TOOT*

Malaysia, WHAT THE TOOT!! Abolish racism, my foot!!

Star newspapers, you should have mentioned this as well when you sang so highly of Mr Koon Yew Yin that "gives and sponsors" deserving students. I want to challenge you personally, Mr Koon. That if, if ever you come across my blog and see what I said about you, I would like you to contact me and explain what it means when you say you can help deserving students but you have to think twice if they are Indians.


WHAT THE TOOT?? One Malaysia. I know HINDRAF is wrong. But maybe, they were just trying to stand out and stand up for their race??

Perhaps protests were the ONLY way people would notice them. HOW CAN WE BE A ONE MALAYSIA IF SUCH THINGS LIKE MINORITIES STILL EXIST?? Is it relevant at all??

Forgive my cynical rants. FUNNY!! By the time we achieve that, together with the "Wawasan 2020", countries like America and Russia and maybe even India would already be mass producing electricity-generated cars. Or flying cars, for that matter. I really don't care if people think I'm being too "cynical" but believe me when I say, "Honey, I've seen enough."

I don't simply get angry for no reason. And yes, I am way above using vulgarities. It's just not me. Let's go cynical then ;) *Wink* You with me??

Why my blood is boiling is because, well, I read about Mr Koon in the STAR newspapers last week. I'm chinese too, by the way. And I HATE, I CAPITAL LOATHE RACISM IN ANY DEGREE AND PREJUDISM as well. SIGH* My righteous anger is dissipating. Just after a phone call from Aiden. Well, Mr Koon says he helps deserving students. My friend, she's brilliant, by the way; she went to see him to get some monetary help and in return, got insulted. And he said he had to think about helping her. WHY?? Because and just because she's Indian. I mean, how "right" is that??

Saiful, I just want you to know, IF you ever read my blog that I admire your drive for wanting to right things. Justice SHOULD prevail and the underdogs SHOULD yelp when in trouble. Do NOT let other people especially those in power step on our heads.You should not have let fear encompass you and let Mr Anwar step on you. But yeah that's the past, STEP UP!! :) *Ooh, sassy*

SIGH* So much for wishful thinking and the 1Malaysia concept.

UTAR, you can keep your horrifying lecturers to yourself, thank you very much. Mr Ng, remember. Since you're a christian and you go around judging others, calling them black sheep and being a fanatic and shoving Christianity down their throats, you should take note. God only judges a man when he's dead. So what gives you the rights to judge people when their here on earth?? If you read this, ponder about it. Think. And yes, I can loan you my beautiful English Oxford dictionary, I'm sure you have use for it after reading this post that might seem abhorrent to you. I'm sorry I'm so cynical but I'm glad I left your system before it sucked me in. Mr Ng, by the way, what you said to MANY of us isn't nice at all. Suria and I are NOT the type you think we are. In fact, whatever you say half the time is your assumptions.
And Mr Nawin too. Ppfftt, pathetic!! Yeah I use sarcasm instead of vulgarity.

So yeah. 1Malaysia. When is it happening again?? Ooh it's already here?? OH MY!! *Fanning myself, flipping back my imaginary blond hair* SHEESH, change ALL the systems for goodness' sake. Start with the education system!! WE'RE NOT ALL wham bham bionic robots. And you wonder why we all migrate to other countries for further studies?? One word. Evaluate. That's all *Innocent smile*


P.s# WELCOME HOME LYNN!! Sorry I have to welcome you home in this post. LOL

P.P.S# I wuff you, G!! You found me :P

Extra note: Don't persecute, prosecute or execute smartness and intelligence, Malaysia. Doctor Mahathir, YOU ROCK!! I'm your fan!!

Holly, Humanimals and just everything H.

I LOVE this quote. God handmade you. That's why you're beautiful :3

WOW, it's been a little while since I've updated my blog. I feel like entering the era of Holly Golightly. I want to feel their romance :) They were such romantic semantics, even the men showed their love by showering gifts like corsages and roses to beautiful ladies; they dedicated poems of love, WOW, it was all so beautiful. Truman Capote, YOU indeed managed to capture the essence of the romanticism of that era. SIGH* *Wishful thinking*




There. Holly Golightly's pictures :) Her real name in the book was Holliday Golightly.

Yes, Aiden's been telling me about cars :) WOW, Aiden you're a mastermind, a genius you know?? I would definitely LOVE to dissect your brain to get into the brain matter. I'm in love with 1991 model of the Mc Claren F1 car :)

Haha, G thinks I'm gory because I talked about dissecting him that day.

Haha, dissecting is fun. Dead stuff I mean. Hmm, so yeah. It's going to be finalized tomorrow. I'm going to do a diploma in mass communication and after that, I'll start my degree in Biology. It might take a while but dreams never die, do they??
As long as hope and faith remain in our arsenals, doubt is battled.




There, liver dissection for research on enzyme reaction :) Haha, I'm feeling SO random today. I LOVE SNAKES AND TURTLES :) Any sort of reptile. LMFAO's song-Shots is way awesome, if not for the oh-so-dirty lyrics :)
Mum thinks I'm a little evil too. JUST BECAUSE when my first dog, Mick died, I wanted to dissect him and maybe preserve his coat and heart. Mum thought that was gory too. But imagine, he would still be with us physically :) I miss him a lot :( AND I'm missing my Peanut too. She's more of Suria's cat now than mine. She LOVES tuna :) Such a sweetie pie.

GOSH, I'm SO impatient. Can't wait to start studying again although it's not the course of my choice. Patience is NOT my strongest virtue. Haha, just now, I was talking to mum. I told her, "You know mum, dad is VERY patient." DO YOU KNOW WHAT MY MUM SAID??

"Of course, he has a daughter like you."

Ouch, wounded!! *Sits in corner licking wounds* But then again, she meant it half jokingly. I HOPE!! LOL.

Anyway, I feel like this should be out in my blog. Humanimals. Sometimes you know, humans judge, they cannibalise, they sodomize, they do the SICKEST things possible, stooping lower than animals. And we're supposed to be on the top of the "intelligence chart". So yeah, "humanimal" is not a word of degradation towards less "human" human beings. Humanimals aren't exactly centaurs and mythical half-human, half-animal beings. These humanimals are very secretive about their lifestyles and ONLY the boldest come into the open. Secret societies are formed over the Net and they do sometimes gather for events. Reporters, journalists, media and non-humanimals are NEVER allowed, neither is surveillance.

Humanimals are people, a group of people that think they are animals born in human bodies and more often than ever, they do have connections with animals. For example, there is a Coyote man. He's actually an engineer but he believes that he is actually a coyote inside. Psychologists have done a fair amount of research on these people and have concluded that humanimals find it hard to get along or communicate with other humans therefore, establish a barrier or a fort that upholds their sanity. They find it through animals or human to animal transformation. I thought this was a pretty fascinating topic to be breaching. Sometimes, humanimals also believe in spirit guides like shamans or wolf people. Or, they could be natives and believe in folklore like animal totems and all. It sort of is like "Feng shui" for the chinese where they believe everyone has a birth year of a certain animal.

Coming back to humanimals. Some humanimals go to certain extremes like Dennis Avner aka Stalking cat. He went to the extreme of going through body modification SO thorough that he does not at all resemble a human anymore. He prefers his native American name, Stalking cat and he underwent extreme modifications and surgeries to look like a cat. Just like my native American name is Moon Willow :) Wait, let me look for a picture of him.






Yes!! Got a few.

This is the Cat man aka the Stalking Cat. I actually respect and admire him. He is one person that doesn't care about what the world thinks of him. And yes again, it's a free world where freedom of choice is VERY MUCH inhibited. It's really cool and he's one of the MOST famous humanimals. He lives on an all-meat diet. That's cool too, he's carnivorous instead of omnivorous like other humans. This now, is my latest topic of interest. He's AMAZING!! I love science, animals and psychology as well as people analysis, culture and humanimals tick all those boxes :)

There's a lot more to say about these humanimals but yeah, I would probably be boring you to death. Perhaps piercings and tattooes will be blogged about next.


Love,
The humanimal wannabe :3 Meow!!

P.s# If I were an animal, I'd be a panther or leopard. They're SO sexy and sleek. What would you be?? ;)

Haha.

Just a haha post.


*SMILE*

Thought; Gandalf.

Vie, you know I miss you :(


Journalism huh?? Okie. Two degrees it is for me then, because Nematode worms and lifespan prolonging genetics are still in my "passionate blood". I will NEVER give up my dream of achieving something in the land of Biology. I'm knowledge hungry, wisdom thirsty, I crave smartness, intelligence. It is more appealing than physical beauty, it SERIOUSLY is, intelligence.

Your voice makes me shiver with delight. You make me tingle with EVERY sensation possible.

I love the way I feel secure with you. I love the way your hands engulf mine, the way you grab me and hug me like as if tomorrow'll never come, the way my whole arm cannot reach around your waist because you're WAY bigger than I am. MOST of all, I love the way you're so different. :P You took me. I fell.

You get me, when no one else does. You catch me when no one can.





SIGH* I miss the moon :( I love it when the moon comes out brilliantly bright. I miss you and you and you, you and you and you :( You know who you are.


World war 3 is bound to happen soon. Let's ALL hope the world ends before then. I'm engrossed in a book entitled "The Chameleon's Shadow", by Minette Walters. AWESOME book, talks about how a soldier who came back disfigured and bitter lived his post-war life. (Oh Lil, you know I love you. Join the navy, realize your dream but PLEASE never go to war. Your ole big sis cannot stand the thought of losing you.) Sometimes, perhaps wars cause WAY MORE than just external and physical damage. Psychological damage is realistic too. How angry they become, how frightened of every little sound they are. My heart cries for child soldiers. Oh how fast they grow up. Childhood is NEVER lived that way. They should play with toys, but they hold guns and play with bombs instead.

Momma put their guns in the ground, they can't shoot them anymore, that long black cloud is coming down, they felt like they were knocking on heaven's door. SIGH* Please God, spare the innocents. Innocence cannot be put on sale. :( These kids deserve a better future. Perhaps talk could be put into actions. One day, one day, we'll be able to make a difference in their lives. They are so worth it. They are indeed.

Love,
the hopeful.

ALL I want.

ALL I want is your unconditional love, NOT love only when I achieve.

ALL I want is for you to be proud of me no matter what. Not what I can be; who I can become.

ALL I want is to be good enough. YOU KNOW WHAT?? You made me who I am. I am yours to blame. You carved me and moulded me. If you're dissastfied, ask my Higher Maker. You could get a refund if you pray hard enough.


Sorry I'm not good enough. At the rate you want me to go, I'll NEVER be good enough for you.

HURT.

God: I love you, I really do. But you really should have put good enoughs into enough homes. Instead of not good enoughs into enough homes. Could you do a refund?? Just minus not good enoughs from the scenes.

Thanks.

I want a HOT bod :(

Yum. Candy!! I went to Cold Storage, bought Licorice Allsorts, Hershey's gum (can you believe it?? Chocolate flavored gum) and Jelly belly beans. Yum!! CANDY!! LOL.


And I had NO idea that Wendy's ice cream was so nice. Their slushies are AMAZING!! Fantastico, bella. sigh* Really in a jumble about my university. Or rather, my new one.

I had Swensen's ice cream for dinner :) I had a topless five ice cream (5 scoops) for dinner. YUMMY!! I used to love the earthquake ice creams there. Haha, it was fun to watch the dried ice evaporate..



This is how a chocolate earthquake in Swensen's looks like :) I could indulge in that ALL by myself.

SIGH* Of ALL the things (things mind you, not people) in Kampar that I miss the most is the moon. Yes, the Chander mama. That's moon in Punjabi. Chander mama; Yazid taught me, they call it Uncle moon in Punjabi, isn't that cute??

Hmm. I miss the brilliante stars at night. I used to watch the stars with Mishka. Believe it, the chander mama was SO big and bright I could catch it on my Sony camera.




I want abs like that!! Gosh she's SO hot and drool worthy. :( How can I have an abs like that if I'm such a sweet tooth?? Ooh ice cream, candies, chocs, STOP TEMPTING ME, I'M ASKING POLITELY!!



I'm ONLY here :( And that was a month ago?? SIGH*

Lurvee, sweet tooth :)

SHOUTOUT by the opressed and voiceless.

Now I'm mad!! What a HORRID start to a beautiful sunny morning!! Mishka told me that Vishie told her that they wiped out the whole dog population in Kampar. How much more BARBARIC can they get?? To wipe out innocence like that??

We are NOT an uncivilized, uneducated bunch!! Even though we may be deemed a third world country, we ARE educated and civilized and the killing of innocent creatures just CANNOT be condoned. *ANGRY TONE*

Oh Kausy, Krishna, Mishka, October, Lynn, calling out to ALL the animal lovers. This CANNOT BE RECTIFIED!! The rubbish strewn ALL over in Westlake is due to disgusting human litterbugs that don't know what rubbish bins are. And the poor dogs get blamed. How much more can they take?? Humans abandon their pets and then the animals end up getting shot or killed in nasty accidents. Once domesticated, when left wild, a creature CANNOT fend for itself. Try roaming in the jungle without clothes, food or water.

Gosh!! I'm just boiling mad!! How many more innocents do they want to kill?? How could they?? It's not allowed. Animals have rights too. But oh yeah. Guess what. This "amazing" country (emphasis on the inverted commas) does not really care about animal rights. Come on!! They are intelligent creatures too. Did you know for instance, that jellyfish have primitive brains?? Those amoeba-like critters have monkey brains. And pigs are smarter than dogs. It's proven. I'm really angry now, with certain Malaysians in particular, I won't write further. Please please help create awareness!! SAVE THE ANIMALS!! SAVE INNOCENCE BEFORE ALL HOPE IS LOST.













Jem, Beauty, Cutie, Woffle, Dribble,and Micky want to help to raise awareness too. They said they're happier after being adopted :) Micky and Woffle came from the pound. We bought them from there and adopted them. Jem adopted us :) She just walked into our house and never left. Haha. They want to beseech mankind to further adopt dogs from the roads or pounds. They're precious In God's eyes :)


Signing off, yours truly,
The animal lover.

Quotes from smart people :)

Mishka- We have to get God to like us. Not love us. Because and just because He already does.


Diana Osseiran- We only actually value something once it's gone. (Especially people in our lives)

Wilde- We can resist anything except temptation.

Voltaire-If God did not exist, it would be necessary to invent Him.

Yazid- Always believe in yourself.

Lynn-Love yourself before loving others.

Unknown-Faith. The ONLY weapon in our arsenal to battle doubt.

Anyway, Truman Capote, although you would never ever see this, I just want to say that you're amazingly tres brilliante!! To be able to think of the fictional character Holly Golightly that entered the American idiom and create a masterpiece-Breakfast at Tiffany's based on her, you have to be sheer genius!! And a tribute to Jodi Piccoult too. Jodi, you are an awesome inspiration as a writer and I would love to be able to write like you someday. Samuel Langhorne aka Mark twain, I love your books too :P


Me a few years back. Ciao.. <3

ObSeSsIoNs.

Drool*



Yummy, I just had a Mc flurry :)









I LOVE candy. I LOVE ice cream even more. Gosh the bright colors, the oh-so-yumminess of the soft bubbly texture melting and then sliding down one's throat :)



I'm always happy when faced with a full cup of ice cream. Yeah I prefer cups to cones :) And yeah i feel oh so sad when I come down to the last drop of ice cream :( At the rate I'm going, I'm going to get a blue or funny colored stomach lining due to the coloring in candy and ice cream that i scarf down :P Even Stevie says I smell like candy. SERIOUSLY!! I perspire candy flavored perspiration :) Mishka would tell you :P That's priya's new name. Call her Mishka :)




This is actually fun :) Candy and ice cream littered blog :P

Anyway, about the Elektra complex. And perhaps the Oedipus too.

The definition of the Elektra complex is the psychoanalytic theory that a female's psycho sexual development involves a sexual attachment to her father, and is analogous to a boy's attachment to his mother that forms the basis of the Oedipus complex.

It's another one of my obsessions. The Elektra Complex, the female form of the Oedipus Complex. I think my mum rubbed off some of her love for abnormal psychology on me. I've been reading her books on Freudian theories since I was little. They're really so intriguing. My mum's a psychologist; child psychologist to be exact and yeah I guess this helps open up my eyes and it makes me be more intuitive and sensitive towards people. One of mum's students, YC. He came across as a normal little boy when he first came for consultations.

Well, he got kicked out of the school he was attending. His mother told my mum that he was kicked out because he was accused of sexually harassing a girl. AT THE MERE AGE OF 10?? Shock of all shocks. Mum did some analysis and yeah he did appear pretty normal at first except that YC used to smile in a very weird way to himself. He used to stare at my mum up and down too. He looked a little freaky too, he wore glasses; thick rimmed ones and high waisted pants. His glasses fell down to the tip of his nose, making him look a little like a paedophile?? He looked like he was on a kiddie hunt ALL the time. Anyway, he became weirder and weirder as he came. Mum actually caught him sniffing her seat after she walked out of the room a few times. She happened to peep inside and yeah, caught him in the act of sniffing her seat and caressing it, while it was still warm. YC also "LOVED" being punished. Mum made him hold out his hand to cane him when he was stubborn (he was terribly stubborn) and he used to laugh after each stroke of the cane. How much freakier can a ten year old get??


Yeah, the last straw was during a camp, a kids' camp. Mum wanted him to mix around. She wanted to watch his behaviour around other kids. Fortunate old me!! He was put in my team. I volunteered and I was a team leader. On the first day, I still remember this. Samuel, an 8 year old came up to me with a complaint that YC kissed him on his head and hugged him. I separated him from the team and reported him to my mum. Mum said it was okie. So yeah I let him be. Gosh he was annoying!! He used to follow me like a shadow and stuff. Mum actually NEVER let me in the room when he was around. I wasn't even allowed near the room. He used to sniff the air for me?? Mum said he had some kind of crush on me. He used to tell mum that I'm beautiful and that he wished he could get someone as pretty as me?? O GOSH!! He was ONLY TEN!!

So yeah, he really drove me nuts in camp. Calling out stuff like " hey pretty girl", and all. he even asked me to wear lipstick and a red gown for him. He thought I would look nice. SHEESH!! On the third day of camp, there was a creative skills game. We were asked to make a football out of newspaper, tape and some other funny items given. So, I sat on the floor while the kids surrounded me. I started tearing and crushing newspapers. i felt something just above the peep in my jeans. I was wearing a low waisted jeans that day. I turned and saw no one. I just dismissed it. Second time I felt it, I turned around again. Again, there was no one there. Suddenly, I felt a hand down my pants. I turned and yeah. I saw him. Yc. On the floor directly behind me. I didn't see him because he was flat on the floor. He got kicked out of camp. Uncontrollable sexual urges from a ten year old, creepy.

Thus, I came to the conclusion that paedophiles are born and not made. Perhaps a certain amount of them were exposed to stuff that gave them their obsession for kids but others are just born with that instinct. Same as rapists. They feel the need to be in control. They feel triumphant with the power they have over victims.

Anyway, the Elektra complex. I've seen a few cases actually when the daughter falls in love with the father. Sometimes when people with Oedipus or the Elektra complex actually would resort to getting rid of the other parent in order to get to the one their "in love" with. A girl who suffers from Elektra complex may be disillusioned and she might resort to getting rid of her mum in order to step into her mum's shoes to get to her dad directly. They even want sexual contact with the parent their in love with. This may sound sick but yeah, some people do actually feel that way. Scientists think that everyone initially has that "love" for the opposite sex parent, but as we develop and mature, we're able to identify "wrong love" and differentiate it from parent-child love. It's more of the eros agape love. Eros being sexual, agape being unconditional. It's all really interesting. Seriously. Anyway, I've officially quit my uni.


My current obsessions: Candy :) Ice cream :) Science, languages, people analysis, animals-owls and snakes especially, even numbers, closing doors and windows :P



Water sports and yes. The perfect me :)


Signing off, the peanut butter choc cookie lover :)

Limbo.

And.. The winner was.... CHELSEA!! Woo and yeah, the best team won once again!! Haha.

* Excitement coursing through veins *

Gosh the past few days have been hectic, happy, crazy, pretty upsetting and turmoil-ish.

Hardish, one of my friends had a nasty accident that broke his right leg. Both the bones in his leg were damaged. WORST part is, he was lying in the marshes for more than four hours. Yazid called me right after he dropped me back at my place after breakfast in Maha Maju.


Now. Going home to face war-zone. I'm honestly sick and tired of interfering bugging relatives. Please, don't use God's name in vain, remember that, you *****


Please pray for me. Now I know what limbo in catholic hell is all about. I'm in it.

Bye bye, send me safety messages to the war zone I'm about to face.

Lazy sunday.

Hmm lazy Sunday :)

SO much, abso-friggin-lutely SO MUCH to say here :P But.. I have to do some research first. Based on one of my obsessions since I was little, the Elektra complex.

I'll blog about it in my next post. WOO HOO!! Chelsea-Arsenal match later. Ady- Arsenal!! Me, Chelsea. Haha, may the best man win :) oops, I have a few bets!! Not monetary ones though :) Yazid and I decided that whose team loses; the loser dances on the table. HAHA!! He might break the the table though :P Ady and I, hmm. Secret bet. Haha, sheesh, footie freaks.

Yesterday, was crazy fun!! Went down to Ipoh to watch animals playing football. Really. Will come out in my next post too. Been so lazy and busy to blog :) Saw that Lynn is going on a much needed vacay!! Have a safe journey, my sweetheart from hell!!

My life-Turning out okie, yet not TOO okie. Still, taking it barrier by barrier, going to turn it around. SIGH*

Lilian called. She made me tear up. I miss her to bits. She doesn't know. Gosh I love them, ALL!! All Lil did was to ask if I wanted lip balm from Guardian because Nivea was selling the second one at only 88 cents. IMAGINE!! ONLY 88 cents. Mum also told me she chose some earrings and clothes for me. Gosh I really miss them.

Anyhow, may the best team be left standing.

Go, CHELSEA!! Get the cup this season!!


Ballack in all his glory.

More of Deco and Lampard :)



Love, the chelsea fan-atic!!