Monday, August 30, 2010

Mindless.



Silly us.

It's really funny that we think we're not worth anything sometimes. Yet there is someone else who would call us their world.

Sheesh, overrated patriotism. Sorry, I was never the patriotic type and never will be. Overtly sceptical on a lot of things. Wise eyes ;) Well, I just know the insights to political aspects in the country, you could say.

Well, moving on. Gosh, life could get unbearable sometimes you just feel like whacking the guy beside you up don't you?? Haha. It's 4.30 am now over here and I just snacked on some dried tomatoes and nachos. And a kiwi. Oh, and an isotonic drink. Which explains why I'm wide awake. Haha I should probably stop midnight snacking. Sheesh!! I have to work out!! The adrenaline pump causes me to stay wide awake and I'd be sleep deprived the next day. Ppfftt, Ramblings from me.

I miss you Vie, I miss you Priya, I know you read my blog October, I miss you too :( Sigh. I miss life there when we were all one huge big happy family. Feeling a little nostalgic right now. Can I reverse time?? :( Sigh*

You know, I feel like shooting someone down right now. So many things triggered off the raging gene in me. Ppfftt. It hurts pretty bad when the people around me are becoming so narrow-minded and foolish. Plus superficial. C'mon, there's more to life than doing nails or looking all dolled up. (For girls I mean.) People are changing, I'm progressing too fast sometimes. Lynn and I and a handful of us. We don't see eye-to-eye with some of the old peeps anymore. We see things without the rose-tinted glasses which makes it harder to find people "on our levels in every aspect". Was just telling Aaron :)

It's so hard to catch you online, Aaron :p You're all the way in another time zone, sheesh you!! I know you love to read about yourself and how ingenious you can get. LOL!!

I have to do another post so I'd probably do some mindless ranting there too as well?? LOL It's the end of August for me and I have to have an even number of blog posts in August ;) (Autistic me)

Love you peeps!! Ta.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Alone time. Hurt.



Caressed.

Oh my gosh, debating issues with my friends can get very heated sometimes especially if they happen to be old friends, ganging up on me plus a debater in the arena.

Fights happen. Ppfftt.

When people turn their backs on me, that's when it hurts the most. Especially when I don't understand why they did it. Yeah they may have reasons but the reasons were never made known to me. Till today, I'm still pondering about a lot of things. Things that happen, that happened, I mean; why do people walk into our lives when they are meant to be shown the door out?? Why do they stay so long, just to turn away at the end of the day?? So many questions running through my head. Hurts like crazy.

Brings back bittersweet memories. Memories are just plunging into my brain.

I just want to be held, I just want to be caressed by some of their hearts. I don't know what I did that they're so different from who I am today. It just sucks. I think I'll be a hermit. I'll curl up in my bed for now and start working on my Chemistry.

As always, Science will be and always will be my best friend. So will animals.

Love,
The broken.

P.s# I'm no coward.

Friday, August 27, 2010

Running and quantums.




A silly me and Jack picture. I love curly hair on guys, it's sexy. He's sexy. Woots*

Feeling a little unstable and emotional. LOL call it whatever you want :P
I blame it on the hormones. Or maybe, my emotions that are constantly running. Sigh* Just watched a video on an innocent school girl being raped by men. Date rape, she was sold off. It's disgusting, the way men are willing to sell and traffic women. Some women even, they enter the "lucrative" trade of sex trafficking. It's sickening. I know I've blogged on these issues before but the fact is, they never come off my brain. It's hard to forget about them; it happens everyday. Imagine, more than 25 000 per day. Sigh* Of women being forced into the prostitution trade.

On the other hand, I am quite content today. Went out and had fun with some of my most favourite people. Have to work out now. Been drinking coffee and tea the whole day. Such an indulgent being I am. LOL. Had fun with my baby sister, and "coincidentally" bumped into two of my favourite stars :) Woots* Also have my band to look forward to. I'm so lazy to brush up on my skills. Tee hee*

You know, some people are so sickening. They claim to be responsible yet they turn out to be the most sloppy people you could ever meet. It's terrible to have those as club presidents or people/colleagues you have to work with. Nothing would ever get done at that rate.

My brain is swimming with inorganic matter. Quantum science. It's starting to seep through my system through a very sly method of inception. I don't know what to do with it; where to place it exactly. It is a very intriguing case to study and research on. Doppelgangers for instance. They actually hit on some notes of quantum science, and the realms that they exist on.

Dang, I realize my parents spend a lot on me :/ Although I don't ask for anything. Lol.

Okie, back to quantum science and physics. The physics I've been learning barely even touch on quantum physics. Only because quantum physics and science on it can be disproved. My very own idol, Mr Albert Einstein tried to disprove it without much success. It's pretty strange to delve into the realms it has. It's really interesting as well, I'd like to see magic as a form of quantum physics. Everything in life could be disproved. I just realized it. It's scary, it shows how unstable everything and anything in life is. Just talking to the genius I know, Aaron. He and I are planning to disprove one famous theory that has ample loopholes. We'd be rich and famous then if we provide enough evidence :P Tee hee* My brain is scheming. Sigh* I have to work on my Chemistry and Math tonight :(

Gas pressure laws are a major, corrupt, pain in the derriere. Seriously, I have to squeeze every ounce of brain juice I have to figure out the equations. Ggrr, combined gas laws and bluh bluh. I really dislike you Mr Charles and Mr Boyle :( Their theories are so hard to apply. Grasping is okay, I just have to visualize a syringe. LOL. Sheesh. Can't stop thinking!!

My brain's a puddle of muck. It's a mess, a brilliant war zone :S I'm fighting against myself. How funny. Ironic even.

Whoops, my blog post is getting too long to handle. I'll stop here and create a new one :)

Love you, bloggermunsters :P Lots of love!!

P.S# Shoutout to my sissy, Rockstar and Allstar. Was awesome to see you both in Starbucks today :P

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

A History lesson.



I miss her :( My hot momma.

Gosh, this is killing. Doing editing for the team mates for my History assignment just ain't fun at all :(

The first Inaugural speech of Woodrow Wilson.

Woodrow Wilson actually created the “First Inaugural Address” in 1913 after the fall of Republican’s reign over United States of America year 1912 election. His speech was intended for Democrats, including himself as a president, who had gain the power of ruling in 1912 and for people of United States of America. It was written to urge the government and the people not to overlook their responsibilities to the country after their victory over republican. Government and the people are supposed to work together as one united body to build a better country for the people.

The Woodrow Wilson speech emphasized on the total completion of change of government; together with the senate; a whole and total process of a political tsunami in the government of the US of that time. The change was very significant and it was quite a memorable one as it was pretty obvious a statement that many people although they were having doubts perhaps and questions running through their minds about the whole new change on government, they did look forward to a new change in the system and that’s why the synchronized overall vote for the whole system including the government and senate to become a Democratic party happened.


In the speech, Mr President mentioned that there were a lot of underlying issues that have not been exposed. The main questions that were being thrown around in the arena of political change were, simply: What does the change mean?? What does it bring about and signify?? In the first paragraph, the speaker said that he would be interpreting the unknown and the questions running through the minds of the public.
The topics of inception of the new are brought forth and put on the roulette table. The new just seems to have infused into the system and become more acceptable and the old has removed their masks and become unrecognizable under the hood. The ugly side of the old systems has come out and reared their ugly behinds.

Also discussed are the fresh new ideas seeping through, penetrating the government and the senate systems bit by bit. They are making a refreshing positive wind of change in the arena. The battlefield of the new versus the old and trying to boot out every ounce of bad dust is happening through inception in the political markets. In our opinion, doubts have to be cancelled out and no leeway for bullets to be fired through loopholes should be evident.

The squandering of riches and resources were brought up. Much of the good crop had been spoilt by either negative influence or corrosion. When people wanted change in their lives, it meant that they were ready to get out of their comfort zones and take a leap of faith. The rampant corruption caused the people to want a significant and clean change in the government. The people already began putting the spectrum of politics under microscopic watch. Politicians had become too pompous, some even using up the money from taxes and for other selfish means. So a whole new cleansing in the system occurred.

Woodrow Wilson had delivered a powerful and meaningful speech. We agree hats down with his speech. He understood that in order for a country to keep developing, first, the country must have a strong economy. In his speech, he stressed that the country should deal with the current economy and strengthen it by any means necessary with proper planning.

However, without science, a country will not experience any major development. The use of science is also necessary other than economy, as science plays a major role in developing a country. Science makes work more efficient, saves lives, etc. There is always two side to a coin, science might appear as a happy ending for the country, but it can also become a liability to a country if put into a wrong use.
From the speech, it is being understood that the democratic party is a party whereby, everyone should work hand in hand for the country. After all, they were a government for the people.

Tax was a big issue. To develop a country, much monetary funds are needed. To get money, there must be a correct way to get the capital. Although, the government have the right to print more money, they didn’t do it but sold bonds instead. It is because if the companies printed more money, the money value in that country will drop. As a result, the government sold bonds to borrow money from their citizens and this brought benefits to the citizens by giving them high interests.

In this speech it was mentioned that the leaders or bosses of the companies didn’t provide freedom and more equal opportunities to the labourers because some of the labourers were forced to work for more than 12 hours on a very low salary scale. This affected them. When most of the labourers are ill, the country will be affected by slowed down speed on the country development. Besides that, the natural resources they used like iron, copper or trees were mined and chopped down so much. It is because the country was developing so quickly they needed more natural resources to build their country. Yet some people wanted to earn more money so those material suppliers or companies purposely increased the prices of materials. What we learnt from this speech is we must give some freedom to the labourers, allow the labourers to have enough rest and treat them good so that they will be more efficient and also that we have to be equal and fair; and not corrupt.

Woodrow Wilson’s speech openly criticized the ongoing issues within the government and industry. It was aimed at the common American. It was written because America as a whole was deviating from its core values such as justice and liberty. The speech was written in response to the corruption and opacity of the government and the ruthlessness of robber barons who corrupted them and planted seeds of greed. The society became smarter as they realized problems of the common American had been falling on deaf ears in the past.

The views that come through and make and impact are the need for a change, not just mere change but a whole leap and bound forward, a revival of past values; the core values. Progress was no longer worth the human cost. The need was there to reverse the damage back to the way things were at the founding, where every man was free to pursue happiness. The author would seem to be an honest man, fighting for the interest of every American equally, and not favouring the rich. He would seem astute to notice the slow decline of America into a dog eat dog world, which is expected being that he is a political scientist.

All in all, the main reasons for the overthrow of the old were the desperate need for change, and also equity and access for all Americans in their fight for equality, thus creating a whole sweeping political tsunami in that era.


My final compilation of it :) Impact and all.
Events taking place are breaking me bit by bit :( Sigh*

Much love, Shia.

Illusions.



Friends and I.
Aloha, Blogger buddies.

Sigh*

Today, I learnt that I create illusions of humans. I see them through rose-coloured glasses and when they dis-illusion me and shatter my glasses, it hurts right down to the core. I'm feeling very numb now :) The hurt has subsided, it's just more of a dull throb of heartache. Sigh* I care for my friends too much. Have stood up for them yet sometimes, they have the heart to turn on me. It's funny how the mouths you feed might turn around and bite you.

It's just funny. Everything is a blur today. At a standstill?? Not a permanent one though. I have so much more to say :( And post but I have to compile my History assignment. I'm so packed these days I don't even have alone time with myself and that sucks :(

Okie, I'll post more later. When and if I get up :)

Muaxxie and a goodnight from the willow tree.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Peepholes.



Me and Vie :)
Naughty America teacher mode?? LOL.

Many things are looking at me from their peepholes. I mean inanimate things and not objects. Pretty abstract a metaphor :/ LOL.

I mean, I still have my History project to work on, I have six hours of class tomorrow (really hard stuff like History, Additional Math and Chemistry lab), I'm in charge of an event's decoration part, sigh* such a bother. Oh and OH I'm in a band!! I'm actually euphoric about it!! :) I finally can put to use my rusty skills again!! The people in my band, they're amazing!! There's my friend Kitten on the saxophone, Jamie on the guitar and vocals (he can play the drums and keyboard too), Tony on the drums and me, I'm the lead singer and keyboardist!! I'm so excited about all these new happenings and cool beginnings in my life once again.

Life seems to have found lee ways into my heart again. Perks after disappointments don't seem so bad after all :)I still don't have many friends in my new course but oh well :) LOL.

Gosh, I'm always too tired to blog :( I always end up falling asleep curled up on my notebook. Haha!! Anyway, mythology. Woots* And the Norse. Norse mythology is interesting!! Although they vary according to source.

I'm interested in a particular being called Loki. Some say he was son of Odin. Some say he tricked his way up there. It's also funny because in Norse mythology, the guys gave birth. Loki was a guy, a trickster and he actually gave birth to a spider-like creature of 8 legs. There are many different edda's and poems about him, very hard to read them. I find them very lengthy and twsited. Captivating right?? Tee hee.

Sorry for not being able to blog much. Sheesh, full to my neck with assignments and what nots :/

Love you blogophobes, Muaxx!! XOxo,
Lishia.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

The massive implosion and dishy jargons.



When I think :)

Aaron just triggered off a massive explosive, LARGE implosive, crazy wild reaction in my brain's pineal and amygdala. (Forgive the whacky terms and dishy jargon.) My brain just swelled to the size of Copenhagen.

Want to hear what's on it?? Let me tell you :)

1. The First Inaugural address of Woodrow Wilson.

2. Chemistry and bionics and some cryonics are floating around my brain matter.

3. I'm worrying about my bad Math allergy. (Blatant over-exaggeration on my part). LOL.

4. Silence, it's deafening!! Thanks, Aaron for planting this ever so provocative thought in my head. I just read his blog and he has a point!! Silence be it external or internal, triggers off adverse reactions. Humans are actually afraid of silence I think, hence the making of music, etc. You really jolted me, Aaron. Your poem is amazing!!

5. Humans. Still trying to grasp the depth and fathom the very making and being of them. And myself included of course.

6. All these combined makes a huge floatation of everything altogether which makes it harder to sort out and comprehend. Oh, plus Norse mythology!!

I'd have to go to Sweden and get the truth on Norse mythology. It all differs!! Various sources have various things to say about it!! Gosh!!

I really have to go and get ready for dinner. I promise I'll come back and blog later. Too much on my mind, too much to handle. It's all very intriguing. Very mind-boggling, brain-blowing, heart eating. LOL.

Lots of love!! Thanks Aaron, for the orgasmic brain stimulation although you're a million miles away!!

Friday, August 20, 2010

Random Saturday to you.



Dribble says hi :)

I feel a little nutty today :) Maybe it was too much sleep. Maybe it was the donuts for breakfast and the blueberry cheese tart and chocolate cheesecake I had for tea :)

Phew* Let's blog!! I feel the mojo running through the whole of me, right down to my tootsies on my feet :)

I really feel nutty!! But, but yeah. TWO BUTTS!! Sigh* I have History assignment to do :( Boo hoo. On a Saturday!! I'm a good girl so I'll sit and finish it and blog at the same time. Haha!! Gosh I'm really hyper. Too much sugar in the blood :) Think I'll dance to rid it :) LOL!!

My mum's a psychologist as you all know. This annoying ex student/patient of hers keeps calling our house now. He used to do that but he stopped after awhile. After mum warned him and reported him to his mum. He's a creep. Seriously. Calling our house phone is okie but just breathing down it or humming scary tunes down it is stalker-ish and eerie?? Much?? Sheesh. He's started again. Really creeps the crap out of me :S

Haha so I'm supposed to be bathing right now?? And getting ready for dinner. Dad gave us a choice of Japanese food or Western. Yum, both are nice :) Have to work out first :P

Too much cheese in the system!! LOL.

Promise to blog later. PROMISE :) I'll do a post on Norse gods. Starting to get hooked onto Norse mythology now as well. Phew* LOL. Myths are cool :p

Peeps, will see you all later.

P.s# Allstar, you bruised me. *Rawr* Battle is on!! Wombat's getting smashed by koala. Plus, Panthera's beating Thor. Trust me on that!!

Tata :)

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Funny how.



Funny how two people don't know they're meant for each other till something happens.
Funny how destiny and fate works.
Funny how when the day starts, I want it to end but when it ends, I want it to start because I miss you.
Funny how things work.
Funny how humans take things for granted and then complain when we lose out.
Funny how you hate someone at first and the feelings change to the opposite scale.

Funny how you say, "I'll NEVER", YET it happens in the end.
Funny how the very mouths you feed can turn around and bite you in the blink of an eye.
Funny how when you start dreaming, you NEVER wanna stop.
Funny how when the person smiles, it puts a smile back on yours.
Funny how the little things the person you love do for you count in HUGE amounts.
Funny how disappointment bogs down a person.

Funny how depression seeps in.
Funny how the very person you wanna block, WALKS through ALL your good defense mechanisms.
Funny how you feel like dancing when no one's watching.
Funny how I feel funny.
Funny I'm Facebooking when I've a Chemistry quiz tomorrow!!
Funny how I don't wanna flunk it.



:) <3 <3

P.s# Funny how my blogging mojo only comes back when I'm supposed to be studying ;)

Monday, August 16, 2010

My current state of mind.



Have you ever been stuck so bad no one seems to be able to pull you out??
Have you ever walked through the hall of shame, guilt and disappointment??
Have you ever felt so low that even the ground seems to be above you??

My current state of mind:

Boiled.

Peeved.

Scared.

Sad.

Sorrowful.

Disappointed.

Depressed.

Will get well soon and get back to blogging.
Love you, peeps!!

P.s# Would you hold me so tight I know I'm not falling apart??

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Triumph.



But yes. Pertaining to the post I just etched out, I will put on a beam on my lips and a glow in my cheeks.

I will adopt the positive attitude!! The world is my oyster and no one can bring me down!!

I will fight off depression for it is my greatest downfall.

I will learn and wear the armour made for me and face the battles out there, tough as they are!!

I will :)

I will succeed. Muaxx peeps!! <3 <3

Stuff.



Me :)

Feel bad about not blogging properly for so long :)

Been going through some funny times. It's like being one of the Stepford wife characters. Where nothing is flawed that you know, somehow, somewhere, something is bound to go wrong because it's just all hidden behind the screen of perfection. You know that the screen would just fall and all the demons you're afraid to face would just come out and haunt you. Something like that :)

Or maybe it's just me. I believe in conspiracies. Theories of conspiracy DO exist. It's not just all in the mind. It is out there. And yes, Ouch!! The hives really hurt. LOL I don't even know how I contracted them. Yucks*

Would you go back to a place where they've all been brainwashed?? Would you ever dare to step foot in a place that has become so foreign to you, so alien?? You know what to expect yeah. But all is so odd. So foreign. Like you know you'd lose your footing and balance in there. I don't know. It's just this weird period of time I'm going through. Is it all in the head?? Or is it really out there and happening?? My mind is too powerful, sometimes I've to fight it off just to fend for myself. I'm serious. My brain, my mind and my heart are three really powerful entities that clammer for the biggest power, the highest title in me. They never rest, not even when I sleep :) Maybe that's the best way to explain how I feel. LOL I feel bad. Lil's outside bathing Woffle but I can't help her. I'm supposed to stay away from seafood, fast food and animals :s

LOL. Sad huh. I hate the hives. LOATHE, HATE AND DESPISE. Ouch.

Have you ever felt like you're walking through halls of shame and guilt?? And all you feel is remorse and pain?? Have you ever felt so tormented you just want to slit your skin open just to prove to the world your point?? Have you ever felt so demented that nothing stops anything?? Have you ever been questioned over and over again?? Have you ever felt not good enough??

Love, Shia.

P.s# Sorry :P Weird times ;) Muaxx!!

Hives.



Chwissy and me.

Hives :( Oh no!! They itch!! They burn!! They hurt!! They make me want to scratch!! Haha.

Have you ever felt like breaking down. Gosh, LOL someone, kick me out of emo-dom!!

Ughh the hives are itchy!! Sorry, this is all random ranting.

I'll get to posting better posts up. SO BUSY WITH THE SEM!! UGH UGH UGH UGH IS all I can say.

*Sniffle*

P.s# Glomps out to Aaron, Passerby, Allstar. Muaxx!! Love you Allstar :)

Much love.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Today.



Today, there is too much on my mind.
Metaphors swirling, pins are singing and pianos playing.

Today, my brain is being fried worse than octopus juice. This feeling is not a bad one, I know that I'm using my brain almost to its full capacity then.

Today, I wish I didn't have to fear exams. I would be able to perform so much better if I didn't have "examophobia".

Today, I realized I want to put on a smile of confidence and kick life in the butt to let it know who's in power.

Today, I want to be me.

Today, I want you beside me, every step of the way. I want to know so much more, I want to satisfy my cravings.

Today, I want to stop trying to be perfect and to embrace my imperfections with open arms.

Today, I just want to be able to love again.

Today, I found that I've been able to love again. I have been. It's broken, the dam at full gush.

Today.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Sometimes.



Sometimes, I hurt just because the ones close to me hurt.

Sometimes, emotions overwhelm and engulf me. Like the ocean and a riverbed, overlapping on the shore.

Sometimes, little things trigger off huge reactions.

Sometimes, what may seem like a huge deal to me, MASSIVE, may seem like a germ to you.

Sometimes, I know what you think about, I know what makes you, YOU, and I know what makes you tick and what ticks you off exactly.

Sometimes, I could be the voice in your head, prompting gently. The good one.

Sometimes, I just hurt because I'm human. Only partially.

I'm not norm, I don't hit norm or anywhere close to normalcy. But that's only what makes me, ME.

Sometimes, I just hurt because I'm not good enough. Never was and still on the way there.

Sometimes, perfect to you may only be halfway there to me.

Sometimes, I love you more than words can say, more than I can express it.

Sometimes, I hurt the ones I love. The closest to me.

Sometimes, I push you away but it makes you human to walk back to me, baby steps at a time.

Sometimes, i just have implosions, too hard to handle.

Sometimes, I'm just human.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

My current wishlist.



Some funny picture. I saw a few guys drinking ALL that up. WOW.

Ouch you know, just ouch. Seeing my loved ones hurt so bad actually hurts me even more. I love Priya and I really understand the amount of hurt she's going through. I was once like that when I was stuck in the hellhole.

I wish:

-I could be free like the wind.

-I could pull Priya, Vie and few other close friends of mine out of the hellhole I was once in.

-I could express myself more easily.

-People wouldn't judge me but see me as I am.

-I could be perfect in every aspect possible although that would be impossible.

-The words depression, sorrow, deceit and hurt never existed.

-Life would take on a better roll.

-I were a genius. Brilliant. Assaultingly amazing!!

I just wish.

Love, Numb.

Friday, August 6, 2010

Miss Moon and the genius.



Evil Miss Moon.

Aaron says:
i took a placement test
i scored 98 percent in reading comprehension
87 in writing corrections
and 97 in pre algebriac math
and 40 in algebra

HAHA!! The smartness of him. But he got pulled down by algebra :s Somehow, the smartest people don't do so well in Math huh :)

He's going to kill me if he sees this :p

Miss Moon case# 6.

Dear Miss Moon, I'm a 14 year old teenage girl. This guy, he has been pulling my hair, bullying me and constantly teasing me about my weight. He calls me a whale, an elephant but the worst name of all is Freak Of Nature :( Oh Miss Moon, please help me. He really kills me on the inside. He's really good-looking and he's a jock. I feel so awful. A lot of my friends have turned on me because of his constant teasing. They start to shy away because they don't want to be associated with a loser. I can't help looking the way I am :(

Miss Broken.

My reply:
Dear Miss Broken, first thing first, he ain't no guy. Let's refer to him as jerk. Yup he's a definite jerk alright??

Well, let's see. I'll plot a great revenge for you. Fist, rob a tattoo parlour. Steal their tattooing equipment. Then ink his face. On his forehead, write, "LOSER" in capital letters.

Then, carve your name into his balls so he'll never forget you. You suffered more than he's ever going to. How dare he put you through such emotional damage. Then, glue his eyeballs shut and sew his lips. Then you can begin the torture, tee hee.

Let's be creative and use some kind of science and logic in this :) He's a jock, you say. Hmm, use a very very thin metal tube and stick it up his penis. Then, shoot a very fine jet of water up it :) It's gonna hurt for sure. Increase the pressure every few minutes or so. Make sure it's at a very high pressure!! Release him after that. Too much submission is a bummer.

Love, Miss Moon :)

Next day's headlines:
School girl caught for inducing and devicing terrible methods of torture on 17 year old boy. Also held on accounts of robbery and is currently in a mental institution for a thorough brain check.

Haha!!

;) Love, your Miss Moon.

Sketches and stuff.



Being silly :)

Life. It is being etched out bit by bit, sketched out scene by scene. Or at least, think so.

I'm still trying to be a perfect positive being. And gosh, I hate waking up in the middle of the night like this. My thoughts, they engulf me. And slowly, they start their intricate growth. And like an inception, they seep through all my visualizations. And they implode, worse than kyrptonite. I'm still expected to remain silent as it's the night. Or rather, WAY early in the morning :) Feel like a metaphor.

So, Facebook has become quite my social life :) Spend half the time at home on Facebook which can be quite a bad thing. Hope I can wean myself of it for awhile. I have to achieve and maintain a perfect grade to get to where I want to. Sigh*

I also realized, I wish for the unreachable, the impossible. Which pertains to other homo sapiens per say. I wish people could be less judgemental, less critical. Everywhere I go, I stick out like a sore thumb. And in class, it's even worse. Now that I'm back in my field, (Science), people tend to judge me more. When I walk in to class, it's pretty embarrassing because everyone stares and I sit alone :) I don't look like any of my classmates. They think I'm in the wrong class. They stereotype me as a mass commer. Haha I feel like laughing yet, on the other hand, I kind of feel the little bit of grittiness there.

Tee hee, I've been ranting :P So busy for the past week. Seriously, have been rushing off for classes and on some days, it's 6 hours in a row. I'm not complaining. Enjoying my subjects- American History (We learnt about the Indians and how they were chased onto reservations)- conspiracy theories, Additional Math-Algebra and Trigonometry, Chemistry- back to calculating molar mass, moles and stuff like that and Public Speaking.

I kind of found myself again?? Or maybe, am in the process of finding myself a little here and there. In my old semester, when I was in Mass Communications, I couldn't even read. It's not that I didn't have the time. I was just down all the time. Mum said I sleep off depression. When Im depressed, I tend to sleep a lot which is kind of weird because I don't really need much sleep :)

So.. Yes. Recently been hooked to John Grisham's amazing intricately written books. He could be a bit dry. He doesn't put in much humour or romance. Yet his books are very very stimulating in the sense that you might even feel empathy towards the people who bombed Jewish synagogues or law firms. Stuff like that :) Sorry if I'm boring you. LOL As usual, it's the time of the night where my brain goes on overdrive an my mind goes on hyper mode :)

Let's have laughs.

Things I'm embarrassed about.

1. Falling down a lot. (Yeah I'm in my own world and sometimes I don't see steps in front of me)

2. I waved at someone in the bathroom that day and she just gave me a long stare. (She didn't know me) HOW EMBARRASSING!!

3. I hugged some man whom I thought was my dad. GOSH!!

4. Making people change numbers with me or for me just because I cannot stand odd numbers. It's annoying. Haha. Like if I'm in line at the bank and I get an odd number, I HAVE TO change it to get an even number. Even the volume on radios and television sets. My dad is starting to get annoyed with this habit of mine :P

Haha!! There we go. I'm going to post a Miss Moon post up next. Before I start burrowing my nose into books :P It's 4 am here!!

Ta, peeps!! Rippa, all my love.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Injustice and homo sapiens. And Aaron Howell.



I'm feeling hyper!! :) As you can see.

Had some chocolate and orange juice :P It's 4.01 am Malaysian time. LOL thought I'd blog on some issues before I head to bed or maybe straight to college!! I've class at 8 am :( Sigh* Yay me!! :( Math class!! Early in the morning.

The news today wasn't so good. People in Iran are still protesting about stoning women. They're SO BACKWARD. I always hold forth to the theory my dad proposed. Education is the key to liberation which is very true. The only reason why a society cannot gro is because people are not educated or they are socially ignorant.

I beseech the president of Brasil, Mr Luiz Inacio Lula Da Silva (Although I know I'm still a nobody technically) to really speak to the President of Iran, Mr Mahmoud Ahmadinejad to thoroughly revise the rules and abolish the stoning of women in Iran. Is it not fair that a man can cheat on his wife and get away with it?? But if the notion of the wife cheating is even planted in the husband's head, there'd be an uproar over there. Although it's not proven. How can they work on non-substantial evidence and convict?? It is a case where it becomes a plight and seriously, women should be protected. Especially from all these fanaticism of religions that actually commit gender oppression. Sigh* This issue is really depressing. To watch women in other parts of the world suffer because of blatant accusations. It's plain violations of rights. I probably shouldn't let emotions get to me when I blog on sensitive issues lest I blurt out something wrong. Hmm.

The ongoing case from 2006 which is the call for the stoning of Sakineh, an Iranian woman who was accused of cheating on her husband has brought much discussion in my head. Can't sleep now. And I've and Additional Math class at 8 am!! It's 5.15 am now!! Gosh!! SO DEAD. Aaron Howell is keeping me company at this unearthly hour. Haha I'm such a night person but then again, the night is fun because it's quiet and I can process my thoughts. So again, coming back to Sakineh. She was accused of committing adultery. She denied it. Of course. But how can they take law into their hands?? Till they decide to stone her?? Such a humiliating way of dying. It brings back really significant memories. I watched Soraya when they stoned her. On a video of course, it was banned in my country. Somehow managed to find it. It's disgusting, and the lowest form of punishment for a human other than being crucified.

Soraya's own children had to stone her and scream "Allah hu Akhbar", which means God he reigns. Her own little boys had to kill their mother in an unlawful manner in the name of religion. Honestly, NO religion would ever ask a child to do that. The ayatollahs of the town were just being sexist and a journalist got the full story on her. It was amazing, Soraya's husband wanted to silence her because she wanted to report him to he mayor. He never paid for her children and she was the only bread winner of the family. They managed to fabricate a story and the whole town believed the evil man and the evil people who were backing him up.

Unbelievable. Lust and fornication when it comes to men is okie. What crap.

Sorry. Just very very mad.

I say, FREE SAKINEH!! Don't stone her. It's disgusting and less than human. Please. Okie, I have to run. Got to get ready for college :( ADD MATH, OH NO!! It's 5. 30 now :P

Have a good day yo and maybe, tell me about your days sometime soon ;)

Love you all!! SO MUCH.

P.s# GLOMP, Aaron :P Look, I'm a squirrel munching on your nuts. Haha!! Oh my gosh, just realized how wrong that sounded :S

Ta yo!!

P.s.s# Happy birthday, Rockstar!! Although I know you don't read my blog :P

Ta for the final time and hugs and kisses*
*Huggles*, *Rawr* :3 *Meow*