" so I'm letting you go :) I actually officially did somewhere in the beginning of this year. Just never really had the chance to tell you that :) Haha.


Well, to all you judges, God is the only one who can. Don't take on a role too huge for your puny minds to handle :) Also, be warned. Words are my forte. They will backfire on you. So please, think wisely before saying anything. 


People like you are why abortion should be legalized :) Just a thought you know. Perhaps, I thought I knew you so well. Perhaps I was blinded by empty promises. Too bad I watch and learn. So, my BIGGEST New year resolution would be:


To discard all the dead wood from my life. As Aiden says.


P.s# I am original, there can only be ONE of me, as imperfect as I am. 
ED, you'd better stop controlling me :)


Cherry pop tarts to you meows ;)

Dying to live.

It's all in the pout ;)

Sometimes, we get what we don't need. And we don't get what we need. I'm talking, need here :) Not wanting/craving/desiring.
So often times, people play God and judge. Who are they to do that?? To take on a role too huge to handle :) It may even come off as bullying if it gets too bad and reaches the stage of emotional scarring.


Again, I've been reading more into eugenics. And maybe even gypsy/Indian eradication. Indian=Native American, mostly on the Abenaki tribe or the Alnobak. It's a little sad to see how they've been trashed. Piccoult puts it so well. Such a brilliant mind, such intricate, elaborate, magnetic pieces of work she creates in her books. I'd want to reach her level one day :) Even Sheldon. He produces amazing things. Such wonders the mind can do.


Okie, maybe I'm boring you lovely creatures with my festive rambling. Haha!! This Christmas has been a little toned down. In Malaysia. I don't know why, mum says maybe it's the "Great Depression". A little tumble down, an economic crisis :) Sigh* 


I love living in my own world :) Can't even put it into words. I love holing up. Bi polar?? Not really :) Just a little lala land. Lala in Swahili means sleep :) I love the Abenaki langauge :( I wish there were someone to teach me all about it, origins and all. I am so in awe of the Native American cultures and tribes. Thus the name :) Moon Willow. If you didn't know :) Sometimes, there are more to us than others can see :) Worlds apart.


My spirit animal= An owl. Thus, the beautiful ink.


I wish there were enough of me to go round the world. Mombasa, Tanzania, Cape Town, little towns/reservations on which the rich culture of the Native American lifestyles are preserved; I am dying to get out. I am dying to start living. It's ironic I know :) I am dying to start living!! I shall repeat it :) There is nothing much to really live for here except to move forward, to look for ways to get out. Haha funny as it sounds. A lot of us WANT to escape. NEED to. We need a way out of this *od damned country ;) I have to speak in circles, can't take risks. I'll spew when I need to ;)


J, I'm sorry I hurt you. You know I never meant to. It's just in my nature. I am kipepeo. I don't know why I do half the things I do sometimes. I really hope you 'escape' to your land fast and have a jolly good time :) Recover. Lots of love.


Lastly, I may be goth at heart :) Seriously. Black, is the white.


Sugar bombs to you readers for the festive season!!
P.s# Merry Christmas Aaron Howl!! Do enjoy this season ;)

Sex with a book.

It's my Jan Jan and I :) Say hello, everyone ;) Haha.

I love the way a juicy book keeps me alive.
I love the way the words play a huge part in theatrical plays in my mind. 
I love the way the words; enunciated, roll over the tip of my tongue.
I love the tangy enticing aroma of a new book.
I love the way a book paints the colors of my mind.
I love the way my mind reacts to it, bubbling through like a chemical reaction.
I love the way only a book  can fill a certain void, a certain emptiness in my soul.
It releases a passion from a valve deep in my brain.
A good book is also like a song. It keeps replaying in the head like a tune unsung.


Anyway, Merry Christmas to all you lovely creatures ;) May you enjoy these last few days of 2010 and have a beautifully awesome year ahead.


I wish I could capture the essence of moments. Beautifully unwritten, often unspoken.


Xx,
Lishia.

Running free.

I just want to run free :) Run wild and never be cooped up. It's a dream I had. That told me I was meant to be a Kipepeo. To never be bound. By anything. God, he doesn't bind :) You know??


I just want to pack a few things into a bag and run away. From everything. From life, from problems, from nosey people, from bugging relatives, from conformation. From everything. Really, if you stick out like a sore thumb, people are going to be yapping away. So Vie says yap yap :)


I figured this much out. I came to a very weird conclusion. I know why some people don't fit in at all. Sometimes, it's not because they're built that way/meant to be like that. Sometimes. it is just because they are too big for this world. They really are. If you could step into their shoes even for the briefest moment, you'd understand what I mean. When you're too big for this world, you'd go on searching and searching. Like Houdini, he kept on searching for the beyond. For different realms and places he could run to, to feel the security he needed. Like Einstein, he ran to his weird habitats :) Where he experimented in worlds of his own. Where it was him and him alone. Like Hawking, to be in his own mind. To be able to shut everyone else out. Or like Stephen King, to run into his own self made realm of stories he so wonderfully created, in his own mind. A splendid place.


Like I said in the previous post, imagination is a wonderful thing. Also a powerful weapon. And a deadly killer. Just like the mind.


Have you ever wondered why in your dreams, you constantly run and run?? And never seem to reach?? I do. I know I do. Quite a lot.


Now, let's go smell the sweet scent of insurrection.


Dear peeps, have a joyous Christmas eve by the way ;)
Sorry for the unduly mortifying "deep" posts.
Much love. Shia.

Immersion into the beyond.

I have a tonne of pictures like that :P New hair, new pictures :)

It's been an okay year. I just hope things would look better next year :) Not so grim and bleak. I've been immersing myself in Jodi Piccoult's book Second Glance and it just seems to get better and better. I can't seem to put it down. I just came back from Bangkok yesterday :) Have had a night to recover from a little exhaustion. It is a very splendid place but too bad I don't speak Thai :) It's gorgeous, the Mc Donald's chains there actually have pork pies and stuff. Something my country does not have. Sigh* Things in Malaysia are looking bleak again.

You know, the censorship regimes and all, have just seem to have gotten worse. It never gets better. This gay man, he's a Malay, he came out on youtube. Just to say that he's gay. And the whole "country" is in an uproar. An apparent brouhaha about it. Ya know, he's Muslim, he should not be gay. Such "religious beings" they seem to portray themselves as. We only know better. It's Christmas eve over here on the equator :) 

You know what's funny?? I could get into trouble for saying this but I don't think I care anymore. It's funny how they make a HUGE ISSUE when some Malay man comes out to admit that he's homosexual. It's funny how they BLOW THINGS UP INTO APPARENTLY CRAZY PROPORTIONS when a Christian uses the word "Allah" in church. They have claimed the word to be of their own religion. It's hilarious. Allah is an Arabic term for God. It's no biggie that Christians are allowed to use it. I mean, language DOES NOT BELONG TO ANYONE. We are all allowed to use it. Seriously. Also, it's funny that the bombing of the churches in the Kuala Lumpur region just got swept under the rug. They do enormous amounts of monstrosities in the name of their religion "Islam" which is actually a VERY PEACEFUL religion. Really. These bastards just take it out of context and everything including the peace of a nation goes spiraling out of control. Forgive my blatant french. Some things should be spewed out when they can't be contained ;)

I wish I could just go about singing, "I don't worry cuz' everything's gonna be alright."

Sigh* Talking to Diana now. She gives me comfort. She's a Lebanese friend of mine, think I've mentioned her before :) An amazing girl, a beautiful dancer as well. We both share a lot and I feel she is as mature as I am although she's only 17. Sigh* Life as it is. And yesterday, Mirul kept me company. He's amazing. I was singing to him and thinking about the past, precious moments, not so happy moments and all. All coughed out because I was talking to Liang about things. I miss things the way they were. When we were all a little happier. :) Moments like these. Sigh*

Have been reading a lot about eugenics, fascism, segregation and bluh. Beliefs, where is the stem of what is wrong and right??

Have you ever been in a room FULL of other humans; but you've never felt SO ALONE like that before. You've never felt so empty. People know you. But only on the outside. They don't know who you really are. What makes you tick. They only know you based on what they've heard about you. Like they say, your reputation precedes you. So yeah. Have any of you ever felt this way?? :) Voices in your head go, "STOP STARING AT ME." And they taunt and they taunt and they taunt. They don't let you sleep. They call you names. And you realize, you're not in a nightmare, it is really happening. People are really doing that. It's not the voices, it's external after all.

Sometimes, ED is not the answer. We all wish it were. How we all give in to it. In our own world. If only you could understand. If only. When it happened, was I in love with a fictional character?? Like Di said. Someone so perfect I created it out of my own figment of imagination. Imagination can be a weapon. A deadly one.

Just like the mind. One wrong move, and it kills.

That's all folks :)

Lots of bubbly bubbles and love,

Lishia.

Of pet peeves, wishlists and stalkers.

So yes I'm back again :) RIGHT AFTER the previous post. I might annoy the crap out of you all :) My super close friend, Jack is FINALLY 18!! Oh gush* What a big girl now :) *Mock horror* But it's sad, her dog has to be put down :( Poor baby. She has a kidney failure. Anyway, I came on here to write my Christmas lists :) Haha.

What I'm dying to eat this Christmas: 


Minced fruit pies.
Cherry pies.
Apple strudels.
Goldilocks.
Cherry tarts.
Chocolate balls ;)


*Trust me, they are hard to find in this country* Sigh*


My wishlist:
A grand/baby grand piano.
More brains.
A full band.
To watch The Fray performing live.


Resolutions for the New Year:


To be smaller. (I am putting on an atrocious amount of weight) STUPID CRAVINGS. Haha.
To push myself harder next year to achieve my goals which seem so near, yet so far.
To be able to be perfect in almost everything I do.
To stop some of my habits I don't like. (No I don't smoke or do drugs :P)


Ggrr. I'm feeling feisty. There still are too many things on my mind to blog about. TOO MANY. Just too little time. It's always like that. Too many things, too little time. If only we had 28 hours in a day instead of 24. More time to sleep, eat, brush teeth, mingle, study, have fun, etc :) I'm just being a little silly :)


Again, can't wait!! BANGKOK!! Whee* :) It's going to be a splendid time :)


My pet peeves:
1. People who stare. (I get an awful lot of stares, learnt not to bother.)
2. People who have atrocious English.
3. People who just yap and yap without thinking.
4. People who are so shallow, the only things they talk about are comparing looks, pushing others down and "hate gossiping".
5. Sick perverse guys who only talk about sex/boobs/butts. GET A LIFE.
6. Nosey busy bodies who like to probe and pry.
7. Interfering meddley people who meddle in affairs of others.
8. Sneering lips.
9. Putting on weight :(
10. Not knowing what to do, worrying.


I guess this should be it :) Mighty random I know. Oh and, I guess sometimes, even the most realistic of us all wish fairytales do exist. Deep down. It's undeniable at times.


P.s# 5 months this Christmas after. LOL. Allstar Wombat, always on the "brian". STOP STALKING ME ;) Haha. You know who you are!!


Lots of love, my lovelies. I wish this were a two way interacting thing. LOL I'd love to hear about your Christmas-es too.


Anyway, I love you all :)
Xx, 
Shia.

Jolly ramblings.

I seem to enjoy using this Trebuchet font now :) Okie, I know I've been naughty and not been in action here for quite some time now :) LOL but I think Santa still likes me ;) Yay* I got some curls!! I'm a curly moe now :) HAHA!! Okie but that's hardly what I want to talk about. 

First things first, my apologies for not blogging for so long. I missed you all, I've missed my blog. It's just that I've either had TOO many things stalking my brain space and I can't type it all out, or sometimes, I don't know what to say. Funny how things work, right?? :) I've to head to a family dinner again later :( Oh how I dislike those events. Well, this one involves relatives on my dad's side so it won't be so bad :) They all speak English and are less judgemental as compared to mummy's side. Oh I miss Mishka. I miss October and I miss Stitch. Not to mention, Santa. Lol you guys know who you are :) I have only one Christmas wish this year. That I'll be able to spend it with you guys :( But as it is, I'll be in Ipoh, Mishka too probably, Lynn, back here, October in JB and Santa in goodness knows where :) Haha.


I'd probably be rambling a lot today. You know, I was just talking to Viga and yes, he's a major huge brainiac as well, very intriguing topics that we bring up. I can't wait for next Monday by the way :) I'll be on my plane to Bangkok!! Yay* I really do want to visit Mombasa, for New Year but of course, that's impossible :( Just can't wait to graduate and start earning my own moolah.


Anyway, as it is, there are an abomination of smells we can't decipher. What more, light?? What if we could smell light?? The Science Industry is moving way to fast for my liking. Haha of course, I can't slow it down. It's good though. Headless cloning by P.B Desai, And then it is the spectrum and frequencies re-visited, and now it is white holes, anti-matter and equating the black hole theories by Einstein with white hole theories. Not to mention, photon smelling mice which is WAY AWESOME. Sometimes, human senses can be very limited, don't you think?? And then, there's progeria and Treacher Collins which I am STILL NOT OVER :( Not to mention my Hawking crush. HAHA!! Okie, my "brian" is on overdrive right now. I'm typing as fast as I can. No joke. Phew* I'm a little excited for many things, worried in a few senses as well.


Sigh* Also, the doofuses running this darn country. We should egg them for Christmas and not feel sorry :) Oh, what a satisfying feeling that'll be :) A feeling nicer than hot chocolate/warm milk with marshmallows :) Blissful sigh* Such incorrigible people. They think they know it all, when in fact they embarrass themselves and the citizens with such blatant moronic stupidity (pardon the french). There is a reform going on here now that limits the number of good students going out of the country for further studies or even to find jobs overseas. Of course we'd LOVE TO MOVE OUT OF THIS GOD FORSAKEN PLACE. Me for one, I'd love to. Anytime. I would love to study in a place where the lab facilities are not limited and where ample chemicals and whatever we need for our experiments are provided. In a place where people would not care about how others talk or dress. I know it's human nature to judge but trust me, you'd understand what I say if you come here.


So many more things to say as I haven't been on here for quite a while. Gosh!! My mind should slow down by just a TAD bit.


Alright, I'll get off this post now :)


Bye peeps, All my love. Xx.

I say.

       

A funny picture of me :)

                                Promise I'll come on and blog later :) 
                                         Xoxo,
                               Lots of kisses.

People, ick whats.

I have a new obsession, or a new topic I like to read on, demonology. I watched the movie- Solomon Kane and whoa. It is pretty attractive, I am very intrigued by weird little things :) Sigh* I hope my stuffy nose and flu clears off before I hit Bangkok. I'm going there before Christmas for a vacation!! Yay* A long awaited, GREATLY needed one :P LOL. The demon that attracts me the most is Lilith. Many things are said about her, some could be possible distortions or maybe she truly was the first "supposed wife" of Adam. But then again, that goes against all our holy books doesn't it :) The wife of Adam in the bible is Eve. Also known as Hawa in the Islamic Quran. I hate painful reminders :( Who doesn't. Sigh*


So many things have been happening. One of the most painful things to see is the persecution of innocent people. I don't know what's up with the world today, almost everyone is saying there's nothing that can be done now except to wish or hope for the best. But AASIYA BIBI DOES NOT DESERVE TO DIE based on blasphemy charges. She was framed, as she clearly pointed out, she was innocent and was framed just because she was a minority. She is a Pakistani Christian which the people there try to eliminate/eradicate. How sad isn't it.


Have you ever felt so empty?? Like all you ever wanted was to be taken away?? Or you sit and reminisce and feel so lost. I don't know why, I become emotional sometimes for no reason. Maybe it's the news. Maybe it's knowing the fate of others and I can't do anything about it. Maybe it's just little things that intrigue you know. Maybe it's the fact that we are lost in a mumble jumble in another dimension. That should be our mind. Makes us think too much, demands way too much of us, out of our capacities and capabilities. Sorry* Mindless ranting again.


I just wish the Pakistani community back in Pakistan would learn to grow up. Think out of the box and learn to show some respect for women. My super close friend back in Kampar used to be a Pakistani guy and he was SUPER NICE. He had so much of respect for women, he took really good care of me too. Yazid, if you read this, I miss you :) And all the fun times we had together. He would take me to see the moon. Even though the moon was miles away, he would take me on his motorbike, just to see it. As far as it was. Some days I protested, some days I went along. It would quell a growing sense of peace in my heart. All those days, we'd go for a super late supper, early maybe :) In the am, early in the wee hours of the morning, when the dew came out. He cared for me dearly, till the day I left for home again. So yeah, once again, the Taliban and the people of Pakistan. I've been into so many sites and forums and yeah, the people are truly backward and it's solely because they don't have respect for the fairer sex. They kill their women when they like, without solid evidence, without any proof of their ladies having an affair or something. The movie I watched, the true story of Soraya, she was stoned merely because her husband wanted to marry another woman and she did not permit that because he did not even care for his two daughters. They treat the womenfolk like trash.


How do you expect a country like that to grow?? Such shallow mentalities, stoning and persecution should be things of the past. It's pathetic really.


I shall stop blogging for awhile, I'll do a new post later, perhaps. But for now, night peeps. Enjoy the Christmas season :)

Spiralling out of control.

Sometimes, things do get out of our control. In times like these, depression sets in. Then, I don't know anymore. My Facebook and sometimes, even my blog seem too transparent. Sigh* Deactivated Facebook. Don't think I'll be needing it for awhile. All I need is a good vacation. I just want to run away from everything including reality. I don't know why. I wrestle the incorrigibles, time and time again :/

I'll come on here at night and blog about little things that might matter. And maybe write a letter to God.

Till then, lots of love.

Xx.

The chocolate high and endless ranting.

This font change thing is pretty addictive :)

First things first, my apologies for not blogging for SO LONG!! I've been busy with too many things, my mind is in a constant state of jumbles :/


Sigh* So many things clogging the drainage of my "brian" ;)

Guess we can't all be too manly, you know, too brave and strong. There are parts of us yet that are still scared to detach from whatever it is that we cling on so dearly to. Like perhaps, life itself. It is also as if there were a Jekyll and a Hyde in us, wrestling to hold on, hang on, get free or die in triumph and vanity. Sometimes, bravery is to be saluted while the actions, condemned. We are little silly not to evaluate the impact of what we do.

 Sometimes, the angels weep indeed, their tears of ethereal  sorrow, they shed their wings in grief, they gnash their teeth in pain, the pain their hearts can't contain. 

Sometimes, life doesn't give enough. Doesn't give as much as it takes. Don't you think??

I composed that not too long ago. Life; it's just terrible at times, what you can see. Articles on corrective rape have been resurfacing on the news. I don't know what's up with these cruel nymphomaniacs. How does raping a girl cure her of her "apparent lesbianism"?? Or how does raping a young virgin cure one of AIDS or HIV?? Some mentalities are meant to be changed. Especially in Malaysian guys.

This guy, I'm going to embarrass him by saying his name here-->> Afiq Anuar. NO respect for women whatsoever. Even his own girlfriend, he disses. He said he wanted to touch my ass and boobs. I told him off, also told him to have at least a little respect for women. I mean, WHAT A PERV!! Then he said he was bored of "touching his own girlfriend". SO WHAT?? Does that mean he can go around having floozies with other girls that for goodness sake, do not even want him?? Such an ass. He said girls boobs and butts are meant for touching. WHY?? Because it's visible, even if we don't show them off. I tell you, Malaysian guys and their AWFUL mentalities. (I don't even know him by the way. He just randomly messaged me.)
NO WONDER we actually have stagnation here. I so agree with Doctor M. My country's ex Prime Minister :) He's the biggest rebel, for those who don't know him :) He amazes me, he has a wicked mind, nearly that of Hawking's. I love Hawking as you all know. My header has his signature :P How very special!! Okie. Back to the issues.

Joseph A. Rehyansky, a retired Vietnam vet and current part time magistrate, argues that lesbians should be allowed in the United States military so the straight male soldiers could convert them into being straight women. He also says that gay men should be banned in the military. Since when does sexual orientation matter in jobs?? Sigh* The world has become a judgemental place, full of idiots. Estupidez.

Sigh* 

Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow.

Creeps in this petty pace from day to day.

To the last syllable of recorded time.

And all our yesterdays,

Have lighted fools.

The way to dusty death,

Out out, brief candle.

Life is but, a walking shadow.

A poor player that struts and frets his hour upon the stage;

And then is heard no more.

It is a tale told by AN IDIOT.

Full of sound, and fury.

-Shakespeare- (My favorite poet.)

Hope these mumble jumbles sort out, one by one. No repercussions, please. 

5 months soon, holy shizzle :) Record breaking in a way. Phew*

Bye lovelies.

Hugs and kisses* Xx.

Economics, theories and analysis :)

I'm a snot nosed upper :) Just kidding* Sigh* Life is as life should be. Please, life. LOL I hope everything would turn out well. I really need all the support I can get :( Anyhoo,

I'm no huge fan of economics :) I can't get the gist of it in my head. Seriously. I'm more fixated towards the Science stuff. Like colors and their "bondage" on the spectrum. Aaron Howell came up with this amazing concept once again. That colors may not just be all that in the spectrum of light. There may be one or more colors binding the seven main colors together, I mean, they are photons after all. Maybe there is another force holding them together. You know, of a different color and what not. Just a theory :) Theories are meant to be disproved in my books. People who just follow theories blindly without further questioning especially if they're in the Science industry, should be chained, whipped and bound. Haha just a blatant over exaggeration on my part alright.


So yeah, boo ya :) Once again, economics?? Yuck* Haha. I'm dedicating this post to all you economical freaks ;) Hey, we're all freaks in our fields aren't we?? ;) I got this email from a site I religiously stalk. Not exactly stalk but well, something like that :P


By the way, OMG this is embarrassing. I'm so addicted to playing Island god on Facebook. It is quite fun :/ Getting the coins, building stuff and leading a tribe :/ Kind of like an escape to a place surreal. I even named my tribe the Shoshone. After Taboo in Black Eyed Peas. He's of the Shoshone tribe ethnicity. A native American tribe :) Lovely. Anyway, back to the topic, economics.


It's so dry and boring :/ Yet economists have brilliant minds, almost scientist-like, they have to analyze charts, graphs, predict, estimate, they have tonnes on their brains daily. So yeah, about the email I got, it is kinda cool :)


Dear friends, it says.


The global recession has plunged over a hundred million people into poverty and unemployment yadda yadda..


Right now, French President Sarkozy, the new chair of the G20 group of the world's largest economies, is deciding the group's agenda. Over 300 top economists have urged the G20 to launch a coordinated global investment plan that saves millions from grinding hardship. But governments are doing the opposite - going it alone, slashing spending, and blaming each other.


My say: So you see :) What I was saying in my earlier post. The people with the brains should lead governments. Not selfish arrogant morons who think they know it all, hence plunging the recessions to further depths of depression. Sigh* Anyway, it says further: 


President Sarkozy often seizes opportunities for dramatic popular action -- a massive outcry to him this week can persuade him to lead. Former UK PM Gordon Brown has urgently appealed to Avaaz to act - click below to watch his appeal, forward this email, and sign the petition for a Jobs and Justice plan, to be personally delivered to Sarkozy when we reach 500,000 voices. (Yup, it's an ongoing campaign.) We need people with brains, I stress here. Not the typical maniacal leaders we see these days.


The global recession has already put 34 million people out of work and thrown 60 million people into poverty, but governments across the world are doing exactly the wrong thing: proposing deep cuts to public services, implementing protectionist policies and reducing global development assistance – plans that destroy still more livelihoods and threaten our social fabric. 


My say: The story we're all very familiar with, the Great Depression in the 1930s. Governments sought to "reassure markets" and slashed services and balanced budgets.  Of course, this backfired entirely. This is also why a lot of our country's markets don't do so well. Because, the cuts shut more and more of the citizens out of the economical market, thus plunging them deeper into crises. It is when markets fail that governments should make the efforts and analyze analytically and not simply propose stupid cuts and sponsorships and expense deductions and what nots. Phew* Hope I make sense here :) Economy is not my forte :/ Yet I know how to deal with it a little in my "brian" :/ Haha. 


The letter goes further to say:


Economic collapses can threaten everything we care about. When countries turn inwards, they abandon cooperation on issues like climate change, fighting global poverty and nuclear disarmament. They blame each other and groups of their own citizens -- leading to xenophobia, conflict and, as in the 1930s, the rise of awful political movements like fascism. But cooperation can build success upon success: as we recognize that our destinies are interlinked, a joint recovery can pave the way to the world we all believe in. Let's seize this moment to raise a cry for that greater vision -- of an economy that lifts us all towards a brighter future. 


My say: So, in my opinion, although we have lost a lot of ground, we could still rebuild the economy from scratch. All we need is a few good heads and a few smart leaders who would and could pave the way for us into higher heights of success. We still have hope BUT if only we have the resources, good heads like I mentioned earlier and of course, fresh new waves of ideas and not the same old "cut, budget proposals". There would NOT be any flow in the markets if we all cut down on expenses would there?? :) One of the closest people to me even told me this, yup. It is true. During times of economy crises, we should pool our expenses in order to create a certain generative flow in terms of monetary finances and bluh :)


Okie, I think I've done enough talking :)
Hope you enjoy this lengthy and BORING discussion ;)
Meow* Lots of love!!

Double double, toil and trouble.

To dance is to be free :) Josh Wright, the blue dome on top of my red box is..

My little storage bin. Works something like a storage bin, just hang it up on the wall :) Got it from Ikea :P

As usual, there's a tonne of things stalking all the available neurons in my brain. All my precious cells are being bogged down and callused by more things. Externals, we shall call them. So many things on my mind today. Sigh* Where are we heading to?? Where are all these censorship boards heading to?? Why are they doing this?? Are they so scared of us overthrowing them?? Can't they accept growth?? I'm not just talking about things that are taking place and forming in my country. It's all over. I've been talking to a friend from abroad. Governments everywhere are tightening their rules and imposing and also, making stupid rules that have nothing to do with protecting the "peace" of a nation.


In my country, things are looking bleak and grim. I'm from Malaysia by the way, for those of you who don't know ;) Right now, I've come to the point of not caring. If they must throw me into prison for obscuring the "amazing peace" of this country, so be it. Come on. The 1Malaysia slogans and what nots are just bloody propaganda. In my years of staying here, rights of the people are NOT protected. I'm not only talking about education and all. It's also the quota systems, the bias segregation, the near occultic ruling, the draconian authorities and all. I'm totally bursting at the seams. We need to rise up and be heard. I may get into trouble for this. But seriously, haven't you ever wondered why so many of us Malaysians rather leave the country than fight for our rights?? Okay, it's fair enough if you grant the Bumiputras their special rights and all. But, how do you explain this?? My friend, she's a Bumi and her scholarship application got rejected. Why?? Because the "rulings" said NO to her. She's a Christian. In Malaysia, Portugese people are also known as Bumis. They also have special rights just like the other Malay Bumis. The most horrible part of it all is that she scored way better than the successful applicants of the JPA scholarship. What kind of blatant injustice is this??


Do we all not have equal rights?? They make it seem like a big updo. So many things, believe me, SO MANY THINGS are swept under the carpet. It's always, "Lishia, keep your mouth shut or you'll get into trouble." FOR WHAT?? TELLING THE TRUTH?? I cannot stand it anymore. Education systems, policies, politics, everything!! In everything there is a blatant segregation based on race and religion. I could rant MORE if I wanted to. Yet, I do not resort to the usage of bad mouthing or slandering. All I'm saying here is based on fact and if anyone thinks of it as questionable, you may ask me questions personally. I am SICK and TIRED of being pushed down and seeing people be victims of RACISM in this land.


In UTAR, it was the Indian people who were pushed down because they are a minority. Injustice, I would say. Where the Chinese politicians work hand in hand with whoever's in charge to eradicate the "trash" of the university. Everyone is equal. Special rights??=bullshit. I would say. Special rights-tolerable. Not giving equal treatment to everyone; tax evasion, etc, utter bullshit.


I CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT OF HERE!! Now, detain me if you must ;)


Lots of love, Shia.


P.s# Sorry, beloved peeps. Just had to get that off my chest ;)