People may want to crush me. They may say things that I wouldn't like to find out.

I HAVE to stay strong in this dog-eat-dog world. Even people the closest to us may let us down. How people could have evolved into mean things beats me.



We have to rise up and step it up. Speak for what is right no matter what it may cost. Only we owe it to ourselves for a better living.

Thank you, Lynn and all the people who have stood by me. You're really TREASURED.

Love,
Shia...

Not for the faint hearted. SERIOUSLY!!

The soviet Union flag.

Yes!! Lil has already taken out the cockroach she killed. She left it in my bathroom :) Sheesh she!! And she claims to have arachnophobia.I think it's more of arachnohatred. She said if she comes across daddy-long-legs spiders, she'd chop off their legs and then rename them daddy-short-legs. HAHA!! And we were coming up with new quotes. The talk to my elbow, you're not worth the arm extension quote was getting a little old.Although it always seems to shut Joshy aka Joshua up ;) So I came up with this........
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Talk to my toes. You're not worth any body part extension and it's easier for you because you're way down there. ( A little long but WAY more insulting. P.S, use it only when REALLY necessary ;)

Topic change.

Soviet Union was made up of 15 socialist republics. Major WOW. The Tsar must have been a very famous man.

Anyway...

Human trafficking especially into the sex trade is so 'happening' these days. Stories like that are often tear jerking and wow, they are pretty much censored. Have just finished a book. An awesome read, also a true story about a woman who survived, escaped and fought for her rights in the sex trade. She was duped into becoming a prostitute. By a friend. She's Ukrainian and her name is Oxana Kalemi. Her book's a worth buy. Real steal. I really admire her perseverance. Were I in her shoes, I'd have long committed suicide. Next to her story, what we worry about may seem trivial.

Book title by Oxana Kalemi- Mummy, come home.



A picture of the demolition of a cathedral during the Soviet Union empire. Open religion was suppressed and women were treated second class or worse than animals. Even today, women are treated worse than dogs in some places. I think even pets get better treatment. SIGH* Pretty upsetting...


A picture of Boris Yeltsin, the president of Russia, standing on a tank protesting. The Soviet Union very much like the Hitler generation bred a generation of people who only mostly knew violence. The kids were actually taught to hate black and colored people, religion, and anything foreign. Back then, Lenin was their God. Girls had to obey their husbands and were often raped by their husbands' friends for wanting to work. All they wanted was food for their starving children. And.... The rest is history :(

P.S-The next scene is only for the above thirteens. Not for the week-hearted. Sorry for the vulgarity but that's exactly what the convo was like.

"Tell me you want a fuck. Tell me you're a bitch, a f*cking whore", he said.

She kept silent. Wasn't it enough that he was raping her??

"Say it!! Or i won't finish. Say you're a f*cking slag!! A whore!!", he yelled.
"No", she whispered, crying.
A sharp pain hit her in the gut. He was slapping against her butt cheeks.
"Just say it!!"
"I'm a whore", she cried, giving in.

"AGAIN!!"he screamed.

"I'm a bitch",she cried again, void of expression.

.... He finally, FINALLY stopped.

That, was one, I repeat, ONE of the gory scenes from Mummy, come home. The WORST part of all is that it really happened. It wasn't a playtime acting role playing thing. Seriously gory stuff took place. And that wasn't the worst scene yet. It was like readin through an epic from Sodom and Gomorrah or a woman's guide to hell if there's such a thing.

Thank goodness there's help for women now. If anyone reading this knows of anybody in that kind of situation, please please alert the authorities. Hiding stuff makes it worst and the sin will be yours then.

Ten, I know your father hits your mum. And I know he does stuff to you too. Shaz as well. But unless you both don't want me to say anything, I won't. You both have my word on the confidentiality part but I'm VERY tempted to alert someone about what's happening in your families. You can't go on being touched by someone if you don't want it. Especially if it's your father. It's eating into me and reading stories like Oxana's is really.... You know.

Anyway, for those who need help, there's the Befrienders in Malaysia. And others... There's also the POPPY Project based in London for people who have been trafficked.

020 7735 2062. That's the number. Don't hesitate. PLease...You're more worth it.
Have you heard Sigur ros' songs yet? They're awesome!! Just to lighten things after those terrible issues.


Gosh, reading and hearing about stuff like that is just deppressing innit.

Haha!! Me looking silly in a pair of owl sunnies :)Again, to lighten things up.



Then again, i can't resist but I've to add. HOW CAN A FATHER ACTUALLY THINK OF HURTING HIS OWN DAUGHTER?? Incest is the worst most heinous crime. Eg., Joseph Fritzl. SHEESH!!

Oh and by the way, I keep mentioning the Soviet Union because Ukraine used to be part of it. And they brought up a generation of prejudice.



These are innocent victims traded and sold for money in the sex trade.

Another one.

May God have mercy on their torturers.

Sorry for the gory stuff. Am feeling angsty!!

Signing off, Shia.

Thanks for the memories 2.

SIGH* Pure bliss reveling in the past... Am on my bed now in Klang... Looking at all my photos. Sigh*

So much to do, so little time!! Sheesh!! I don't know what's wrong with me. Am suddenly craving physical touch. I miss Caline, WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! She used to pat me to sleep in Kampar. And i miss Sharwin :) HAHA!!

Let's look at old bliss shall we now? :)



Meet Babe. Her real name's Deivanai!! One of my awesome gals from back in high school. I was in pain at that time. Remember clearly. It was January 7th, just early this year. We were out celebrating Babe and Bran's birthday. We went to Jusco and i got my belly pierced. Halfway through, the silly belly stud broke. Pain was excruciating, no JOKE!! Good thing Bran and Babe were there to hold my hand :)
The needle was as big as a screwdriver. Phew* Lotta blood too from me. Tee hee.

When i showed Lynn, Ally and Ashlea during our driving lesson, they kinda freaked out :) LOL!!



Now, meet Bran. She's really cute :) Sigh, i miss them.



Now meet the infamous Ally and Ashlea. Ally's on the far left, Ash's in the middle and moi, on the right. We're A+A+S... Part of the DALAS. Diane didn't come that day. Which made us the ALAS, also sounds surprisingly like anus :p

D-Diane + A-Ashlea + L-Lynn + A-Ally + S-shia = DALAS.

We were all decked in cultural costumes. Was awesome fun!! Oops, It's 1.44 am. Have to wake up at 6. It's sunday!! Am on keyboards tomorrow. Have a good sleep :)



XOxoXO, Shia...

Thanks for the memories 1.

Wow!! After SO long, I'm actually having a proper convo with Shar... Anyway, the good old times. Feel like jumping back into the past. Just for a fresh taste of hmm.... Memories?


Lynn and I being cam geeks :)

Racists are NOT tolerated!!

Gosh golly goshhh!!! I'm downright pissed although it happened in the morning yesterday!! This dumb anoyying guy!! Prepare for pubwic humiliation!! Muahahahaha I'm feeling positively evil....

At least I have the decency to put you under a pseudonym. I would love for the world to know who you are so you'd suffer, you RACIST!! The pseudonym is F. Yeah, just a plain old simple F.

First of, let me explain myself. This white guy F, American, he works in Malaysia. He was kinda harrassing me last year. He's what, 26? I tolerated him. Then he just blew his top yesterday when i said i date indian guys, and have lots of multi cultural friends. He said too bad I like black indians. And he even said-You're quite the slut aren't you? I mean, PUH LEEZE!! And he said he calls me that because colored people f**k a lot!! I mean, GOSH!! How much ruder can he get????

Haha, when DV texted me, i told him all this. He must have gotten a bit scared. Was boiling mad!! Erick Camara's another witness of my temper ;) I know you're reading my blog, Erick!! READ!! Stop looking at the pix ;)

People like F shouldn't be let loose lest they go around committing genocide :) Another Hitler case. SIGH*

Aww man, I miss Marjun!! Marnie! I love ya!! lol. I'm gonna put your picture up and promote your country. I mean barely half the population on planet earth know where Faroe islands is and I think it was just put on the map last year. If I'm right.



Okie. Hope the picture comes out clear :) Kinda small. And that, is Marjun Gaardlykke. Yup, tongue twister of an awesome name!! And yeah. Let me add pictures of Pretty Sapphire. Miss her too :(



And this here is Sapphire Cho. She's only 5 and her dad's Korean. Her mum, is South African. HOW COOL IS THAT? Such a beautiful mix :) Of course, people like F wouldn't appreciate it. Gosh I'm really on a shooting F spree!! :)

Okie, I almost added a picture of Danni and Vishie here. But I'm not sure if they'll be okie with it. SIGH* The world is turning bad...

And Lynn!! When can I see you?? :)



Now this picture is of me and my high school mates having the time of our lives dressing up in other races' traditional costumes... Fabuloso!! SIGH*

Jo looks radiant and Lynn looks plain adorable. Gosh Shen is hot and simma too :) Ooh I wanna look for more pictures. Hold on a second...

Okie wowie!! I didn't see. It's 4 am...Have to get 40 winks.
One last shot.

Lynn and I in pj's :)


A just for fun I miss you shot ;) Nitey...

xoxox, sloppy wet kisses.

Knock knock, wake up time.

Ugh!!! Me in short hair :) Sheesh blogging can be a little addictive. I was supposed to brush my teeth and head for bed. Ouch, last night, Lil-my sis elbowed me on my forehead when we were sleeping. Yeah, i miss her so when i come back from uni, I sleep with her. On the same bed i mean :)

Not what you must have been thinking.

Gosh diversions. I meant to moan about my particular loss of hair. Sigh* I miss having long hair. My friend from uni-Rajiv said I look funny. Lynn says I look younger. And yeah. Have been getting comments that I look 14 although I'm 3 years older than that? :)

And WOW!! I got some seriously awesome reads.... Books for Lil, by Dorothy Koomson. Author of Marshmallows for breakfast and so on and so forth...Yummy!! SIGH* Lucky kid!! My mum would yell at me if i had marshmallows for breakfast. :)

Anyway. Getting to the point of this post. Guys can be such inglorious bastards at times. (Certain ones. Not all. NOT all) Forgive me for my language and I assure you, it's not often i use foul words. Perhaps you might label me a feminist. Good for you then. I happened to stumble upon this book when I was getting my books from MPH in Jusco, Ipoh. I called Miss V ( My abso postively FAVE teacher in high school)... Asked her if Salman Rushdie's Midnight's Children was a worth buy. Sheesh, I miss those times when Lynn and i snuck out just to see her ;p Anyway. Back once again to the often missed point. I stumbled upon a book. By Fauziya Kassindja. Title-Do they hear you when you cry. It's all about escapism from gruesome tribal female body mutilation and circumcision.

Do you know how painful it is for a girl to get a part of her vagina sewn up just so she can please men?? Often times the girls are young and unwilling. Many are coerced by men because they are deemed young, foolish and weak. I know this may be sensitive but i just wanted to bring it up. People should be more aware of what's going on in the world today outside their lovey bubbles of protected lives.

It just hurts me, saddens me that women today still don't have rights. In certain places. No freedom of choice and speech. Pretty Freudian? Not really... SIGH*

Animals too... They don't have voices, so they can't speak up. Dog fights, animal abuse, almost extinct species still being hunted down, all pretty rampant in today's modern society... In a few ways, we have achieved civilisation. In other ways, still hard to comprehend that barbarianism is still in existence. Saddens the <3>

If Woffle hadn't been rescued, she would have been put to death.

She's on the left :) Do PAWS a favor... Adopt a dog!! It'll do much good. SERIOUSLY!! :)

Haha, me in a Negaraku pose... Just to lighten

things up :)

Bowing out, Shia (Future biologist and activist at work ) Kisses and bear hugs* :) NITE!

My lollipopishly movin about train of brain food.

Why are you still on my mind?? Although yeah. I know, it's just remnants. But, it still hurts you know... It was my fault perhaps, but it takes two hands to clap and yours weren't guilt free, i remember. Sometimes, when stuff is burnt on like the holy grail, the wounds reopen like freshly souldered scars!! Innit??!?

Sigh* Lynn is just the sweetest!! She told me I can run to her anytime and emo on her sleeve. :) Such a sweetie!! Why is it sooooo hard to let go of the people you love anyway? Gosh!!
Sometimes I just feel like burning out that whole emotion gland, the pineal gland in my brain!! I mean it's been over a year or more!! But he's sodding still in my neurons at times!! SIGH*

Lynn also says she's like someone just outta the jungle when it comes to computer formalities but haha!! I think I'm positively worse than that. I just learnt how to copy and paste last year!! I know, i know, pathetic. But i must admit.Am pretty much of a jungle utan ;)

Anyway, enough of the sad stuff!! Let's look at some animals and get happy :)





Sheeeesh!! I actually typed out a whole thing earlier and forgot to save it!!



Oops... This still is saddening. I'm a pescatarian which means i eat fish and seafood. Not land animals. So.... This is food to me. Sad sad....



Ooh, the dick looking things are molluscs called geoducks. Never tasted them before. Assumed that giant dicks might gag me, LOL. Pretty freaky innit. Wait. Pictures of animals that are't food then!! :)

Okie... Meet my dog, Jem!! Spitz. And her story's funny. She adopted us and not the other way round... Oops... It's 4:53 am now. Supposed to be sleeping. It's mummy monster's ( an affectionate way of calling my mum) Birthday. Have to wake up early and celebrate !! sleep loose (Quoting Ady) and snore out loud... Will try update soon.

xoxoxoxox, Shia <3

Randomness of me...

Tonight or rather this morning, as other ordinary mornings, :)

I don't know what made me start a blog... I was pretty anti-blogging.(Ask My bestie, Lynn)

She's an avid blogger... Anyway, just doing this for the fun of it. And we'll see how my blog goes...

Ugh... I miss my long hair :( (Emo) Just chopped off my killer locks. Will update another day... Kinda getting lazy :) After all, it's 3 am... Goodnitey!!