Lesbian fetishism.

My sorriest apologies for failing to blog for so long!! I just had no Internet connection and then, was also caught up with exams, assignments and bluh :( Since it's a Saturday and the 2nd of October, even date :) LOL!! Ggrr, mighty mad at my laptop and some people. My laptop is infected because of their pendrives. So bloody annoying!!

I really want to blog, am dying to and then my Internet Explorer keeps hanging :( Sad innit :P Hmm, I was just wondering, is it normal for girls to have erotic lesbian dreams and fetishes?? In a way :) Been having crazy dreams. Phew. Girls and gambit sticks and Inspector like costumes with heeled-boots and stilettoes, all so sexy and surreal. Oh, did I mention beds and huge pillows as well?? :P All so turning on. Dang!! LOL.

Something like this :)

Shucks, I'm so mad at blogspot and everything right now. It's all taking too slow and hanging here and there. Yup, I'm very impatient :)

Okie, folks, will go reboot my laptop and install some new security settings and come back and blog later :P

Ciao, have fun fantasizing ;) LOL.

Snuggles, Lynn and Stephen King.

Meow*

Dang!! I have a Public Speaking assignment due tomorrow. At least part of it :)

Benn going a little insane with the humongous workload. Sigh* Currently in my bestie's place with Maroon 5 on the radio. Bliss :) What more could I really ask for?? LOL. Me, my bestie, and four guys I don't even know ;) Haha!! I'm warm and snuggly on the bed. So lovely. Wondering now?? We're having a brain orgy :P

The four guys?? :) Just my new books. How awesome they are!! Went out with my little sister to get books. I got four new books!! Man, Stephen King just rocks my socks!! His books are such mental stimulants. Better than any physicality, trust me on that :)

Grr!! *Meow* I really can't stand Public Speaking as a subject. LOL. It's just too fussy as a subject in whole. Anyway, I'm at Lynn (my bestie's) because my Internet was being too annoying!!

I was researching on how to have good visual aids for Public Speaking and I CAN'T CONCENTRATE!! Seriously. I keep coming across really odd articles on Wikipedia and Cracked. It's a website :) Insanity.

(Powerful and persistent sexual interest other than in copulatory or precopulatory behavior with phenotypically normal, consenting adult human partners.) This is what Paraphilia is defined as. Phew* :) Seriously, it was one of the more interesting articles I came across.

I'll blog on that topic later. I'll post this up first :) I have to go home and I'm not sure if there's Internet connection now :p

Toodles, peeps!! <3 <3

I miss the stimulation of a snake.

In the pictures are Wind and I. And then, Jack and I. Oh, Blaze too :) She's the snake.

I miss the feel of a snake around my neck. I miss Blaze. Wind, I really miss Blaze :(

The feel of a snake wrapping tightly around you would feel like security and comfort in a way. They aren't as cold and slimy as people seem to think they are.

A snake around my neck feels so sexy. So sensual and so appealing. It's like wow. Wind would always say it's a snake-gasm. The feel of Blaze around me, slowly, sensually, moving up and then down, and all around. No words can describe the pure stimulation.

I have an exam later. I "love" exams. Sigh :( I really want to do well :( Who doesn't.

Anyway, I'll blog more later. Should be revising now :) It's already 6.04 am here.

Toodles, mon cheries.

A tribute to my Gramps.

One of the first men in my life. His baptism, three years ago.

He loved coffee sweets and iced cold water. He loved Indian banana leaf rice more than I did. He loved sweets as much as I did. He was one of the most stubborn yet loving people I ever knew. He was talented, he was secretive. He was a warrior, he never quit. He was amazing all throughout. He taught me the meaning of loyalty and sacrificial love. He was a genius. He spoke perfect English. He was articulate.

Gramps, I just heard of how you didn't go to Ballarat to further your studies although you were offered a scholarship there. All because you wanted to look after dad and Gran and be a good husband and dad. You're amazing.

He's in a better place now. Gramps, I know you're looking down, reading this post with a smile on your face. I just want you to know that I love you. Losing one of the most precious men in my life is a hard fact. But, it is a fact of life. Sorry I couldn't be there to say goodbye. I promise I'll be a better person :) Granny's fine here. She's doing great. She's a strong woman, she missed you though. Seeing her break down at your cremation today was heartbreaking. You had so many fans, Gramps. I miss the times spent with you. The funny things we used to do together and the times where I would be so naughty and play with the snakes in the old house. I miss those times. Dad's hurting quite a bit as well. Although being a man, he doesn't show it. He misses you.

Gramps, thanks for everything, you will always be remembered as one of the strongest people I know of. You're amazing and your presence is missed. I'm sorry for being so hurt when you couldn't remember my name anymore. I'm writing this with tears streaming down my face. But I promise you, when I'm done typing this, I'll smile because you're in a better place. I'm so glad you don't have to suffer the evils of this world anymore.

I'm smiling now. You'll always be in my heart.

I love you, Gramps.
Love, your eldest.

Leaders and shame.

Meowsa :3

Sigh* Opened up my emails and I saw a very disturbing one :/ India has a new proposal made. Seriously, am very disappointed. I thought Balakrishnan (ex chief Justice of India) was one of the smarter ones. The fact that he encouraged the whole sweep of this shocking proposal is very disappointing.

The Times of India (an Indian newspaper) had a very shocking headlines just several days ago. Look below:

A proposal of marriage is touted as the perfect solution for the victim. But questions are flooding in. Isn't it the victimization of the victim ALL over again??

Isn't it the perfect way of getting a woman a man fancies to marry him?? It's like a ticket to wrongdoing. "I like her, I'll rape her and then propose. She has to marry me anyway after that. She'd be worthless after I rape her." I bet this is what goes through most rapists minds after this proposal is made official and released. Sickening. How shallow, stupid and dumb can the world and leaders get?? It's like their already deteriorated brain cells are further deteriorating into pancake neurons. :(

These women are hugely stigmatized by their communities and largely seen as unmarriageable to future partners.

Shocking statement eh?? Some women in India are pawned off and treated like second class citizens.

As psychologist Seema Hingoranny points out, "you cannot completely ignore the psychological status of the man [rapist]. Someone who can commit such a heinous crime has something incorrect in his character and such marriages can never work. It could lead to more violence."

It has created a whole new debate and generated a lot of sparks from everywhere. India IS a beautiful place to be in. Just like Malaysia. But the ignorance of leaders and blatant cover ups are just not to be tolerated. Sickening. It violates women rights. How can a woman be deemed unworthy if she was raped; against her own will?? It was NEVER her doing the wrong deed. She should not be blamed. Sometimes, sense should just be kicked into the heads of some leaders and politicians. Very disgusting, the blatant injustice of it all.

It angers me. I'll take a break and come back to blog more. A little angry with all this stupidity.

P.s# I met an angel. I'll call her J icequeen :) Thank you for giving me the encouragement I needed. You know who you are ;)

Love you all Tinkie winkies :)

Shia.

Spanish and I.

Meow :3

Sometimes, I like to speak in other languages :) Gives me a form of weird release?? A wicked cool thing. Today, mi encanta Espanol.

I'll give my Spanish viewers a piece in Espanol :)

Realmente. Si, si. Enojado. Sigh* Soy enojado. Mis grados son el empeoramiento. Tengo que ser más serio. Tengo que dejar de juguetear. No me consigo en ninguna parte. Ugh!! No sé que hacer ahora mismo. Realmente odio la desilusión. Éstos la clase de golpes realmente son un golpe en la cara. Es para cuatro sujetos. Realmente molesto. Me irrita. Tan enojado ahora mismo.

Spanish rocks my socks.

Amo el español!!

To my African friends: Jambo. Nintaka kustarehe :( So tired. Asante sana for reading my blog. Appreciate it.

Love,
Shia.

Mugging, my bestie and anti-matter.

Heels my baby sister bought me for my early birthday gift :) Heck, she ain't no cheapskate. Haha.

Sorry for the lack of updates mateys :)
I don't know why, I just can't get myself to mug for history :( Sigh* Bummer.

Okie but NOW I'm seriously mugging for History. LOL. Shucks. Then I'll have to focus on Chemistry. It's a bummer having 3 tough subjects in one semester. Ultimate doom. It's just a time problem as usual. Not enough time to mug for all. It sucks :( LOL.
Chemistry!! I have a Chemistry test on Friday :( Oh what bummers.

It's Lynn's birthday today!! Shout out to her, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST BESTIE!! I love you loads and a muaxx muaxx, MUAXX MUAXX!! Tonnes of slobbery kisses and hugs to you!!

Memories of us, oh the sweet memories :)








Lynn and I in pj's and having fun times :) The fun we had. Phew* And more dealings to come ;)

Been talking to the genius again, Aaron Howell. I just love his orgasmic brain. Seriously, it's so amazing to divulge into his wacky mind. Haha. We spoke about anti matter and reversing time based on it. The idea of it is to use anti matter and black holes. Interesting huh?? I've done a post on black and white holes :) Vacuums and how they defy laws of gravity by creating their own gravitational forces. Far more superior to that of Earth.

Aaron Howell says:
The idea was to find a large portion of antimatter in space
and fly into it with a space ship.
Because it would repulse the matter from your ship your be encased by it
you'd then use your gravity and fly into a black hole.
Because of its anti matter the black hole would have no effect on it or you;
being able to fly harmlessly through the eye,
and go back in time.

There, quoting directly :) Does thought have mass?? Hmm, it could you know. Like anger, if you have angry thoughts, you could move objects by radiating the negative energy through anger. Poltergeists work like that. Seriously. So yeah, all the time machines and black hole theories are just physics of the impossible. Some things perhaps should be left untouched :/ I don't know. It's so interesting, hard not to get lost in it.

Hmm, should we interfere with the courses of nature?? Might wreak havoc don't you think?? (Leading question.) LOL.

Too much on the brain, better be off :)

Toodles, muggly wumpies :) Lol!! Much love <3 <3

My crazy Eid fiesta.

So yeah, a food review as requested :) I'm bad at this, don't mind me. For dinner yesterday, we had Northen Indian food. Mm, the cuisine is just tasty!! It's so tongue tingling and the food and desserts are to die for :)

I had loads.



In the picture above: The butter chicken cooked to perfection. With paprika and lots of spices I can't name :)

I can't cook a thing so yeah :) We nearly burnt the kitchen down, me and my sister :) When we tried baking, our cookies turned out like poop. LOL. Oh and Lil tried frying a nugget. Let me show you how it looked like :)



Scary much?? LOL.

Continuing the food review.



Above: The mutton Rogan Josh or is it the varuval?? LOL I got mixed up. Too many dishes.



Above: My delicious naan bread. It's a kind of unleavened bread, something like what the Hebrews used to eat during the Passover feast :) Yummy!! We dip it into all kinds of dips, it's a bit like Middle Eastern food.



Above: Part of the chicken kebab. It's some kind of grilled meat?? Not bad, I'm a pesca so I can't judge :P



Above: A snippet of the feast we had. The drink on the right is called Lassi. I had salty Lassi :) In Tamil, it's known as Morru, a kind of yogurt. Really yummy, good for digestion.

So there :) A bad food review :P

Enjoy ;) Oh and Tommy says hi once again :P



All our love :)

The odds and my pommies.

Not every girl dreams of a white wedding. Not every girl believes in fairy tales. Not every girl gets attracted to hunks. Not every girl is a gold-digger. :)

I don't think about weddings, I'd rather a masquerade party or a goth one :P
I love nerds, would choose them over jocks/hunks any day.
I'd rather simple picnics and seaside walks which don't cost a cent over lavish I don't know what's any day :) See?? LOL.

So yesterday, I met the family up for a crazy time :) Afternoon till late at night.(One of my blog viewers requested a food review so I'll do it again) *Forgive me if I'm not so good in doing food reviews :P

So yeah, we hung out in my grandma's place in the afternoon till evening. My grandma is so cool, she even wants a nipple piercing according to my uncle. Haha!! She makes me laugh and she even has Facebook :)

Man, we ate like pigs yesterday, it was like our own Raya dinner. (Raya is a New Year for the Muslims.) :) It was awesome fun!! I'll show you all some pictures of the many animals we have :) TOO MANY in fact. Uncle asked me if I wanted an Alsatian. My answer: DEFINITE YES!!
Mum: NO!! Spoil sport :( Haha!!






Meet Joy :) (On top) She's a bundle!! A beagle and a terror!! She goes around biting everything including fingers, toes, and tails :)




This here is Tyra, she's a golden retriever. There, Joy biting Tyra's splendorous fur coat. *Jealous* ;)



Meet Tommy now :) He'a a 16 year old Pomeranian. Lovely, a little deaf now :(

As you can see, the whole family, we're animal lovers :) There are pictures of Goldie too, my gran's cat :) REALLY BEAUTIFUL golden cat. She ran away :(

So there, the bunch of them :P Including Panthora (soon to be black midnight kitty), Dribble, Beauty and Cutey, Jem, Woffle, Apple (Neighbour's Rott Weiler), Tyra, Tommy, and Joy. Not forgetting my precious tarantula, Midnight :) Ooh, the whole lot of me pommies.

LOL, loving them all!!
They say hi and send their love ;)

Chasing Abstracts.

My shoes and the moon :)

Icky stuff, itsy bitsy stuff, running through my head. At times like this, I feel like a small child. I feel like curling myself up into a ball and just sleeping things away :) When do we know where to draw the line?? When would we know just when to stop caring?? When would we know to drop our massive egos aside and let everything else take place??

Why do we fear when we do not know what's going to happen??

Why do we chase the abstracts?? Sometimes it feels like, too much to do, to think about. So little time. Time is the main constraint. There is a time "zone" that we could change. I mentioned a white hole before. A massive entity where you can just reverse time. It would be spewed out backwards so we'd all grow older instead of younger. I can't express myself through conversations :) I do it better through words and sentences in my journals and this here is my cyber cult :)

I don't know what I'm feeling. It sucks, I'll name it. Haha let's just call it the jangoes. I've a enormous case of the jangoes right now and it's a million things rushing through my brain matter. MILLION. Shucks, I wish I had more time :/

I have a tonne of feelings that I'm feeling and I don't know what they all are :) It's so abstract. It's like painting on a canvas in my head. I'm just painting and painting and waiting for the final effects to come out so I'd be able to see what comes out at last. It's funny how our minds work.

Should I dream of reversing time?? Should I dream of erasing certain incidents, people and memories??

I wish sometimes, there was only me in the world :) Silence would be deafening then. Wouldn't it.

Just some weird thoughts of mine when the jangoes hit ;)
Ta, good night!!